QueenOfTheDamned
Full Member
i've been lurking around here for the past week or so but haven't posted until now. first of all i'd like to say what an inspiring place, and what amazing people. reading about some of your stories has given me the kick up the ass to finally get started with it. this is the last time i'll say "diet starts monday", nope, it starts right now (okay, its coinicidence its a monday, lol 
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firstly a bit about myself, my name's Bev and i'm 24 years old. 2 years ago i graduated from uni with a law degree, full of dreams of an exciting future, and since then everything pretty much fell apart. since i left uni i've had 3 jobs and got made redundant from them all, inbetween them i guess i just sat around home moping and eating, heck, some days i didnt get out of bed. infact, not some days, most days. i completely lost my will to live, everything seemed like a neverending series of diasappointments and dreams that would never come true. i know this sounds awfully morbid for a period of unemployment, but until i left uni my entire life revolved around success. i got straight A's in every exam i ever sat, a first class law degree from a top uni and i was accepted into mensa. i never in my life imagined that i could end up on benefits and falling into depression and a cycle of comfort eating that would leave me morbidly obese. well, i was never exactly skinny, and i always wanted to lose weight, but i just got on the scales and i weigh 23st 5lbs (327lbs) :cry:like, thats huge i wiehg more than i ever weighed in my life and i feel completely deflated and crushed. but hey, not as crushed as the chair im sitting on right now i'm guessing
for a while i denied i had a problem at all, but last week my luck changed, i got an amazing job working in insurance, and i start in 3 weeks time! i want to lose as much i can before i start and then i want to incorporate exercise and healthy eating into my life. i dont want to be the fat girl anymore. i want to be successful, slim and happy. for a long time i didn't value myself enough to belive i could be all three, but now i know i've been selling myself short. i dont want to be trapped in a prison of fat. i want to be beautiful on the inside and the outside.
i guess for the first time in my life, i want to exist and not just live. so this is my story. and i hope to make some wonderful friends on the way, because there will be times when i want to quit, and there will be times when i want to give in. heck, the prospect of losing that weight is daunting in itself. but ive made a committment, and im going to do it.
so yeah, thats the easy part, SAYING im going to do it.. now comes the hard part, which is basically LOSING over half my body weight! i wanted to tell you my background a little because for me the journey isn't physical, its emotional, i've battled depression my entire life and i feel in order to lose the weight i have to tackle the problem mentally as well as physically. so this wont just be a diary of calories and foods, its my journey to discover myself for the very first time.
well, with that part over, i guess i should start with some figures and tell you my plan!
height: 5ft 9"
weight: 23st 5lbs (327lbs) - not my OFFICAL starting weight as i'll weigh myself in the morning and consistently do this every week.
BMI: 48.3 (yikes, im practically a ball)
starting date: 24/5/2010
goal weight
goal weight: 140lbs
TOTAL TO LOSE - 187lbs
well, no point getting daunted by it anymore! but as you can see, i'll be on this journey for a while! i have no idea how long it will take to lose 187lbs... but for me to do it in a year i'd have to lose 3.5lbs a WEEK, and don't the experts say you should only lose 2lbs a month to be "safe"? in which case it would take me 2 years! but hey, it takes as long as it takes, and ill work as hard as i can to make sure i lose it as quickly as possible, while being sensible of course.
MY PLAN
counting calories - 1500 calories every day
exercise - swimming, walking, cycling and join a gym (once i get paid from my new job, gyms are expensive things especially with the 12 month commitment)
write down everything i eat and post it in my diary
work out the calories i burn through exercise every day
get weighed every monday morning soon as i get up
use this site as much as possible to get support and inspiration
if anyone's bothered reading this far, thank you, you truely have the patience of a saint!
well, i wrote all this at 4am, i was laid in bed kinda excited about starting my plan tomorrow and i decided to make a diary.
tomorrow im going to get up for 9.30am (i know not a very long sleep) and go to the swimming pool for 10am. i dont want my fat ass to get in lycra, infact its probably on my list of LEAST enjoyable things to do EVER, but hopefully on a mondya mornign at 10am the only people in the pool will be oldies with bad eyesight or something.. heck, i hope i dont give any of them a heart attack when they seem my fat ass crammed into one of evans "super slimmer" swimming costumes hmm, another thing about me, i use sarcasm as a defence mechanism, im actually shitting myself about going swimming, but really whats the worst that can happen? i mean surely im not that fat that i break the pool
right, well im gonna lurk around here a little more and then go to bed, DAY 1 starts fromw hen i wake up, though i dont plan on eating anything bad before then. ooh and ill try and sort out on fo those nifty ticker things, they look pretty cool!
). firstly a bit about myself, my name's Bev and i'm 24 years old. 2 years ago i graduated from uni with a law degree, full of dreams of an exciting future, and since then everything pretty much fell apart. since i left uni i've had 3 jobs and got made redundant from them all, inbetween them i guess i just sat around home moping and eating, heck, some days i didnt get out of bed. infact, not some days, most days. i completely lost my will to live, everything seemed like a neverending series of diasappointments and dreams that would never come true. i know this sounds awfully morbid for a period of unemployment, but until i left uni my entire life revolved around success. i got straight A's in every exam i ever sat, a first class law degree from a top uni and i was accepted into mensa. i never in my life imagined that i could end up on benefits and falling into depression and a cycle of comfort eating that would leave me morbidly obese. well, i was never exactly skinny, and i always wanted to lose weight, but i just got on the scales and i weigh 23st 5lbs (327lbs) :cry:like, thats huge
i wiehg more than i ever weighed in my life and i feel completely deflated and crushed. but hey, not as crushed as the chair im sitting on right now i'm guessing for a while i denied i had a problem at all, but last week my luck changed, i got an amazing job working in insurance, and i start in 3 weeks time! i want to lose as much i can before i start and then i want to incorporate exercise and healthy eating into my life. i dont want to be the fat girl anymore. i want to be successful, slim and happy. for a long time i didn't value myself enough to belive i could be all three, but now i know i've been selling myself short. i dont want to be trapped in a prison of fat. i want to be beautiful on the inside and the outside.
i guess for the first time in my life, i want to exist and not just live. so this is my story. and i hope to make some wonderful friends on the way, because there will be times when i want to quit, and there will be times when i want to give in. heck, the prospect of losing that weight is daunting in itself. but ive made a committment, and im going to do it.
so yeah, thats the easy part, SAYING im going to do it.. now comes the hard part, which is basically LOSING over half my body weight!
i wanted to tell you my background a little because for me the journey isn't physical, its emotional, i've battled depression my entire life and i feel in order to lose the weight i have to tackle the problem mentally as well as physically. so this wont just be a diary of calories and foods, its my journey to discover myself for the very first time.well, with that part over, i guess i should start with some figures and tell you my plan!
height: 5ft 9"
weight: 23st 5lbs (327lbs) - not my OFFICAL starting weight as i'll weigh myself in the morning and consistently do this every week.
BMI: 48.3 (yikes, im practically a ball
)starting date: 24/5/2010
goal weight
goal weight: 140lbs
TOTAL TO LOSE - 187lbs
well, no point getting daunted by it anymore! but as you can see, i'll be on this journey for a while! i have no idea how long it will take to lose 187lbs... but for me to do it in a year i'd have to lose 3.5lbs a WEEK, and don't the experts say you should only lose 2lbs a month to be "safe"? in which case it would take me 2 years! but hey, it takes as long as it takes, and ill work as hard as i can to make sure i lose it as quickly as possible, while being sensible of course.
MY PLAN
counting calories - 1500 calories every day
exercise - swimming, walking, cycling and join a gym (once i get paid from my new job, gyms are expensive things especially with the 12 month commitment)
write down everything i eat and post it in my diary
work out the calories i burn through exercise every day
get weighed every monday morning soon as i get up
use this site as much as possible to get support and inspiration
if anyone's bothered reading this far, thank you, you truely have the patience of a saint!
well, i wrote all this at 4am, i was laid in bed kinda excited about starting my plan tomorrow and i decided to make a diary.
tomorrow im going to get up for 9.30am (i know not a very long sleep) and go to the swimming pool for 10am. i dont want my fat ass to get in lycra, infact its probably on my list of LEAST enjoyable things to do EVER, but hopefully on a mondya mornign at 10am the only people in the pool will be oldies with bad eyesight or something.. heck, i hope i dont give any of them a heart attack when they seem my fat ass crammed into one of evans "super slimmer" swimming costumes
hmm, another thing about me, i use sarcasm as a defence mechanism, im actually shitting myself about going swimming, but really whats the worst that can happen? i mean surely im not that fat that i break the pool right, well im gonna lurk around here a little more and then go to bed, DAY 1 starts fromw hen i wake up, though i dont plan on eating anything bad before then. ooh and ill try and sort out on fo those nifty ticker things, they look pretty cool!
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