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Discussion in 'Slimming World - Food Diaries' started by Princess_Stevie, 11 July 2014.

  1. Princess_Stevie

    Princess_Stevie Well-Known Member

    Hello to anyone reading! This is my new diary, but in no way am I new to Slimming World. Those of you who followed my old diary (The Princess Diaries) will already know my story, but for those of you who don't...

    I started way back in September 2011. Actually, my journey started a little while before then. I originally joined mid 2011 weighing 15st and was doing well, having lost 1.5 stone within a matter of months. Then, in July 2011, my dad had a major heart attack. To cut a long story short, he was in hospital for 7 weeks and all of the travelling and visiting wasn't exactly great for my diet. It was just a case of grabbing whatever I could, whenever I could. I also stopped going to groups as, let's face it, some things are more important. Then, on 19th September 2011, I had an all inclusive girly holiday with my best friend Katie. Far too much fast food and alcohol was consumed, and by the time we came home on the 26th, I knew I'd done a lot of damage. The next day, I bit the bullet and went back to rejoin my old group. I couldn't believe that in the two months I'd had off plan I'd gained back almost everything apart from 3.5lb - I was now 14st 10.5lb.

    Since then I have remained at the same group and, although it's been a slow and steady journey, and extremely difficult at times, I had mostly managed to stick to it. On the 15th April this year I got to 10st 10lb and achieved my 4 stone award - the most I have ever lost on any diet ever, and the lightest weight I had ever been!

    However, since then I have just fallen completely and utterly off the SW wagon. I have had the odd good week here and there, but they have been well and truly blown out of the water by all of the disastrous weeks I've had. I've even starting skipping group a lot recently because of how "off-plan" I've been - which is something I hate! I didn't ever want to get into that habbit. Worst of all, according to my home scales this morning, I am back up to 12st 5lb. Which means I have re-gained 1 stone and 8lb.

    I am not happy with this at all. Especially as I have a holiday which is 8 weeks today. It's supposed to be a very special holiday too, as it's the first one with my boyfriend, Warren. It will also be our 1 year anniversary whilst we are away, and I cannot cope with the thought of looking or feeling like I do now, then. I know something needs to be done.

    I have already tried all sorts of things to re-motivate myself and rediscover the passion and enthusiasm I once had for SW: mixing up the plans, trying new foods, Succes Express, Fast Forward, making myself a reward chart, looking back at progress photos, etc. and nothing seems to work! I can't seem to stick to plan for any longer then a week - in fact, I'm lucky if it even lasts that long! I feel bored.

    Anyway, this morning I have made my mind up and have decided that I will bite the bullet and join a new group on Monday night. The thought of leaving my current group is scary, as I'd have been there for 3 years (my entire journey) in September. But I'm also excited too. It will mean new day, new time, new venue, new consultant and new members. I have also decided that I actually really want to rejoin as a brand spanking new member, so that will also mean I have a new starting weight and new goals to aim for. I feel like, at the moment, that is half of my problem. I'm not aiming for anything new. I'm aiming to get back to where I was (10st 10lb), which is quite depressing actually. Looking back on where I had gotten to and feeling as though it is a lifetime away. At least if I start as a new member I will start with fresh aims and will once again look forward to working towards each half stone award, something which I have not attained for quite some time now - as I said, I hit my 4st award and stayed there for one week. Since then it all went downhill!

    I have loved my group and consultant over the last few years, but I just feel like I need a change now. I also feel like going to a group where I don't know the consultant / members will be good for me, as there'll be no expectations of me. Sometimes at group people having referred to me as "knowing everything about Slimming World", or asking "how much have you lost this week then?". And, although I know they mean it in such a lovely way, I sometimes feel like it puts the pressure on me. Because of the fact they kind of expect me to have lost each week, and that I have been known to have lost up to 7lb in a week, it makes me feel like a failure when I do not lose. I feel embarrassed when they ask how much I have lost, and I have to tell them that actually I've gained. It shouldn't be like that. I mean no disrespect to them in any way whatsoever, because they are all absolutely fantastic people and have inspired and motivated me so much along the way. But sometimes it can become a bit much. I want to focus on doing this for me.

    As it's a brand new spanking fresh start, I am also thinking I need a brand new diary to go with it. Hence this thread right here! "Take a chance and never look back" - that's exactly what I'm doing. I'm giving myself this last chance. I'm drawing a line under everything else that has happened and I'm not going to look back any more. The future is forwards, not backwards. And I must remember that.

    I hope that I'll be joined on here by friends old and new alike, as the support you all give really is invaluable and I owe a lot to the people on this forum.

    Thank you for taking the time to visit and to read this, and I'm sorry if I've bored the socks off you all. I just feel like I needed to write it all down and get it out of my system.

    I'm now feeling really excited to rejoin on Monday and can't wait to start afresh - although I'm feeling really anxious about this new starting weight and seeing how much damage I've actually done. I don't want to end up pretty much back to square one. This weekend isn't going to be great, as I'm out for post-birthday drinks with Warren and our friends on Saturday night, but I'm setting myself the goal of getting back on plan on Monday, ready for rejoining that night. Wish me luck! xx
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  2. Kay003

    Kay003 Well-Known Member

    Congrats on the new diary Stevie, first to sub ! :D Will read with great interest and I know you will do smashing hun ! :p

    Kay xx
  3. coughdrops

    coughdrops Well-Known Member

    Great to re-read your story Stevie, I hope when you read it you realise how far you've come.

    Fresh start, new start weight, new stickers :)

    8 weeks is enough time to get a great loss, and you'll do it, I know you will
  4. shezam

    shezam Well-Known Member

    I love your motivation, can't wait to be with you on your journey. My holiday is 7 weeks on Sunday so we are both kind of in the same boat, lose as much as possible.

    Enjoy your weekend though, you are only human :D x
  5. lentil2

    lentil2 Well-Known Member

    A lot of 'old' feelings and worrying going on in that new post.

    This is a NEW start remember.......no looking back! ;)
  6. Nikki<3

    Nikki<3 Well-Known Member

    Hiya hun.

    I've followed you whole journey and I'm here to start your new journey with you.

    It's very strange actually because I too have just drawn a line after 5 months of being off plan. I really have just clicked and realised I can do this and i can eat and have a drink on a weekend too. I've restarted today and I've changed my weigh day over to a Thursday so I'm ready for it now and ready for target.

    Wishing you all the luck in the world :) I'll be here to watch you succeed :)

  7. pippalata

    pippalata Well-Known Member

  8. BubblesAnseo

    BubblesAnseo Well-Known Member

    Here to subscribe :D xxx
  9. Elvisfan4life

    Elvisfan4life Well-Known Member

    Well done for making the first step!!! To inspire you i gained 3stone 2 and a half years ago and have been on constant diets since losing a bit and gaining again

    8 weeks ago i started SW and have lost half of what i need to lose...you can do it too...we are all here for you
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  10. Elvisfan4life

    Elvisfan4life Well-Known Member

    Forget the past ..today is a new day...and its one day at a time set little targets and take little steps...good luck
  11. flix

    flix Well-Known Member

    Here to join you! Go Stevie xx
  12. Willbeslimjen

    Willbeslimjen Well-Known Member

    Here to sub! Lovely to have a nice fresh start! Good luck on Monday! What's your plan between then and now? Is it off plan all the way, sensible choices or on plan?
  13. Princess_Stevie

    Princess_Stevie Well-Known Member

    Thank you all for joining me. I need the support now more than ever. And it is sooo appreciated xx

    Thanks Jen! I'm guessing it's going to pretty much be totally off plan. I haven't even been on plan in the slightest this week. Well I was until about 2pm on Wednesday afternoon, then it all went Pete Tong! Want to enjoy our catch up with friends tomorrow as I probably won't be going out for a while after that. And I may also have a bottle of wine tonight, I just really fancy one. And would like to get it out of my system so it doesn't just niggle away there.

    Technically my new week doesn't begin until Tuesday morning, after I've been to group on Monday night. But I'm making sure I'm back on it on Monday to give myself a little headstart. I always seem to find challenges easier if I start them at the beginning of the week, i.e. Monday. Even if I'm not 100% on plan on Monday but try and make sensible choices. Then hoping that the new members talk etc. will inspire me and I'll be 100% ready to rock and roll from Tuesday onwards xx
    Last edited: 11 July 2014
  14. Willbeslimjen

    Willbeslimjen Well-Known Member

    Sounds a great plan. Enjoy your weekend
  15. Princess_Stevie

    Princess_Stevie Well-Known Member

    Thank you! I kinda just want it to be Monday now. I'm looking forward to joining a new group and starting again xx
  16. Dougal1983

    Dougal1983 Proud Mummy

    Here to subscribe- enjoy your weekend and I hope rejoining and a new members talk will give you the inspiration you need xx
  17. b_44

    b_44 Well-Known Member

    Here to subscribe :) x
  18. Lindsey-g

    Lindsey-g Recovering chocoholic

    Good luck with the next phase of your journey Stevie. You can so do this.
  19. MrsRees

    MrsRees Well-Known Member

    Hi Stevie, here to sub. I've read your diary for ages (I just don't post much!) and want to wish you luck for Monday. It sounds like a great idea, fresh start, less pressure and one week at a time. :) xx
  20. Shellbell46

    Shellbell46 Well-Known Member

    Subbing x

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