SerenityValley
Surgically happy.
I'm worried because this is the 3rd or 4th cold in a month (I was off sick a little last week and this one is already worse but can't take time off) - and I guess I'm going to have to make a dr appointment in case there is anything wrong (like an underlying infection that needs ABs).
I'm really upset because the thought of it is just sickening. I can't face coming off this and knowing I would probably fail to get back on the wagon. Knowing that the weight I've lost would pile back on and all my hope spretyt much over again.
I could not go to the dr but people are getting worried and well I guess maybe I am. They argue that I can't compromise my heath and while they're right, I can't bear the thought of going back to how I was, and then knowing I'll probably be dead by the time I'm 50.
I know this is all or nothing thinking but I'm really quite distressed. It feels like it's all going wrong. I don't hold out any hope that I could restart - and all the things that are almost within grasp will be gone again.
I'm really upset because the thought of it is just sickening. I can't face coming off this and knowing I would probably fail to get back on the wagon. Knowing that the weight I've lost would pile back on and all my hope spretyt much over again.
I could not go to the dr but people are getting worried and well I guess maybe I am. They argue that I can't compromise my heath and while they're right, I can't bear the thought of going back to how I was, and then knowing I'll probably be dead by the time I'm 50.
I know this is all or nothing thinking but I'm really quite distressed. It feels like it's all going wrong. I don't hold out any hope that I could restart - and all the things that are almost within grasp will be gone again.