Alli, good that you are OK with the 1lb... if it makes sense then it's not so hard to take on board, and I think shows how you have come with the head stuff. I still derail with such depressing frequency I wonder if I will ever find an even keel.
BUT... wanted to say, awesome on being picked for the talent scheme. For what it is worth, I
question that ambition (or ambition for money/status at any rate) is always essential for success. I don't think it is. Those things don't matter to me either, but being the best I can be at what I do DOES, and I do like to push myself, find new challenges, please my 'company' & clients, complete a project well. I also like to be acknowledged for working hard, that is something that matters to me. Not sure is any of that makes sense, just wanted to ship in with the idea that you don't have to burn with ruthless ambition to do well for your company & be worth their investment and support!
Something to consider, anyway.
xxx