Got back from meeting and my joining weight is 21st 1. The heaviest i have ever been, feel completely sick and disgusted. To make it worse my previous heaviest was 18st 10 of which i lost 4stone 6 years ago. I told myself back then id never get so big again. That never stuck anyways. Well at least now i suppose i have a good chunk to start on and i know what rock bottom looks and feels like. Only way is up.