hey nee, no i've not been to the docs, i avoid them unless i'm pretty much at deaths door, lucky if the doctor sees me within the calendar year cause i just plain don't like them.
i'm just run down, my grans still really ill and i think the whole family are feeling the strain, she's at home and needing 24 hour care but the council won't pay for anything more than 3x half hour nurse sessions a day. so my (frail) grandad is having to care for her full time and he's not coping, i work full time and am 40 miles away from her and feel very pressurised to be up there every time i'm not at work, i'm behind on eeeeverything at home and i'm exhausted. when i am at home i have so much to do to try and catch up, o/h is always needing lifts places as he doesnt drive and i do, its really getting me down as i just need a rest and i don't feel like i ever get it. there is not a single day when i can truly relax, you know? i get pressure from every aspect of my life. then i'm not eating properly until night then just binging cause im down and i'm exhausted and i don't know how to get rid of that feeling other than to eat, then i obviously dont lose weight, then i feel even more down and it's a vicious circle. i've been ill for a while if i'm being honest but i'm just getting worse and worse, i'd sleep every moment i'm awake at the moment. i'm so tired i can't sleep though, which sounds stupid. my glands are up, my ears hurt, my throat hurts, my gums hurt, i just feel rotten in general. right now i want to curl up into a little ball and sleep until i'm ready to face the world again :cry: