Day 1 refeed.
Sooo nervous for having my WI today! Feeling v v bloated and emotional, so maybe totm again for me. But it's been 8 days and I've stuck to plan well a few cheats but just a little extra protein and always been within cals and carbs.
Was really upset this morning, my dad died at the end of last year and it's just become really apparent my half brothers screwed me out of anything that was my dads, not just money as I didn't expect that anyway really but it seems I'm going to have nothing of his. My grandmothers jewellery has 'dissappeared' along with something that was supposed to be for my kids. And I really wanted all my dads cameras so much as he didn't go anywhere without this ridiculous hulking camera bag so would have been nice. It meant a lot, and he's just started ignoring my requests, there's not much I can do as he lived in Sweden and so does my half brother (who's 42- a lot older than me!) so I trusted him to sort it out, but he's told so many lies and conflicting stories I just don't believe any of it anymore. I'm really upset as I was really happy also I had connected with him, we've never really known each other and I thought finally I had a brother, so it's feeling like a double blow really, my bf always told me he thought it was suspicios and I shouldn't trust him, and I think he was right, I just wanted to have faith and believe people are ultimately moral and good. Ugh. Rubbish, v sad today.
9-12pm water and cups of tea w/milk allowance
1pm cottage pie + coke zero
1:30pm green tea with mint
2-4pm 500mls water + green tea with mint
3pm kiwi fruit
4:30pm banana shake made with 500mls water
7pm 150g chicken, 100g tenderstem broccoli, 50g carrots, 50g peas + 500mls water
7:15pm green tea with mint
8pm 3 bits of potato (argh)
8:30-10pm 1 litre water, green tea with mint
WOOO 3lbs off for last WI. Bit gutted it wasn't more, was really hoping for 5, but its been pretty hot the last few days and I'm really spotty, bloated and hormonal (YUCK) so maybe TOTM for me. Going to work hard in my refeed to try and counter any water gains with some fat loss too. Weirdly even though I dropped 3lbs my bodyfat was higher?! I don't get that.
So finished offical S&S 18lbs lighter, in 3 weeks, can't complain like!
I just had a kiwi fruit! felt wrong, but soooo nice. And been sunbathing all avo so extra nice. xx