Helloooo
Diz.. I think you blooming well deserved the fish n chips, you'd worked earned that after the trauma you have been through. So happy your op went well and realy hope that each day helps you feel better still
Pesty, chinese isn't too bad, and you know how to pull it back
Ronnie, well done for the lb loss and for it being the star week too
Jimbo.. what an achievement doing the race for life, well done you... and Im sure that will tilt the scales downwards as well
Me.. hmmm, not good and I know why.. emotional blooming eater!! Confession time, after Wed meeting with my weekend job, and being told in no uncertain terms that I am now redundent, feeling very rejected almost after the 5 years I'd put into looking after their son, the parents were cold and it was all very calculated as well, because I had being asking questions about holiday pay.. and then hey, you now know the rest! I'm glad I've finished working there as it was getting to become like I felt like I was being taken the pee out of. I knew I was going to go, but didn't expect them to act like they did towards me and also the person I thought was a friend didn't even talk to me when it happened, he just kissed their ass more or less! I know Im better out of there, but the money was making my life easier. Now I am £500 less off each month!! God knows what im going to do re money, as been trying to save half the rent each month, ready for next year, to pay 6 months off in advance, so it wasn't such a big jump from paying nothing rent wise to paying £900 each month! This now means I can't save as much, and the pressure is now for my son who is 18 to get a full time job to help pay towards rent, food etc.. So not feeling good about that. He didn't deserve what happened when my ex did what he did and we had to move our sharpish.. so feel a bit responsible for us being here anyway.
Here for the confession.. ordered chinese Fri night (as not working), couldn't eat it all, so saved it for Sat night. Sat lunch time, went to harvester, that was all syn free, then went to costco and had a frapaccino, which is god knows how many syns, plus a biscoti, then went home and finished off the chinese and then tucked into a big bag of popcorn and scoffed it all!!! Bad, Bad, BAD!!!!
I had gained a lb this week by the way too, which I had already thought I would, after limiting damage from weekends 3lb on Monday, so the lb shown is fine. I need to go back to group, big time, so not focussed and not disciplined enough. So there is a group on Tues, the Cons isn't that good (went once before), but a few of my friends go, and I figured that we could all help one another.
With re to finding more work, I need a rest and I know I feel it, Im so tired with everything at the moment. So after my hols in Sep I'll sign on at an agency and do some part time eve work.
Need to get to the gym this week, so I can exercise but also to hand in my notice to quit the contract,which is a 3 month notice. I know when i go, I feel good, so need to make the 3 months that Im paying, work for me.
Tomorrow is a new day and crossing everything for a fresh start. xxxx