Hey Lelly - got the fight back too! Bank holiday we had friends over and yesterday had a last supper, a roast, before I decided to get back on the SS wagon.
Had my third shake about 30 minutes ago and have been drinking like crazy all day. On Saturday I went into a bridal shop and it was the first nice, normal one! A lot of the others I went into were quite odd. Can't explain it, but they just seem to attract strange people to work there.
I tried about 4 dresses and liked all of them, but they're not my dream dress. My dream dress I found online and the shop has been kind enough to order it in for me. So they've ordered it in a size 12 and it will be at the shop first week in September. I'm under no obligation to buy it, but I just 'know' that I'll want it.
I tried on a similar one, but didn't like the bodice and this has the bodice I do like. Am so excited. I've loved it from the moment I started looking, but nowhere stocked it nearer than about a 4 hour drive away, so I'm eternally grateful to this shop.
So, I need to get to where I want to be by September, as I want to know exactly what it will look like and order it. I also want to be where I want to be so that I can focus on maintaining. I didn't want to panic 6 months before the wedding and try to lose it, only to put some back on. So I have June, July and August and would like to lose 3 stone ideally. For the first time in ages I feel I have the focus back. No more snacking, no more 4 packs instead of 3. Just lots of water, coffee and willpower to get through the first 4 days.
All I can think about is the wedding. Could do with a picture of my dress pinned all over the house for inspiration, but obviously don't want OH to see it. I'm so excited I could burst

I think it's partly wedding, but also partly excitement that I'm in the right frame of mind again.
This diet is completely about being in the right frame of mind and when I'm not I feel down because I now it's hard/impossible to do when I feel like that.
Off to catch up with diaries now, but determined to spend more time on here. My diary will probably be all about weddings from here on in lol, but that's what is working for me right now xxx