Hi everyone, I am back for a 2nd time after putting all the weight I lost last time back on plus more. I have my weigh in tonight to see what I weigh which will be loads!! So motivated to do it this time and get all the way to goal. I am guessing I will have about 9 stone to loose to do this so it will be a long journey. I like coming here for the support and the inspiration from other people to keep me going. A bit about me, I have 4 children and work 24 hrs a week and I am also studying to become a chartered accountant. So I have a very busy life and have just given in to junk food in the evenings mainly. I always feel I deserve it for having no time to myself until about 8pm when I get home after working collecting kids and taking them to various activites, football, gymnastics etc. I know its no excuse and I can not believe how awful I look. Its like I am trapped inside of me. I hate buying clothes as I am always looking for long tops in big sizes to try to cover me up as best I can. I am sick of being the fat person where ever I go. Its not me!!! Photos are always a shock and I am never in them really. All our family pics are of my husband and my kids. Its like I will look back and not excist. I want to be able to run around with my children. I want to be able to have a bath and be able to move. I want to go and buy nice clothes because I can and they look good. I want to feel like I am attractive to my husband. I want me back basically. I am hoping that Cambridge will do this for me. I feel like the boxes are all being ticked in my life, marriage tick, job tick, children tick and I just need to tick me now. Is anyone else in a similar postion with lots of weight to loose? I would love to chat to you and share our weekly losses. I will be weighing in every Monday evening. Fingers crossed for a brighter future. Thanks for reading.