I feel so down today, keep thinking if I had not messed around with it last month, I would have been at least a stone lighter by now and wouldn't stress so much about being big on my big day.
i feel like I've let myself n my family down and all coz am so greedy.
now the time is flying by, am starting to panic and feel sick to my stomach with worry because I've lost so much time.
its a once in a lifetime opportunity and I feel like I've messed it up. I don't want to look back at my wedding photos and feel sad or disgusted because I blew the chance I had to lose the weight before the big day.
It's 11 weeks today we set off for Mauritius and am gonna knuckle down and be as strict as I can. Only gonna haveb4 shakes a day now for 11 days, I know it's a bit drastic but I keep falling off wagon and cheat when I have the vegs and meal packs.
So from today, it's only 4 shakes. Placed an order for a month of shakes only. We're gonna bypass Valentines day as well, n have a double celebration after coming back wedding.
I still feel saddened by the fact that I've wasted so much time though.
:cry::cry::cry::cry: