Don't know if this will help you, but what you describe was me for many months leading up to my CWP start. Mindless, indiscriminate eating - just as an example, I'd buy a 1kg loaf of raisin bread and eat the whole thing once I got it home - and I could not stop. The only time I wasn't eating was when I was sleeping, otherwise morning til night I was stuffing myself. One day as I passed by the huge mirror in the hall I stopped in my tracks, I never actually looked at myself in it as I walked by it, but suddenly there I was. I took a hard look at myself in the mirror and I broke down and cried, wondering how this had happened to me. I was so completely disgusted at what I saw that I scared myself. I stood there examining my stomach, my thighs, my entire upper body which looked like I was some jackhammer operator on the roadside. It was the first time in a long time that I saw my ACTUAL body and not the distorted image I had in my mind, the one that said, you're not really THAT fat. I realised that I was actually quite obese.
That's when I made an appointment with the CDC and I must say that 8 weeks in I have not slipped up once - every time I've been tempted I think back to how I cried over my self-abused, obese body and that has more or less immediately turned me away from food. I'm not saying it hasn't been very hard at times, but that image will probably (hopefully) be with me until the day I die.
I'm sure there will be some point for you too, some turning point at which you will become strong and you will overcome the urge to binge. Be strong and don't give up!