Well, I have now entered the very scary world of management with trepidation and self doubt!!!!
After lots of reading all day yesterday I ate for the first time since starting LL, I thought I would be ecstatic but I just felt scared and very down!! I have managed to convince myself that all the weight will go back on with just one mouthful and I want to stay on packs for ever, not possible I know!!!
I sat down with the family to a grilled, butterflied, chicken breast. I chewed for what seemed like an eternity. Once finished I wanted to eat and eat and eat some more. I sat there for 10 mins with some water and the feeling eventually passed. Great I thought and then 1 hour later I could have eaten a scabby horse. I came on to minimins for some advice and distraction, that worked thank goodness. I then went to bed really early with my book just in case I became emotionally hungry again.
So, eating again is not all it's cracked up to be so far!!!
My crooked thinking has gone into over drive but today I feel more positive and am managing to shut the chatterbox occasionally although not always. Thought records are really helping me.
I am going to post on here everyday if I get the chance, I think it will really help to get my thoughts and feelings down and will also help me to try and resolve the negative ones myself as they arise.
Please wish me luck, I think I am going to need it based on how I feel right now
Take care all xxxxxx
After lots of reading all day yesterday I ate for the first time since starting LL, I thought I would be ecstatic but I just felt scared and very down!! I have managed to convince myself that all the weight will go back on with just one mouthful and I want to stay on packs for ever, not possible I know!!!
I sat down with the family to a grilled, butterflied, chicken breast. I chewed for what seemed like an eternity. Once finished I wanted to eat and eat and eat some more. I sat there for 10 mins with some water and the feeling eventually passed. Great I thought and then 1 hour later I could have eaten a scabby horse. I came on to minimins for some advice and distraction, that worked thank goodness. I then went to bed really early with my book just in case I became emotionally hungry again.
So, eating again is not all it's cracked up to be so far!!!
My crooked thinking has gone into over drive but today I feel more positive and am managing to shut the chatterbox occasionally although not always. Thought records are really helping me.
I am going to post on here everyday if I get the chance, I think it will really help to get my thoughts and feelings down and will also help me to try and resolve the negative ones myself as they arise.
Please wish me luck, I think I am going to need it based on how I feel right now
Take care all xxxxxx