lighterlifeclaire
Silver Member
I'm gunna make this short... (ive just read it back and it didnt work... I've rambled! sorry!..)
I went to week 9 meeting tonight and lost another 6lbs... so well done me...
However, I bought something up with the others regarding compliments (or "strokes") that I've received from other people... I said that it makes me feel SO uncomfortable and it seems to have opened up a can of worms... a very large can...
I have kind of discovered... or well, I think so... with the others help... that I am absolutely POOPING myself about getting any lighter than I already am. I have lost 50lbs (i think) up until now... and that is definately an achievement.. but ive never noticed that talking about MY weight is such an issue for me. I'm ok with my group, and coming on here... but with anyone else even my closest friends I brush off the subject and walk off or change the subject - rapidly.
I think its fear of the unknown... I've never been slim and I've never been this size (my CURRENT weight) since, well... my journey through putting on weight... But for the record, I don't actually know when I was this size/weight because I NEVER weighed myself before LL.
My gosh... I feel so down :cry::cry::cry: I think I have always been in denial... and not realised... and just finding out (although am I stupid for not knowing?) has hit me like a tonne of bricks. :sigh::cry:
I went to week 9 meeting tonight and lost another 6lbs... so well done me...
However, I bought something up with the others regarding compliments (or "strokes") that I've received from other people... I said that it makes me feel SO uncomfortable and it seems to have opened up a can of worms... a very large can...
I have kind of discovered... or well, I think so... with the others help... that I am absolutely POOPING myself about getting any lighter than I already am. I have lost 50lbs (i think) up until now... and that is definately an achievement.. but ive never noticed that talking about MY weight is such an issue for me. I'm ok with my group, and coming on here... but with anyone else even my closest friends I brush off the subject and walk off or change the subject - rapidly.
I think its fear of the unknown... I've never been slim and I've never been this size (my CURRENT weight) since, well... my journey through putting on weight... But for the record, I don't actually know when I was this size/weight because I NEVER weighed myself before LL.
My gosh... I feel so down :cry::cry::cry: I think I have always been in denial... and not realised... and just finding out (although am I stupid for not knowing?) has hit me like a tonne of bricks. :sigh::cry: