Wow, so many of you sound like hearing myself think iykwim?
I also am tired of being the fat one, and it's worse cuz I was allways so slim, I have allways felt in the shadow of people, am average looking but when i was slim I felt a little better about me. I liked dressing well, wearing cool things and love my clothes, now its just so limited i have no heart to buy 18's so i dont go far, I make excuses to hubby and freinds so I dont go out, nothing to wear , dont want to even try, I have 3 perfect boys 4,3 and 1 and I lost most of my weight with all of them getting to 11.5 after no 2 but this last one is sticking , i did the pills and lost shed loads but no3 came along so I gained it all back, I dont want to do the pills again cuz its just not how i want to live my life, i need food to be such a small part of my life but my family were/are all foodies, ( me being the lightest at 14 st) so they are hard habits to break, im tired of being the frumpy fat one, i have a little revenge issue too and only being slim can sort that one( that will be a pleasant side effect of being slim again) but my main reason is I hate the way I look , and only i can change it, i was 8st,5 when i got married and im determined to be back in my dress for my 10th anniversary in nov 2011 and I know I can do it, i fall by the wayside once a month for about a week so my main problem is going to be there . any tips on dealing with that " i cant fill myself up with enough junk food feeling" Muchly appreiciated.
good luck to us all and most of all be the change you want to see.