Minniemouse23, I have texted my consultant to say I'm taking a holiday and she totally understands. I will be there as I'm part of the social team but I wont weigh in as I know I'm up and I have been up and down for the last few weeks I just couldnt face another gain. Dont worry about what has happened as that is never going to change but I do picture myself drawing a line (yes on a nice sandy beach where the weather is nice - it has to look good) and move on and I will move on. Last few weeks I have been going out and having dinner outside of my own home and I dont know how many syns I have used, I hate not been in control but this coming week I have no distractions so plan to be 100% and hopefully it will show the following week