It's about time I started being honest with myself, and facing facts that my lifestyle and eating habits are not a long term plan. I'm coming to an age where reversing the negative affects of my decadent choices will be harder and harder, and I know the time to act is now.
I'm not a total SW novice; I lost 4.5stone a few years ago. I never managed to make it to target, so I always felt a bit disheartened and unfulfilled. I was pretty good at the plan though, and initially lost 3 stone in 20 weeks.
I gained quite a lot of that again over a two year period, and got down to 1 stone above target again without too much bother, but then I slipped again, and then again. And now it's been some time since my last attempt, and I think I'm only 1 stone lighter than my starting weight all those years ago.
I'm not prepared to beat myself up for this too much, I've had a pretty stressful time. I have bouts of depression, and bouts of anxiety. I put myself under a lot of stress and am constantly battling with feelings of acceptance and worth.
So I thought in this latest attempt to sort my health and lifestyle out, that I'd start a diary. I've not had a (feelings) diary for 20ish years, and back then they were always handwritten. This account is for me to vent, but to also reflect and measure. Are there links between my feelings and what I'm eating etc. I am terrible at sticking to things though, so I'm going to set myself the goal of updating the diary as often as I can until Christmas.
I'm about to go to a group to join as a new member; I'm really excited. I'm totally ready for this. On the way to group I'm even going to the supermarket to pick up some fruit and veg on the way.
Feelings right now: Excitement, nervous, worried about time, can't wait to feel healthier!
If anyone has any words of wisdom or encouragement, they will be gratefully received
I'm not a total SW novice; I lost 4.5stone a few years ago. I never managed to make it to target, so I always felt a bit disheartened and unfulfilled. I was pretty good at the plan though, and initially lost 3 stone in 20 weeks.
I gained quite a lot of that again over a two year period, and got down to 1 stone above target again without too much bother, but then I slipped again, and then again. And now it's been some time since my last attempt, and I think I'm only 1 stone lighter than my starting weight all those years ago.
I'm not prepared to beat myself up for this too much, I've had a pretty stressful time. I have bouts of depression, and bouts of anxiety. I put myself under a lot of stress and am constantly battling with feelings of acceptance and worth.
So I thought in this latest attempt to sort my health and lifestyle out, that I'd start a diary. I've not had a (feelings) diary for 20ish years, and back then they were always handwritten. This account is for me to vent, but to also reflect and measure. Are there links between my feelings and what I'm eating etc. I am terrible at sticking to things though, so I'm going to set myself the goal of updating the diary as often as I can until Christmas.
I'm about to go to a group to join as a new member; I'm really excited. I'm totally ready for this. On the way to group I'm even going to the supermarket to pick up some fruit and veg on the way.
Feelings right now: Excitement, nervous, worried about time, can't wait to feel healthier!
If anyone has any words of wisdom or encouragement, they will be gratefully received