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Flare said:
I know you're right Jen, I've got to take control of the things that are in my gift to do so. Unfortunately like many other people, my emotional state drives my eating habits.
This time last year I was on a real high, with 3lbs to get to get to target, now I'm guessing I'm +10lbs away despite keeping my weight down and steady for months.
i just need that inspiration again. My friend is losing weight on a different diet and I'm envious of her seemingly unfaltering resolve, I had that not so long ago :(
Tomorrow I'm going try my hardest to stick to plan...... I can but keep trying
xxx
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Your right hunni, you can but keep trying and one day it will just click again !
10lb or so away from goal is still blooming good going so don't be to hard on yourself :)
You KNOW you can do it !
 
she s in the zone and your not just now. but id be very impressed with what you have achieved

tom you go for one thing just one thing and see if you can build from there cause you know what you want? the zone, life is a lot easier in there
jenxx
 
Still struggling to get in the zone :( Today has been better than previous days but still not 100% on plan
I'm going to put everything I have into tomorrow because I can't stand feeling like this anymore. I never realised how fragile my self esteem is until now :lost:
 
They say never start a diet on a Monday.........
My track record lately has been abmissmal and I think I've finally reached that point, so toast is the day I turn things around
i hope everyone's doing ok?
 
Oh Flare! I'm so sorry your in what I like to call 'The Pit' :-( Look around, all that furniture lying around is because I moved my fat a$$ in earlier this year and couldn't climb the hell out! First things first .... calm down and go easy on yourself. I know it sounds counter productive, but you have got to stop kicking your own butt. This sounds like an EXTREMELY stressful time for you; nothing is permanent and this insane period will pass ... I am the queen of eating my emotions (ALL of them: Good, Bad, Bored, Lonely, Frustrated, Happy), so until you crack the ketosis nut, if you are feeling like you want to eat have a palm sized piece of protein instead of going wild (two eggs, chicken etc). Christmas is upon us and we all know 'Tis the Season to Stuff your Gob with Cr@p' so that makes it harder, but you are not a failure. You are not weak nor any of the 100 things we tell ourselves. You have done this before. You WILL do this again. You're already doing what you should be doing i.e. not giving up and trying each day to turn over the engine. Don't give up honey... We've all been in the same boat at one time or another and we're rooting for you xx
 
Hi all! (And special thanks to Jen xx) I just hijacked my Sunshine Boy's computer so that I could check in (using this site on my rubbish Samsung is a nightmare) - hope everyone is doing great and getting as far down the totem pole as possible before Christmas Day :)

After my phenomenal 17lb loss last month I breezily stuck to SS religiously, drank my water and just got on with CWP and had the underehelming loss of .... wait for it .... 3lbs. 3lbs. Three POUNDS. There are no words to describe my fury. But here's the best bit, I swore (colourfully, daily and at great length) at the offending scales and just carried on :D. It's a basic equation thus: SS = weight loss. Simples. Water retention, Ovarian cysts, heck an invisible gorilla riding my back, be d@mned. I can't be on SS and not losing something in real terms so I just don't focus on it. I intend to have a day off for Christmas and carry on.

This has been an absolute BEAST of a year on so many levels. Mum has finally been placed in a home for dementia patients and my heart breaks daily (after an epic 14 week battle with the NHS and the Local Authority - thanks for the advice Jen x), but she is safe and can't get lost or hurt herself so I try to swallow the tears and the feeling of letting her down and hold on to that. My sisters are finally acting like grown ups and behaving like they actually like each other; my beautiful SB is making the most of college and had a fantastic live performance of his music at the end of term in a Lounge bar in town and got a standing ovation; I went for an interview last friday and finally (FINALLY!!!!!) got a permanent job; RC and I have been to dinner and drinks (and oh my goodness he's Gooooooorgeous! Yum:gimi::gimi:) and things are progressing nicely, and I have a week off of work. The only thing I miss is you guys :) I manage to have a read now and again, but every time I try to send messages using my mobile they disappear!! So frustrating! But anyway: will do better lol x

2015 here we come!!!
B xxxx
 
This is such a lovely read. I'm sorry about your Mum but she's in the best place to offer her the care and support she needs. Well done you on sticking to SS. I'm completely off plan and I figure no point starting now, not when the Mother is going to be cooking her death by gorgeous food Christmas dinner. I will start again on 2nd January and I will shift this 5 stone! Size 12 by Christmas next year at least!!

Hope everyone has a wonderful, safe and healthy Christmas. Love to you all xxx
 
Awh! Be so lovely to read your post! Very sad about your mum but sounds like finally for her she is getting specialist care she needs and I completed understand how difficult making that decision must have been for you. Despite a difficult 6 months your post simply reads so positively (and puts me and my moaning to shame). Really cheered me up Bev especially reading about your Sunshine Boy! Reminds me of my own SB. Congrats on the new job too and wow the romance! Brilliant 2015 will be simply amazing year for you!
 
Beverley75 said:
Hi all! (And special thanks to Jen xx) I just hijacked my Sunshine Boy's computer so that I could check in (using this site on my rubbish Samsung is a nightmare) - hope everyone is doing great and getting as far down the totem pole as possible before Christmas Day :)

After my phenomenal 17lb loss last month I breezily stuck to SS religiously, drank my water and just got on with CWP and had the underehelming loss of .... wait for it .... 3lbs. 3lbs. Three POUNDS. There are no words to describe my fury. But here's the best bit, I swore (colourfully, daily and at great length) at the offending scales and just carried on :D. It's a basic equation thus: SS = weight loss. Simples. Water retention, Ovarian cysts, heck an invisible gorilla riding my back, be d@mned. I can't be on SS and not losing something in real terms so I just don't focus on it. I intend to have a day off for Christmas and carry on.

This has been an absolute BEAST of a year on so many levels. Mum has finally been placed in a home for dementia patients and my heart breaks daily (after an epic 14 week battle with the NHS and the Local Authority - thanks for the advice Jen x), but she is safe and can't get lost or hurt herself so I try to swallow the tears and the feeling of letting her down and hold on to that. My sisters are finally acting like grown ups and behaving like they actually like each other; my beautiful SB is making the most of college and had a fantastic live performance of his music at the end of term in a Lounge bar in town and got a standing ovation; I went for an interview last friday and finally (FINALLY!!!!!) got a permanent job; RC and I have been to dinner and drinks (and oh my goodness he's Gooooooorgeous! Yum:gimi::gimi:) and things are progressing nicely, and I have a week off of work. The only thing I miss is you guys :) I manage to have a read now and again, but every time I try to send messages using my mobile they disappear!! So frustrating! But anyway: will do better lol x

2015 here we come!!!
B xxxx[/QUOTE

life certainly is is a game of two halves and your def taking it to the wire. Glad that there is so much good stuff going on jobs, lads at college, RC (you kept that one quiet lady) and harmony with the sisters lots to be thankful for.

just remember your mum needed the extra care and any promises were made to a different person, glad she is now safe and hopefully will settle soon.

i hope the Xmas day off gives the body the kick up the proverbially and weight loss recommences, nasty hobbit! Well best go as have promised this is to be the day that I will stick my noise over the gyms threshold and the time is now!

Take care and here's to a new year that just slots into place. Triumph through adversity is ok but really I could live without the adversity!

jenxx
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Beverley75 said:
Hi all! (And special thanks to Jen xx) I just hijacked my Sunshine Boy's computer so that I could check in (using this site on my rubbish Samsung is a nightmare) - hope everyone is doing great and getting as far down the totem pole as possible before Christmas Day :)

After my phenomenal 17lb loss last month I breezily stuck to SS religiously, drank my water and just got on with CWP and had the underehelming loss of .... wait for it .... 3lbs. 3lbs. Three POUNDS. There are no words to describe my fury. But here's the best bit, I swore (colourfully, daily and at great length) at the offending scales and just carried on :D. It's a basic equation thus: SS = weight loss. Simples. Water retention, Ovarian cysts, heck an invisible gorilla riding my back, be d@mned. I can't be on SS and not losing something in real terms so I just don't focus on it. I intend to have a day off for Christmas and carry on.

This has been an absolute BEAST of a year on so many levels. Mum has finally been placed in a home for dementia patients and my heart breaks daily (after an epic 14 week battle with the NHS and the Local Authority - thanks for the advice Jen x), but she is safe and can't get lost or hurt herself so I try to swallow the tears and the feeling of letting her down and hold on to that. My sisters are finally acting like grown ups and behaving like they actually like each other; my beautiful SB is making the most of college and had a fantastic live performance of his music at the end of term in a Lounge bar in town and got a standing ovation; I went for an interview last friday and finally (FINALLY!!!!!) got a permanent job; RC and I have been to dinner and drinks (and oh my goodness he's Gooooooorgeous! Yum:gimi::gimi:) and things are progressing nicely, and I have a week off of work. The only thing I miss is you guys :) I manage to have a read now and again, but every time I try to send messages using my mobile they disappear!! So frustrating! But anyway: will do better lol x

2015 here we come!!!
B xxxx
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Hi Beverley,

Hope after all you've had going on you managed to enjoy some of the festivities and were able to relax knowing your mum is safe and being well cared for.
It's never a easy decision to put a parent into a home more than often its a last resort, my mum had MND and had to be put into a home and like yourself it broke my heart but sometimes its the only option to ensure they have the care and round the clock support they need. You have done the right thing.
Here's to a fab 2015 for all of us and fingers crossed your romance continues to blossom, we all need that someone special to turn to x x x x
 
Wow this thread is still here! And some familiar faces! Clinquant, Beverly75! And fat me. No, fatter-than-ever-this-year-or-really-ever-except-for-pregnancy-me! It's remarkable how far down the rabbit hole l've fallen! It's SS (with maybe one NYE cheat which l hope to reduce to booze only) as of tomorrow though!

I also have a meeting with my GP to ask about WLS (sleeve) tomorrow morning but l've stocked up on shakes - the only thing that's ever worked. I don't deserve the profile pic here and for some accountability l'll take some pics of the size of the disaster l've created and focus on motivation and support -that's you ladies!- instead of the feeling sorry for myself bit that l keep doing seeing how l am 80 lbs heavier than last year at this time.

Right, let's do this!
 
Beverley75 said:
Oh Flare! I'm so sorry your in what I like to call 'The Pit' :-( Look around, all that furniture lying around is because I moved my fat a$$ in earlier this year and couldn't climb the hell out! First things first .... calm down and go easy on yourself. I know it sounds counter productive, but you have got to stop kicking your own butt. This sounds like an EXTREMELY stressful time for you; nothing is permanent and this insane period will pass ... I am the queen of eating my emotions (ALL of them: Good, Bad, Bored, Lonely, Frustrated, Happy), so until you crack the ketosis nut, if you are feeling like you want to eat have a palm sized piece of protein instead of going wild (two eggs, chicken etc). Christmas is upon us and we all know 'Tis the Season to Stuff your Gob with Cr@p' so that makes it harder, but you are not a failure. You are not weak nor any of the 100 things we tell ourselves. You have done this before. You WILL do this again. You're already doing what you should be doing i.e. not giving up and trying each day to turn over the engine. Don't give up honey... We've all been in the same boat at one time or another and we're rooting for you xx
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Thank you for the pep talk Bev, I certainly have been in the pit - I gave up not long after my last post, and boy have I let myself down.

work stress, uncertainty about my job next year, Christmas food everywhere and the Friday before Christmas it all came crashing into the wall :( I have got on my scales a couple of times and I was weighing 10st 8 but I am truly dreading the scales now.

Maybe I needed to get to this utter despair with myself to climb out of the pit again?

You're right, I've done it before, when I started on CD at 12st 3 and to be starting again isn't a great feeling, in fact it's depressing, but the last 24 hours I've started to turn a corner. The cupboard is full of shakes, I'm being weighed on Saturday to restart my journey, and I've registered to do the Dry January Challenge - to keep me focussed and away from wine !

We've walked 11.5 miles since Sunday - to compensate for the bread, cheese, carb over load and Christmas wine ....... I'm really ashamed of myself, BUT I am going to heed your advice and from now on stop being so hard on myself. I've done it, now I have to put it right .

So here's to 2015 wish me luck
xxxxx

ps - it's great to read your posts. I'm really pleased you've turned a corner, and that life in general is looking better for you
 
morning all
to flare and missama you re here and trying and that is the first step we can do this, believe!!!!! cut the self loathing crap so you ate more than you would of? no murder was committed. that type of thinking means your worth **** and don't deserved anything better, well you do. be positive about yourself and see if it helps (fake it til you make it)
come on girls to coin a phrase you re worth it!

jenxx
 
Happy New Year everyone
Its a new year and I'm starting with a clean slate - no self loathing allowed
i can't change what the scales will say on Saturday, but i can change what they will say a week from now
good luck everyone x
 
Happy New Year everyone!
Definitely with the no self loathing sentiments. Always do best when I'm feeling positive and, for me, wearing clothes that fit comfortably, rather than tight. Never been one to be motivated by things cutting me in half. Think I'm trying food and the gym rather than packs for a couple of weeks and seeing how I go but I will be checking in here to see how everyone is doing.
 
We'll the really bad news is that I weighed myself on Friday and I was 11st :cry: I knew it was going to be bad but OMG !!!

The really good news is I've clocked up almost 22 miles of walking this week....(and I've bought new running shoes and started running a little bit) :) I'm going to officially get weighed tomorrow as CDC had to move the date and time, so tomorrow is D day ladies ....

I'm totally committed to shifting this weight and toning up my flab ......Bring It On !!!!
 
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