Twiggy
Is in the Zone
Hi all
I'm a kinda newbie - I've been on and off diets for years (haven't we all!) and used to post on here a while back but fell off the wagon ... and well that was that!
Anyway I'm finally starting to count my points again and hopefully this time it'll make a difference!
I have just realised that I'm addicted to food!!! I don't know how I didn't know this before, but I always thought I was in control!
This afternoon my hubby and I watched "When A Man Loves a Woman" has anyone seen it, it's where Meg Ryan is an alcoholic. In one scene Meg has decided to quit drinking, and she's lying awake in bed when suddenly she jumps up and goes to the cupboard where she's hidden a bottle of Vodka. She takes the bottle runs outside into the street and puts it in the bin. My hubby said .. "what is she doing?!!" And I said, as if it was the most normal thing in the world, "oh she's getting rid of the drink because she can't stop thinking about it - she can hear it calling to her and she either has to drink it or get rid of it" he said "really?" and I said "yeah it's like that chocolate bar I just ate, I was full and felt a bit sick from the chocolate I ate a while ago, but I had to eat that bar because I couldn't stop thinking about it"
Sorry this is turning into an epic but I think for the first time I've realised I need help and I'm hoping to God this will be the hurdle I need to get over to finally sort my weight out! But what help is there out there really? I've never had much luck with places like this, everyone seems to be in a clique apart from me ... I know really that's not true, but my low self esteem makes me think that!
God what a whinger I've turned out to be - great first impression! lol
Tomorrow I will start again ... but already I know it's going to be hard as one of my team is bringing in cakes for her birthday which I don't know if I'll be able to resist.
For info, I'm a size 24 and weigh 19 stone (give or take) so I know i've got a long battle in front of me!
I could go on for hours but I better send this in the hope that someone makes it at least this far
Thanks for reading!
Twiggy
xx
I'm a kinda newbie - I've been on and off diets for years (haven't we all!) and used to post on here a while back but fell off the wagon ... and well that was that!
Anyway I'm finally starting to count my points again and hopefully this time it'll make a difference!
I have just realised that I'm addicted to food!!! I don't know how I didn't know this before, but I always thought I was in control!
This afternoon my hubby and I watched "When A Man Loves a Woman" has anyone seen it, it's where Meg Ryan is an alcoholic. In one scene Meg has decided to quit drinking, and she's lying awake in bed when suddenly she jumps up and goes to the cupboard where she's hidden a bottle of Vodka. She takes the bottle runs outside into the street and puts it in the bin. My hubby said .. "what is she doing?!!" And I said, as if it was the most normal thing in the world, "oh she's getting rid of the drink because she can't stop thinking about it - she can hear it calling to her and she either has to drink it or get rid of it" he said "really?" and I said "yeah it's like that chocolate bar I just ate, I was full and felt a bit sick from the chocolate I ate a while ago, but I had to eat that bar because I couldn't stop thinking about it"
Sorry this is turning into an epic but I think for the first time I've realised I need help and I'm hoping to God this will be the hurdle I need to get over to finally sort my weight out! But what help is there out there really? I've never had much luck with places like this, everyone seems to be in a clique apart from me ... I know really that's not true, but my low self esteem makes me think that!
God what a whinger I've turned out to be - great first impression! lol
Tomorrow I will start again ... but already I know it's going to be hard as one of my team is bringing in cakes for her birthday which I don't know if I'll be able to resist.
For info, I'm a size 24 and weigh 19 stone (give or take) so I know i've got a long battle in front of me!
I could go on for hours but I better send this in the hope that someone makes it at least this far
Thanks for reading!
Twiggy
xx