Mrsb2b2012
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I'm a week in and I need to log my progress and feelings to see this long journey through to the end. Maybe I'll help someone else on their journey?
Hellooooo!!
I'm Chrissy, 35 years old, Police officer and a new mummy!
I've been here before, a couple of times in fact!!.......at the start of a weight loss journey.
I am determined this is the last time.
I was always a chubby kid but fit and sporty. I left home at 17 and didn't know how to take care of myself so millions of takeaways and 2 years later I was around 17stones.
I found WW's and lost all the weight. Got down to around 10.5 stones (bit too scrawny if I am honest!).
I managed to maintain this for much of my twenties but after starting shift work and living through a painful break up I put it all back on plus 1.5 more.
In 2007 I was introduced to LL by a friend. I threw myself into it and got down to my goal weight of 12.5 stone. I thought that this would make me happy but I was at a point in my life where I was stuck in an unhappy relationship and I had no confidence. Losing all the weight didn't magically make me happy. Funny that!! Another life lesson learned!
The unhappy relationship drifted on and I had backed myself into a corner (we worked together and lived together). I just couldn't seem to gather muself up and make the break. I was now in my thirties and wondering if I would ever find, 'my one'! It was obvious to many that this relationship was wrong.
All my friends were settled/settling and having children and I was yearning for a child. My wanting a baby hormones were going mental!!!!
It was weird, I literally woke up one day and thought 'however much this is going to hurt the other person in the short term, I have to end it, for the sake of both of our future happiness'.
I bit the bullet and ended my unhappy, never-gonna-go-anywhere relationship and started again at 32.
The first few months were amazing, I felt FREEEEEE!!
Then the loneliness hit.....and the doubt......in your 30's everyone seems paired up! They've already been married, they have kids, it's much more complex and baggagey!
I was always out with friends, lots of meals lots of wine and when I went home alone I'd carry on snacking and having more of everything. I was so lonely and trying to fill that up with food.......and too much wine....hic! It was comforting and I lived alone so no one could tell me no.
2009 I met MY ONE!!!!!! I was (am) big but he loves me for who I am.
He is everything I could ever wish for in a partner and i am settled and happy for the first time in my adult life. We just had a baby girl and life is pretty perfect but I now need to give some attention to myself.
So why is it going to work this time when I've put it back on before?
Everything is different this time. I have a supportive, loving man. I feel loved and secure and happy. The void has been filled.
I also HAVE to do this for my health so that my daughter has a fit healthy mummy.
I have started exante at 20st 8lbs.
I have bought myself a one way ticket to slimsville, I'll see you all there!!
Hellooooo!!
I'm Chrissy, 35 years old, Police officer and a new mummy!
I've been here before, a couple of times in fact!!.......at the start of a weight loss journey.
I am determined this is the last time.
I was always a chubby kid but fit and sporty. I left home at 17 and didn't know how to take care of myself so millions of takeaways and 2 years later I was around 17stones.
I found WW's and lost all the weight. Got down to around 10.5 stones (bit too scrawny if I am honest!).
I managed to maintain this for much of my twenties but after starting shift work and living through a painful break up I put it all back on plus 1.5 more.
In 2007 I was introduced to LL by a friend. I threw myself into it and got down to my goal weight of 12.5 stone. I thought that this would make me happy but I was at a point in my life where I was stuck in an unhappy relationship and I had no confidence. Losing all the weight didn't magically make me happy. Funny that!! Another life lesson learned!
The unhappy relationship drifted on and I had backed myself into a corner (we worked together and lived together). I just couldn't seem to gather muself up and make the break. I was now in my thirties and wondering if I would ever find, 'my one'! It was obvious to many that this relationship was wrong.
All my friends were settled/settling and having children and I was yearning for a child. My wanting a baby hormones were going mental!!!!
It was weird, I literally woke up one day and thought 'however much this is going to hurt the other person in the short term, I have to end it, for the sake of both of our future happiness'.
I bit the bullet and ended my unhappy, never-gonna-go-anywhere relationship and started again at 32.
The first few months were amazing, I felt FREEEEEE!!
Then the loneliness hit.....and the doubt......in your 30's everyone seems paired up! They've already been married, they have kids, it's much more complex and baggagey!
I was always out with friends, lots of meals lots of wine and when I went home alone I'd carry on snacking and having more of everything. I was so lonely and trying to fill that up with food.......and too much wine....hic! It was comforting and I lived alone so no one could tell me no.
2009 I met MY ONE!!!!!! I was (am) big but he loves me for who I am.
He is everything I could ever wish for in a partner and i am settled and happy for the first time in my adult life. We just had a baby girl and life is pretty perfect but I now need to give some attention to myself.
So why is it going to work this time when I've put it back on before?
Everything is different this time. I have a supportive, loving man. I feel loved and secure and happy. The void has been filled.
I also HAVE to do this for my health so that my daughter has a fit healthy mummy.
I have started exante at 20st 8lbs.
I have bought myself a one way ticket to slimsville, I'll see you all there!!
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