i have always been big. the smallest size i have ever been was 14/16 and even then i thought i was big. the thought of going smaller scares me. what if i dont recongise myself, will i change that much? i need to lose weight for me, but at the same time ineed to get over this fear that losing weigth will change who i am personality wise. hard to explain. but always be the fat jolly one etc etc.