So I'm laid in bed, just watched that episode of supersize on my iPad while boyfriend sleeps
I'm feeling cack! Diet is mainly about what you shove down your pie hole, right. I get that fatty foods will make you fat etc but why don't I GET it, why can't I get a grip? My relationship with food is really bad, but the route of the problem is really unknown to me? Does anyone else know why they eat and eat and make wrong decisions?
Before I went to Florida, I went from 14.7 - 13.5! And I said to myself, '***** I can't imagine being back up in the 14's' I'm now 14st10! Even my 'fat' clothes are tight, for as long as I can remember ive always had weight problems, and saying 'oh I'll start the diet tomorrow', well tomorrow never comes, and now I'm 22 nearly 23 and I've never had the body I've always wanted, never worn a bikini and looked in the mirror and gone, woah I look good in this! Instead I feel and look like shamu! It's sad really isn't it, pathetic sad not upsetting, well both really :-/ before I know it, I'll be bigger older and have some form of major health issue,
I think the problem with me is, sticking to things is hard, and I don't get motivated by things. It's the same with 'hobbies' they fizzle out after a day, even doing my degree, I got a 2:1, and yeh I did work hard, but I didn't go to many lectures, I never saw the inside of my library, and I want to be a primary school teacher now? Am I having a laugh! The reason I can't pass this aptitude test is really I'm quite crap at tests and I just don't know the answers because in school or uni I either had time to look stuff up, or assessments were coursework based!
Anyhow, I'm beginning to sound INSANE lol I am really quite a happy little chunk, but I am quite rubbish at seeing things through at the level I'd like them them to be, (not putting the effort in when I should to get the better results,) I'm a settler is what I am, I could of got a 1st if I wasn't too lazy.
So diet wise. What is the plan fat bird,
I've set up my mini gym in the spare bedroom, my poor cocker spaniel desperately wants walkies, so dusting off her lead would be a start. Boyfriend has bought fresh veggies and fruit in every few days now so I should take advantage of that as I have a slight compost bin going on in the bottom of my fruit bowl lol I've just planned tomorrows food so lets see if I can stick to it,
Pgce wise, I need some practise in to re jig my gcse science maths and English, I've hopefully got a placement with a primary school one day a week and scouts starts next Monday, I ideally need to have a chat with a teacher about a 'day in the life of a teacher' as knowing the background on paper work etc was my let downs,
As for babies, well I need to be healthy and if I don't loose this weight then I'm a fool,
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