Hi ladies,
How pleased was I to wake up and see that people had posted?? I am not alone.....yay!!
I was struggling a bit last night and suffering from the worst hunger imaginable....(though you have been there, I am sure). I was drinking marigold veg stock and worried about the carbs and nothing seemed to distract me from my starvation except your blogs. Brilliant.
I had laid around and slept much of the day....seemed like the only way of dealing with the feelings of deprivation. I found just lying in bed all cosy and running through those mental affirmations really helped.
History wise (I'll post pics when I can)
1995-2005 fluctuated between 15 and 18 stones....size 18 to 22. Lack of activity and a bad weekend lager habit, plus pies
. Yes pies.
2007 started to feel conscious of my lard and joined slimming world :wave_cry:
2007-2009 went from 17stoneish to 12 stone but weight seemed to want to gravitate back up to 13.5 stones regardless of intervention. Still reliant upon diet mainly though started walking more. Binned alcohol for good :cry:
2009- Reached 13.5 stones and did CD for the first time to get into an unforgiving bridesmaid's dress. Looked good at 10st 12 but went down to 9st12. Didn't do stabilisation right but blamed the diet for wrecking my metabolism when the weight went straight back on (2 stones back in 6 months took me to 11.12 by Dec 2009). To be honest I had taken up running and wasn't stuffing my face- had a right to be annoyed. But my thinking was skewed, looking back :sigh:
Dec 2009-Now Battled to stop weight going back on. Regular gym attendance (bodypump classes) plus running (4.5 miles at least twice a week) meant that I was fit as a butcher's pup but the weight gain was just relentless. Joined SW again....2 pound off, 2 pound on for 4 months. Great for stabilisation but just could not lose. Went to WW....after 5 weeks of the same the consultant told me to see my doc. Doc suspects PCOS but has not managed to establish this. I know there must be a hormonal root to the problem because no-one can be that active and committed and still gain.
I got stuck in a cylce where I'd diet and work out, get zero results then fall of the wagon, gain....try again.....zero results....binge and so on until my weight all came back.
I went to New York last week and had a great time. Didn't go mental but ate pretty much what I liked....walked miles and ran in Central Park. Still gained 6 pounds
I think that was a bit of a turning point. The fact that I am now the same weight as before my last CD was just annoying. I had blamed CD for my weight gain woes to anyone who would listen....and my hubby and family agreed.
Last week I floated the idea of re-starting with my hubby (A) and he agreed with me. I couldn't believe it....I asked him why when previously he has tried to talk me out of getting stuck in what I had labelled the 'Cambridge Trap' and he said 'You have tried everything, Jo.'
He was right. I have. I need to give myself permission to do what works for me.
Fact: Conventional eating plans plus exercise help me to maintain and tone but do not allow me to reduce my weight
Fact: I love my exercise and am fed up that I will need a wee break....but I will come back to it as an essential part of maintaining
Fact: It seems likely that I have some hormonal weight gain/metablolic resistence issues that mean I will need to manage my intake of sugars for life
Fact: Cambridge is the best route for me to re-start and get back to slim. I can plan for the rest of my life later. I need results now.
So....that's me. I was an 18 stone size 24 when I started this journey and am now 13.5 stones and a size 14 (oddly....I was a 16 last time I was this weight...the toning must be working!!)
I am finding it tough....but I want to get there so bad that I'll stick
xx Jo:jelous:
