Thanks guys! Feel bad for being MIA over the last few weeks and looking forward to seeing how everyone is getting on, hope you're all doing great! I'm enjoying uni so far but time management wise things are difficult, especially with working lots too, hence the lack of posts. Made some lovely new friends and finding the course itself pretty interesting now we've got started. I'm really looking forward to starting my first placement in 4 weeks time. Found out this week I'm going to be staying in Sheffield for my first and third year of placement which makes life a whole lot easier. I was so relieved as I could have been a 3 hour drive away from home which would have been a chuffin' nightmare! Only 2 weeks today until I'm on a plane to Norway, hoping to be a little lighter by then still, it'd be cool to make it to 16 st 7lbs but we'll see how it goes!
i'm feeling a lot more relaxed about weight loss in general now, not in the sense that I'd eating more rubbish - bar treat night I'm bang on plan - but I just don't feel that intense pressure to come home from group with a big number every week. I know some weeks I'll lose 1/2lb and others I might even gain a pound, but that's okay, I'm in this for the long haul and so long as the general trend is downwards then I'm exactly where I need to be. I know I've got the wedding in 9.5 months, but you know what? For the first time I know that if I'm not at target I'll be okay with that. It's a huge step for someone who could have got married this year but chose to put it back 12 months just so I could feel more comfortable in my own skin. I'm finally getting there, and while I don't feel skinny in the slightest and still have a long way to go before I reach my goal - I'm happy. I'm in love, I have friends and a wonderful family, fun work mates, a career in something I'll love. Life is good, and I might still have a BMI of 34 and so still be 'obese', but for the first time in years I feel 'normal', and that hasn't got a damn thing to do with a number on a scale. It's funny how in losing all this weight I've come to realise the thing that matters least is the weight itself and more my inner confidence. But without losing 8 stone would I have ever felt this way? Unlikely. Anyway I'm off to catch up on a few diaries I've been neglecting! Good luck to you all and I'll try and post when I can to let you know how I'm doing, take care xx
