oh jlm - dont feel down please. I feel the same as i have an unexpected holiday this fortnight so tomorrow is my last day on plan. because it is a totally out of the blue holiday i cant get my head around it. but i refuse to let cd take over my life. I will just use the time as a test to not overeat. just get these bad days over and done with then come back when you are ready girl. i was planning days off cd but was back on it yesterday. my cdc has run out of supplies andi am running very low but i am still having the shakes i have left and low carb meal in the evenings and am not gaining. part of me just thought sod it, i'm on hols after tomorrow and there is so much to organise that i should just forget cd until mon 19th but staying with it (albeit partly) makes me feel better.
I am dreading coming back to cd after a fortnight off as i think i might face the same struggles as you. hopefully i will be back posting on here and will need all the support on this wonderful thread.
i am trying not to panic about coming off CD and not moving up the plans, and just trying to remind myself that when i come back i have a good 7-8 weeks to undo any damage before i go on hols in june. CD is a journey, and mine like yours is slow. keep at it jlm, you are an inspiration to me and i am here for you any time you need to talk.