Blue's last chance with exante.

[Mere]

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And some pictures to add to my depressing thread to cheer me (and everyone else) up

My 2 house bunnies Angel and Sydnee, they are 10 and 9 years old now so they're getting on a bit but they are great.
Follow me about and take up more space in my bed at night than I do!

And my little roborovski hamster Jeffrey who is 10 months old. He's awesome but a little scatty!

Thinking of you Blue hope you have a lovely day and good luck for WI tomorrow.
Mere x

 

[Blue Butterfly]

Hey everyone

I'm doing ok today.
Really really tired for some reason though, may be the chest infection that wont go away.

@Quirky girl, I am going to look into contacting MIND.
I used to be on a website called Recover Your Life that was for self-harm, anxiety problems, and stuff like that. Unfortunately I found it way too triggering when I was having a bad day and then started self harming more because everyone was telling me it was ok/not making me feel bad about it so I just went nuts!
Tomorrow I am going to be brave and finally book a doctors appointment!

My mum started exante yesterday, she hasn't stopped complaining about how she's feeling since!
I told her to get a computer so she can come on here.

Have a great day everyone. I'll be back later

 

[Mere]

Well done Blue on the decision to make the appointment with the Doc. A step in the right direction.
Now your mum has started Exante you can support each other.
Mere x

 

[notsoskinnymarge]

Hey Blue, how did the rest of your day go ?

 

[Blue Butterfly]

The rest of my day has been good Nothing exciting happened, I haven't made my doctors appointment yet, I'll try and do that tomorrow.

I'm enjoying exante though, not having to think about food is nice.
When I wasn't on exante all I thought about in my day was food, maybe more because I stay at home and don't get up to much.
But I would sit home and just eat....all day pretty much. I wouldn't eat 3 meals a day, I would just graze all day.
Going to bed and not feeling so full that I start to feel sick is a nice change.
I think I have an addiction to food (sounds silly doesn't it) because when I go shopping and get all new stuff I just wanna eat it all at once!
And it's embarrassing but if I don't have any nice food in I will 'borrow' my brothers (we live together) and that leaves him with no yummy stuff, I feel terrible after I've done it of course but when I'm taking it and eating it I'm just thinking about myself That's so selfish.
He's started to put his food in a locked cupboard in the kitchen and I feel so ashamed. That he has to lock food away so I don't eat it.......makes me feel disgusting.

I guess maybe that's something I could see a counseller about in the future. Definitely something I would like to sort out before I go back to real food, that's a long way off yet though.

 

[notsoskinnymarge]

It may be a long way off, but you have already started going to get there

 

[jael001]

The very fact that you can recognise the behaviour and know its not right is the first step to overcoming it in the future. X

 

[moshermum]

I think that overeating is an addiction. Honestly I have been addicted to a number of things and it certainly feels the same. The trouble is that you cannot avoid food all together (except on this diet) Every other addiction you can just say, never again, but you cant say that with food. I'm not sure what the solution is, unless you just say you're addicted to certain foods and plan to cut them out of your diet forever. I always thought my problem was chocolate, but it isn't, my problem is bread and cakes. I have to accept that I cannot eat these without getting out of control, its really hard.

Well done for carrying on... keep going

 

[jael001]

I agree, we're probably all addicted to food, or the feelings we get from eating food at least. I'm allergic to lots of foods, but they're all healthy things like fruit, some veg and nuts. Why couldn't I be allergic to chocolate and bread? And as you say, we can't avoid food forever, unlike smoking, drinking etc, which you can just cut out completely. It is hard and it's why the diet industry is as huge as it is, because we all do it, put the weight back on, do it again, etc etc. We just have to learn how to live in a world of food without over indulging.

 

[Blue Butterfly]

Well I'm in a good mood today, no real reason but I wont complain!

I have the most shocking death breath though, it's been fine til today and now it's awful......bleurgh!

Oh and I had ordered some purple (my fave colour) jeans online a few days ago. They came today
I was a size 26 in jeans before, I ordered a 24 and they *almost* fit. The button doesn't do up by about an inch, soooooo close!
I'm not sure if I'll be brave enough to wear them when I go out but we'll see. They are a nice deep purple, I have no idea what to wear them with. I have no idea when it comes to fashion but I have promised myself I will make more of an effort with clothes this year.

 

[Quirkygirl]

here's a purple woohoo for your jeans.

I adore clothes shopping. They will comfy in no time bb.xx

 

[Mere]

Well I'm in a good mood today, no real reason but I wont complain!

I have the most shocking death breath though, it's been fine til today and now it's awful......bleurgh!

Oh and I had ordered some purple (my fave colour) jeans online a few days ago. They came today
I was a size 26 in jeans before, I ordered a 24 and they *almost* fit. The button doesn't do up by about an inch, soooooo close!
I'm not sure if I'll be brave enough to wear them when I go out but we'll see. They are a nice deep purple, I have no idea what to wear them with. I have no idea when it comes to fashion but I have promised myself I will make more of an effort with clothes this year.

Love the thought of the purple jeans google Gok Wan for ideas also online stores like isme next marks etc they show models wearing different combinations of clothes.
Mere x

 

[jael001]

Ooh purple jeans sound lovely. You could wear them with black, blue, white, purple obviously, pink, grey. Most colours would look ok, probably not green but yeah, why not give it a go?

And the breath, I sympathise. I bought myself a tongue scraper and found that helps a bit, and I use breath spray when it feels like it's particularly bad.

 

[~nix~]

I brush my teeth a lot to cope with the breath.... The OH hasnt complained about the breath yet..but i have a really strong metalic taste...really strong....
Thats when i know its working. But the scales this week arnt moving for me. And its WI tomorrow...

Nik

 

[notsoskinnymarge]

Oohhhh purple jeans
I remember dying a faded blue pair of levis 501's purple that must have been well over 25 years ago
I sooo loved them
If I remember correctly, I got into trouble for not cleaning out the washing machine after I had dyed them
Im glad you had a good day yesterday

 

[Quirkygirl]

I used to go raving in my purple cutoff dungarees ....do they count..cringe

 

[Mere]

It was purple very short mini skirts I wore!
Mere x

 

[notsoskinnymarge]

I think I may have to get another pair of purple jeans, when they will be a size 14

 

[Mere]

Sounds good Marge.
Mere x

 

[Blue Butterfly]

Wooohoooo for all the purple love going on!!
I showed my mum my purple jeans the other day and she said they look really nice on me, I'm in love with these jeans now! Might have to get a pair in every size so when I slim out of one size I still have some to wear

Well I am freezing today
I've had no heat or hot water since Wednesday night.
Had a plumber out to check boiler and whatnot and he couldn't fix the problem. Next day an electrician came out and he couldn't fix the problem. That was Friday afternoon, the electrician said he has to contact the boiler manufacturer and they will have to come and sort it out. Well obv none of them were working over the weekend so I've been left for 4 days with no heat or hot water and it sucks.
If it doesn't get fixed tomorrow I WILL cry!