Hi guys - sorry for going a bit quiet on the posting front. My internet at home has broken and I feel like I've had my right arm yanked off. Sob.
My weigh in was a nightmare - but in a way I am quite pleased. The week before last I was eating bits of protein to ease the blow of the hardcore antibiotics on my tum... and I stayed in ketosis and still lost 2lbs... so last week, my rebellious child kicked in and I had a few days where I ate a bit again. I was getting real cravings, but I didn't banish them as I believed 'I can get away with it'.
Anyway - the long and the short of it is that I didn't get away with it... I lost only 1lb (that's only 5lbs over three weeks)... AND I'm out of ketosis.
So - I started again yesterday on pure shakes, and am hoping to be back in ketosis by the end of tomorrow so I can have the odd bar again - it's like week one all over again!
Needless to say I am feeling pretty low - although, like I said earlier... I am glad it was a crap loss - otherwise the devil on my shoulder would keep on thinking I could do these things and still lose weight.
My LLC told me that I should be losing an average of 3lbs per week - so that would be almost double what I have lost in the last three weeks - and that makes me feel awful... I'm not going to hit the three stone in three months - I am certain of that - but I am going to give it my best shot.
When I think of the fact that I have to keep going until Feb (ish - got another four stone to lose), it makes me want to give up now... I feel like a failure - I'm only in week nine. Arghhhh.
Anyway - sorry for the rant... Polly and Sweety, you are both doing so so well... fingers crossed, my new determination will spark a good loss this week... I'm not taking any chances - I'm going to show that scale who's boss.
Gulp.
Me xx