well didn't meet up with mum in the end. good thing as half the day felt like i was made of lead. got in touch with my cdc and i might be going to get weighed after one week, not two. i wouldn't do this actually but want to talk to her about what to do around the hen night and wedding as i forgot to do that last week. i am going to weigh myself in the morning anyways as tuesdays are going to be my weigh in day so it will be after six days, wish me luck
this afternoon i have felt much better, mind you, i fell asleep for two and a half hours over lunchtime and then felt naff until around five, but since then i have perked up remarkably. i seem to do that on the evenings. not great timing... ha. and then i don't sleep properly on a night...
i haven't had any coffee today either to see if i can still zonk out. tried to make a muffin. complete disaster... another pack bites the dust. am going to have to get another extra one, ha. she's going to think i'm ebaying on the sly at this rate!!
am all bloaty still, assuming it's totm although i don't bleed at the mo with the implant. apparently that may change but we'll see
so i doubt i will have an amazing loss but hopefully something fairly good
i'm having mood swings and sometimes it feels so hard even though i don't want to give up and then it just seems easy. i have told the chap i work with that i do it now. he's one of my best mates and sits next to me at work and is my supervisor, ha. and would notice and comment. i think somebody forewarned him though because he just said uhuh uhuh ok. and that was about it. and then put up with me rambling about it, ha. i suppose the fact that i mentioned the doc was aware and could supervise was a good line
ha. so nothing there and the other men in the team, yes, there's only men, i'm in IT, probably won't even notice... so that's all good
i'm sorry i've been moaning so much. and i can't promise it won't continue. my moods and my motivation are all over the place at the mo.
oh, and i checked out the menu for where we are going on the hen night, not chosen by me, and the only way i can go low carb is by eating several starters and they aint big. the salads are all small but served with dough balls or bread. and there are no meat dishes, just pizza and pasta. so it looks like i'm just going to have to go for it, plan it, not worry about it, watch the drinking and start again the next day. we'll see. it will be my first meal in weeks so i probably won't be able to eat much anyway. so i'm going to have to watch what i drink!!
have made it through day six though and hopefully i'm getting over that bump in the road. reading through peoples' amazing weight losses has spurred me on a bit today. plus a few pms to keep me going. thanks guys
abz xx
