Hi Lise,
No need to apologise -- it's all good. Yes, cut back on the carbs and you'll debloat in no time. I think the sodium in the Indian food is the culprit.
I self-sabotage... I know I do. Losing the weight will not fix everything in my life that needs fixing -- so, if I never lose it all, then I keep fixated on this issue and not deal with the others. I am working on this.
MM