So here it is - this is what's needed me thinks - a fresh start. Ok, so its only virtual but I already feel a little relief after all yer replies yesterday night and ive had a nice sleep and a think and i've decided to take everything as it comes. Im a believer in what will be will be, if its meant to happen it will and i had kinda lost my way a little on that belief but its back and im sticking to it. So tuesday is the new start. Going to get this christmas holiday weight off and then see how i feel only then with regards to losing more. :grouphugg: note to self: started maintence 9th nov 09. started 2nd diary 5th jan 10.