Hi there Leilak
You have made the best decision of your life. I was nearly 18st, 5ft 1 and all of my life was in place, nice flat, great job and happy marraige, but i was heavy, miserable, my health was seriously beginning to deteriorate and my optimistic, outgoing, and happy nature was gone for good. I no longer remembered the me I was as a kid. I found cambridge by accident and thank God I did. It made a real difference. It has been a really emotional journey. I wont say it has been easy, in fact some days are really really hard, but not as hard as spending the day resenting myself, feeling old before my time and unattractive. Compared to having those thoughts every day, this has been a breeze. Go for it kid, you will never look back. What have you got to loose apart from bad feelings - forget the fat - the diet will take care of that. Take some well meant advice
Log on here every day, even just to read. It helps.
Write a blog or diary - helps you work your tangled thoughts into straight lines. Take the great advice already given by mini's members much better qualified to help than me. And one more thing. I got hold of a copy of a book called Adventures of Dietgirl. I read and read over and over again in th first stages - it really encourgaed me.
Good luck.