whoo hoo i am so nervous... weigh in day today.. I wonder eh... funny thing is I woke up at 6am, and I was blimmin starvin for the first time since starting lipotrim.. whats that about?????? I was dreaming about sandwiches.... woke up craving boiled eggs.. very strange.. hopefully my weigh in will put an end to my mental cravings and get me feeling positive again.. I was also very stressed last night and very grumpy at dp... I always always am interested in his interests and go out my way to be a part of whatever it is he wants to do.. anyway, as I said earlier am going to see my favourite dj in the world the end of feb.. i have been a fan for years.. booked the flights and lovely hotel.. then got onto the djs website to ask where presale tickets are online, he mailed me and said if we are coming all the way from ireland then hell put us on the guest list... well, i was delighted, i am a big fan and even getting a mail from him was like whoooohoooooooo.. dp came back from town and i told hm and he was like yeah whatever... grrrrr.... he has made it plain hes not bothered about going.. I went with him on holiday a few months back.. watched him spend a fortune and was somewhere i have no interest in, but still went, didnt moan or take away from him his experience.... sometimes its so easy to feel invisible ya know... its all rosy but the minute i express an interest in anything outside his interests or the home.. hes very insecure.. he was like so your gonna be this djs best mate then... yup, for what its worth (dj most likely gay or bi and in a relationship and dont think hes hot atall just lovve his music)
sorry guys, I am ranting on... couldnt sleep and thank god am going out today for weigh in and into town, am gonna start working out my outfits for the trip, and get enthusiastic myself.. blah blah blah xxx if you have got this far thanx for reading, atleast someone is marginally interested!!!!! xxx