It has just dawned on me that I have been on some form of diet since 2008 and all I have managed to achieve is well - nothing.
I was 12st 8lbs the first time I got weighed in my adult life, I had always avoided the scales before that.
Now at my hundredth restart I was almost 4st heavier than my original heaviest weight, I am so ashamed that I have allowed myself to get to this weight and I know I have been here before but I am determined to get to goal weight in 2020.
Its going to take a lot of hard work and sacrifice but it will be so worth it in the long run.
So far today had water, black coffee and a Slimfast bar that I bought ages ago for £0.10. It has a best before date of November 2019 but I'm still alive so will just eat the other 5 I have over the course of this week.
It also helps with the budget cos I a) love a bargain and these bars are usually £1.99 and b) hate waste.
Will have another bar at about 2pm then some porridge at 6pm and maybe a soup or meal product when I get in at about 9pm.
Need to work till 8pm today cos I was lazy and slept in this morning, when do you turn into a morning person? I'll be 37 in March so not sure it will happen now!
So today is going well so far, I am a bit hungry but not sure if its just in my mind cos I know I have been eating way too much since before Christmas!
Its so hard in work right now, we had a Costco cake day yesterday and all the left over cakes are lying out and every time I walk past the tray of danish pastries I almost give in, a moment on the lips a lifetime on the hips though so I have managed to resist!
I can't even avoid them, I'm back on the water from today and I am peeing every 5 minutes so need to walk the length of the office to get to the loo!
That should ease off as you get settled in after the first few days of burning through stored carbs and body moves more into ketosis, but not totally. I was stuck on the M1 yesterday in slow traffic and had to stop on the hard shoulder to go . Good luck and stick with it for the first bit then hopefully the motivation settles down!
You are doing so well! Have you tried the exante crisps or Choco balls? They make me feel like I’ve had a good cheat instead of thinking don’t cheat (because thinking I shouldn’t cheat means I end up in McDonald’s drive thru and secret eat). The crisps are actually lovely. I’m only a week in and I was so motivated reading your diary, knowing I’m not the only one who pee’s constantly. So thanks.
So still using up my stash of goodies, most of which has passed its best before date!
#1-Slimfast Chocolate Crunch Bar - 10.51am
#2-Exante Lemon Cheesecake Shake - 2.43pm
#3-Exante Lemon Cheesecake Shake - 6.10pm
#4-Exante Indian Dhal Pot - 8.00pm
This morning I came into work to find a sweetie parcel and 3 Lindt chocolates on my desk from Valentines day, I gave these away to people in my team when they got in. I know this isn't much for some but for me I am super happy with myself, usually I would have eaten them.