I don't want her to ever think I hated being me in the years before the change
Problem is, although I didn't hate
me as a person when I was at my heaviest, I absolutely HATED how I looked. For me, losing weight is a health issue - yes ... but it's also very much an aesthetic one too. I've tried looking at my before and 'almost after' pics but no matter how hard I try, I cannot see that I looked good at almost 22st. I despised my bulky frame and my ungainly movements: I didn't feel feminine at all.
Some people DO look great when they're big (just think of Dawn French for example) unfortunately, I am not one of them. I just looked old and dowdy.
I don't feel I'm caving into social pressure - and even if I were, what's so wrong with being 'in step'? Standing out in a crowd is all very well but when it's for a negative reason, it's just no fun. There's no way I'd stay fat just to fly in the face of societies 'expectations'; If I want to be a rebel, I'll get a tattoo on my bum!
However, I fully take on board your comments regarding your daughter ... when my (very slim) 11 year old daughter asked me why I wanted to look different when I started the diet, I immediately told her that I wasn't dieting to look different (although I was!) but that I was doing it so I could do more fun stuff with her like running around, swimming and horse-riding (which we're doing very soon by the way). I don't want her to place an unhealthy attachment on looks = value in society. However, I do want to emphasis to her that being overweight, whilst being a choice people should be free to make, does come at a price. And that price is often a severe restriction of what you are able do and consequently limits a person's potential life experiences.
It's an interesting debate and one that I feel will have differering opinions
