Memoirs of a girl called FUNCURLS!!

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Well, I have to say that I'm feeling really nervous and tense about tomorrow's WI!! It's a big one for me because it's my first full week back on track since my cruise indulgence and subsequent 1lb gain! I think the nerves are nagging away because I know I've been good and I want to be rewarded for it! On Friday I worked a night shift and one of the girls is moving to California and ordered loads of Domino's pizzas for everyone, and other people took in doughnuts, biscuits, sweets, the works! I didn't touch even a sliver of pizza and the only things I had from the sweet stuff were 1 Cadbury choc eclair sweet (2 syns) and 1 Chocolate finger (1.5 syns) so pretty angelic by anyones' standards. And I've been great the rest of the time too! The only thing is I haven't done any exercise at all this week, apart from my normal work activity which is 'on the go' but not exactly cardiovascular stuff that my usual walking involves! So I'm feeling that I don't really know where I am this week! It's also * week so I'm feeling bloated! I just want to see some progress again as I was doing so well before the cruise and am due a good loss, particularly after resisting all that! I'll be proper peeved off if I'm not rewarded!! Watch this space!X

 

[*EB*]

**watches the space**

cant wait for you to have a monster loss tonight honey - however * week, might hinder a super dupa loss - so dont be too disheartened if its lower than you think!

How did you resist Dominos? I need a resist pizza gene implant....im terrible for the cheesy tomato gorgeous ness!! i cant say no - eeek! xxx well done you - you need a medal! x

 

[funcurls]

Haha- resist pizza gene implant EB- you tickle me, you're hilarious!!!

Well my fears were unwarranted as I lost 2lb!! HUUGE sigh of relief!! After the pizza resistance (not 'piece de resistance'!!!) I am now so glad I said no to it and all the other goodies I could have had this week!! Here's to another 100% week on plan! I'd like to lose another 2lb next week which would mean I'd be 12 1/2 stone! Anything after that means the being on the right side of 11 stone something which will be just dreamy!! No events coming up this week to stand in my way so bring it on!! XXX

 

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Well, after a really brilliant week 100% on plan, I let things slip today and now feeling really annoyed with myself!!! What happened was I was on a long day in work (7.30am-8pm) and for once it was quiet (not usually the case in ITU!!) So it was decided that I was to slip off to Asda and buy some goodies for us all to get stuck into!! My friend has just had promotion to Sister so it was a good excuse to celebrate!! So off I went and as I was walking around Asda I was adding strawberries, raspberries and cherries to the trolley with SW fully in my head!! I was determined not to give in!! Then I piled in everything on my list- Baguettes, pate, Wensleydale with cranberries and orange, Bavarian smoked cheddar, Pringles, tortilla chips and dips, jam doughnuts, Haribo Tangtastics, Toffee Crisp Clusters, salted cashew nuts......still not tempted in the least!!! Then I got back to work and laid out the spread........and hey presto, just a little of this and a little of that- count it in my syns.........and a bit more....and a little bit more......and before I knew it I must have clocked up about 40 syns!! I did resist the doughnuts though!! I really didn't want that particular synnage hanging over me!! At the time I really enjoyed it, although I did want to stop, it was basically impossible- the pull was too strong!! Now feeling worried and stressed about WI tomorrow!! Silly moo! Nevermind, we'll see what the scales say about that incident and take it from there!!!X

 

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Well, I'm not the happiest bunny on the planet tonight, because I stayed the same!! OK, it could have been worse, but I'm annoyed with myself for spoiling things yesterday when I'd been so good all week! It's such a shame for one day to ruin it all!! I think I'm just one of these people who doesn't seem to be able to get away with even the slightest of naughtiness!! I was the same in school!! Pretty good most of the time, but the first sniff of naughtiness and I was outside the classroom with my hands on my head, or queuing outside the Headmaster's office, whereas I had friends who were naughty all the time and didn't get strung up!! It's the same with SW, I have friends who are naughty on a regular basis, and seem to get away with it and lose, whilst I, angelic most of the time don't manage to pull it off!! So I'm now being positive for the coming week!! I must admit, apart from my 'on my feet most of the time' job, I haven't been doing as much exercise (ie walking) for a while, so my pledge this week is to walk every day! I'm not working much this week so this should be feasible, and it'll make me feel better and more positive about myself and my body! I'm determined to have a good loss next week so no more picking at buffets! 3 meals a day plus fruit/yogurt as snacks is my grand plan and as many superfree/superspeed foods as possible!! My fridge is full of fruit and veg, as is the fruit bowl and my snack cupboard is full of good stuff, so there's no excuse!! The recipe books are coming out and I'm going to be really organised!! The past 5 weeks have been slow slow slow and I'm going to change that!!XXX

 

[*EB*]

am i your naughty friend? haha! xxxx

Good luck Hev - as i said you CAN DO IT! POW POW POW! xxx

 

[funcurls]

Nooo I wasn't referring to you chick!! I was referrin to Lazzabear and other friends of mine/peeps in SW class!!XXXXXX

 

[funcurls]

Ooh dear, I usually wake up after a disappointing WI with a new lease of life, a positive attitude for the start of a new week ahead!! Not so this morning!! A row with dh about money didn't help the day get off to a great start, and now I'm feeling all down in the dumps!! I'm extremely determined to stick to plan 100%, because I really really want a good loss next week, so it's not like I'm all set to binge on the wrong things or anything, it's just I feel deflated and all negative!! I desperately need to shake off this sillyness and get a life!! It's probably tiredness too because I worked 46 hours of shifts in 4 days so perhaps I just need to catch up on rest and not be so hard on myself!! Watch this space- I'm sure I'll soon be back with a new-found enthusiasm!!!XXXXXX

 

[*EB*]

I am going to send some positive vibes to you honey - ive only just seen this post, and now i wish i had seen it earlier to comment on it and cheer you up! **love you babes** hope you are in a much better mood and cheered up now!

You have worked so many hours of late, so dont beat yourself up that you have misplaced your mojo - you will get it back again (im sure its back already!!!)

Lots of Love and POW POW POW!!! xxx

 

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I am going to send some positive vibes to you honey - ive only just seen this post, and now i wish i had seen it earlier to comment on it and cheer you up! **love you babes** hope you are in a much better mood and cheered up now!

You have worked so many hours of late, so dont beat yourself up that you have misplaced your mojo - you will get it back again (im sure its back already!!!)

Lots of Love and POW POW POW!!! xxx

You always cheer me up chick!! However, after waking up this morning with a new found enthusiasm and determination, I left work this afternoon, only to scrape the bumper of another car with my rear left passenger door, leaving rather large scratches, taking paint off both and leaving a big long dent in my door!! Doh!! Then to top it off, I went to Sainsburys to get some bits, bumped into an old friend, helped her take her bags to her car, got into my car, drove off, only to find 5 minutes into my journey home that I'd left my own bags of shopping in the middle of Sainsburys car park!! What an afternoon!! I may just take myself off to bed before the 3rd disaster happens!!! Oh well, at least England got through!!XXX

 

[*EB*]

crikey that sounds like a day from hell.....hope you remember that for all the bad things that happen to you - the good things will come back two fold.

So a POW POW POW weight loss for you next week - oh yes xxxx

Missed you on MSN, was watching the game xxx

 

[funcurls]

crikey that sounds like a day from hell.....hope you remember that for all the bad things that happen to you - the good things will come back two fold.

So a POW POW POW weight loss for you next week - oh yes xxxx

Missed you on MSN, was watching the game xxx

Thanks hunnybunny!! Isn't it strange how bad things always come together!! But lets get this into perspective, I STS 2 weeks running (big deal!!!), I scraped a bit of metal (oooh diddums!! I have 5 yrs protected no claims anyway and it'll cover the other car's damage!) and I left a couple of bags of shopping in a supermarket carpark (I went back and a nice kind man had handed them in!!) So life aint so bad! Noone's died, I've still got my health, lovely hubbie, family and friends, a roof over my head, England are through, and I just had a yummy syn free chicken curry, oh, and I'm 3st 3lb lighter than I was 8 months ago!! I thought you might be watchin the match!! Hope you enjoyed!! What a relief eh?!XXXXXXXXXX

 

[*EB*]

yeah phew - and good on you for that perspective....i think sometimes the negatives are much easier to focus on the drama of the moment - but really, they are minor in comparison to some things eh?!

keep going - i want a POW POW POW on those scales next week - ClaireyBella did it, so now its your turn - i will POW the week after!!! I want a SOTW award! x

 

[funcurls]

yeah phew - and good on you for that perspective....i think sometimes the negatives are much easier to focus on the drama of the moment - but really, they are minor in comparison to some things eh?!

keep going - i want a POW POW POW on those scales next week - ClaireyBella did it, so now its your turn - i will POW the week after!!! I want a SOTW award! x

I think you can do it babe if you put your mind to it!! I think maybe you need to cancel a few weekends and just buy a huge human size hamster wheel and run in it all weekend!!LOL!! I wonder if they're available!!X

 

[*EB*]

i am gonna try!!! lets see what happens eh? xxxx good luck for you xxx

 

[funcurls]

Well things have gone a little better this week!! After my bumper strawberry pickin session (it was blinkin hard work- maybe that shifted a bit)- I lost 3lb this week!! I am over the moon because I know I deserved it! I'd been 100% this week, said no to lots of goodies (but didn't go without treats- just SW friendly/low syn ones!!) and did lots of walking so I'd have been peeved if I hadn't had a good one!! It's funny how sometimes you just have a feeling because of how your clothes feel and the comments people make!! I can't believe people are now calling me 'skinny'!! Of course this is far from the case, but I suppose it's their way of saying it's really noticable, which is a great feeling! I'm just 1lb away from my 3 1/2 stone sticky, and would LOVE to achieve this next week!! Unfortunately a big loss is very rarely followed by another good loss judging by my track record, and next week is *week, but I'll try my very best and who knows?!! Actually I've got my parents coming to stay Fri-Mon and this will involve eating out so maybe I'm a bit optimistic thinking it'll happen for me next week!! Watch this space!!X

 

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Had a lovely BBQ with some friends on Tuesday and this resulted in going off plan (made it into a flexisyn day- I've estimated 40-50 syns(well I don't have them often!!!) I really enjoyed myself and just hope it doesn't have too much impact next Monday!

I had some terrible news yesterday (Wed) morning! My best friend from home's Mum passed away very suddenly late tuesday night! It happened at their home and her husband had to start CPR whilst waiting for the ambulance to arrive! When my friend and her sister arrived the paramedics were working on her and unfortunately it was too late!! I've just got back from Exeter ( I rushed down yesterday when I heard the news) so it's been a very emotional and tiring time! I feel so sad- she was such a lovely and beautiful lady (aged 55) and so helpless towards my friend as I'm 3 hours away and unfortunately have to go to work (they gave me annual leave last night to go down which is something!) From a food point of view, it's amazing how things can easily just go out of the window as 1) it suddenly doesn't seem so important anymore and 2) you move out of your cozy little routine!! However I have tried my best today but feeling a bit emotional have been tempted to pick!!X

 

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Grrrwww!! This week's been challenging in many ways!! Firstly I had the BBQ with friends on Tuesday, which I turned into a flexi-syn day, Wednesday I had the call from my friend to say that her mum had suddenly dropped dead!! Devastated to say the least and rushed down to Exeter to be with the family! Went out with my parents in the evening to 'Prezzo's' restaurant. That day went out the window somewhat on the food front! Thursday was sort of the same, because I had to get back to Swansea to do a night shift so wasn't quite as organised as I'd normally have been, so I did slip a little bit! Friday my parents came up for the weekend and we ate out in the local pub so exceeded my syns there!! Yesterday I was actually quite a good girl in that we all went for fish & chips by the sea and I skipped the chips, just had cod in batter, but left nearly all the batter and had it with a double portion of mushy peas (my fave!!) and thoroughly enjoyed it!! I was quite pleased with myself infact!! However today was a different story! I started off well but we went out for Sunday lunch which wasn't ALL that bad, but in the afternoon/evening we walked around my villages' charity open gardens which is an annual thing, and had cake, burgers and other naughty things which sent my synnage totally off the scale, so really I've had to take 2 flexi-syn days!! It will be a total miracle if I lose or even STS at tomorrow's WI!! I think I have to set myself up for a gain and just hope it isn't too much, and make a massive whole-hearted pledge to get rid of it for next week!! Blinkin eck and I really really wanted that 3 1/2 stone sticker this week!! I think I'm going to have to wait a bit longer for it!!X

 

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Oh dear, is it really nearly 2 weeks since I last posted?!! Tut tut!!

Well I managed to gain 2lb at that WI I was dreading (above), but this really was expected due to all the socialising and being out of my comfort zone going down to Exeter etc.

This week I was a little disappointed again!! After a really really really 100% week I was convinced I'd lost at least what I'd gained the week before and was really hoping for the 3lb to get my 3 1/2 stone sticky!! I went down to Exeter Monday morning for my friend's Mum's funeral which was just AWFUL!! A lovely send-off, but so emotional!! I was asked to read 2 poems, which I felt very honoured to do, but when it came to it, I was a complete wreck, sobbed through the first one, and totally broke down in the middle of it!! The second one was much easier as it was nearer the end of the service and I think I'd got it out of my system a bit and felt much calmer!!

So that evening I went to a class local to my parents! My Mum came with me and joined up!!! I lost 1lb!! Normally 1lb would be terrific, but because of the 2lb I'd gained the week before and after being ridiculously angelic, saying no to EVERYTHING offered to me, including yummy looking jam donuts on night shift, I felt I was short-changed!! And missed out on my 3 1/2 stone sticky yet again!! Surely it's coming my way next Monday!! I'll be devastated if it doesn't!! Sorry to sound so miserable!! I'm not really, I've just had a few frustrating weeks weight loss wise and feeling it's not shifting as quickly as I'd like it to!!! I've set up a new 8 week challenge, 'Kool 4 Skool' which will take us into the new school year in September!! Not that it has much significance in my life, but I do see September as a new start, and the run-up to Christmas!! I'd love to reach target by the end of the year!! 25 lb to go!!X

 

[*EB*]

keep at it Hev - you are doing so well, and you will get your sticker!!! xxx