Ok guys; into my third week; I know it looks like 2 weeks, but I started before my first WI.
I get weighed tomorrow; and reckoning on 2-4 lbs loss, which will take me to 10 something!
My head/heart isnt there either, but unlike Tanya and Sarah (which I wish I could do), my aim is to not binge rather than getting to a certain weight (well for now anyway)! So, I am scared, but my worry on LT is that I am in that zone now and well, my thinking is that if I start to refeed properly then stay close on here, I may get through!
Trying not to feel sorry for myself and trying to stay focussed! I have enjoyed my time on LT the past few weeks; has got my confidence back again so really dont want to lose this again.
So, I am aiming to refeed on Friday; havent even looked at menus, but I reckon I will go with what I did last time, so will have a look at my diary! My goal is not to even lose weight when on refeed but to stay healthy and not to give into this demon of mine!
I have my ED appt on 18 May, and if I can stay strong till then, I will be the happiest person alive! I may have a few blips; being realistic here but just wanted to document this for accountability more than anything.
So, guys, this is it!! Although, who knows I may even chicken out and stay on the shakes!!!!!!!!! But, the way I feel at the minute I doubt it....but so long as this isnt an excuse to think I can binge?????
I get weighed tomorrow; and reckoning on 2-4 lbs loss, which will take me to 10 something!
My head/heart isnt there either, but unlike Tanya and Sarah (which I wish I could do), my aim is to not binge rather than getting to a certain weight (well for now anyway)! So, I am scared, but my worry on LT is that I am in that zone now and well, my thinking is that if I start to refeed properly then stay close on here, I may get through!
Trying not to feel sorry for myself and trying to stay focussed! I have enjoyed my time on LT the past few weeks; has got my confidence back again so really dont want to lose this again.
So, I am aiming to refeed on Friday; havent even looked at menus, but I reckon I will go with what I did last time, so will have a look at my diary! My goal is not to even lose weight when on refeed but to stay healthy and not to give into this demon of mine!
I have my ED appt on 18 May, and if I can stay strong till then, I will be the happiest person alive! I may have a few blips; being realistic here but just wanted to document this for accountability more than anything.
So, guys, this is it!! Although, who knows I may even chicken out and stay on the shakes!!!!!!!!! But, the way I feel at the minute I doubt it....but so long as this isnt an excuse to think I can binge?????
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