Dh is gone out for the night.........Christmas party. DS1 was allowed back down after his bath to watch a movie. DS2 in bed. I was cleaning up the kitchen and next thing I new I had shoved the end of DS1 brown bread and ham sandwich into my mouth and I was swallowing it like there is no tomorrow. I immediately thought FECK FECK FECK why did I do that. Came in sat down at the computer feeling shocked and then ran into the downstairs loo and threw it back up. Am relieved it came back up - am shocked that I ate it in the first place and ashamed. My resolve and willpower are so firm and yet the lack of control I had scared me.
I have been on my own lost of times in the last two weeks and not a morsel has passed my lips that wasn;t a shake or soup or water and yet there I was shoving in the left overs.........I was concious that I shouldn;t be doing it. I didn't even chew it...............
Bettyboo