Sunshine's Trip To Pre Baby Weight (start Thurs 13th oct, p 91)

[Laura Croft]

No, you don't deserve a slap. If you've been moving up the steps, I doubt you've been out of ketosis for so long so the safety net has gone... I didn't do well at 1000 calories either and that's actually when I gave up and went to 1500, did fine for 3 months but then blew it.

Remember it's not about perfection, this is a process not an event. You are going through some massive physical and emotional changes and changing thought processes and actions that you've had for a long time.

Hang in there and keep on posting - honesty is always the best policy xx

 

[Sunshine Singer]

Thanks Laura,

I don't know what's got into me. I suppose it's leading up to totm. I'm just so tired at the moment as it's the first time I've had off in a long time. I have a friends graduation tomorrow and we're out for dinner after. But I'm gonna drink loads of water now to get some energy back and start tomorrow with a bang. I've worked to hard to blow this and never want to do it again. I just want to keep moving forward. xxxx Thanks hun

 

[Sunshine Singer]

I see a pattern here...... every time I have a big event, I work hard on CD (still enjoying it, just part of my life right now), then I come down off my high and have a blow out! It's weird. I seem to be able to cope with difficult situations fairly well and then go off the walls for no reason. I'm a funny one lol. All I know is that today I've hardly been able to keep my eyes open. I went to meet a fiend for coffee, he asked me, and then he didn't show up???? Pretty annoying considering I really didn't want to go near town today. He called me 2 hours later to say he was running late!!!! pretty rude.

I actually have a lot going on which I pushed aside so i could focus on my gig. Extended family troubles, dying aunt, stressed immidiate family, the list goes on....but i usualy look at the positives. Maybe it's all just caught up with me.

My sister told me yesterday she was bragging about me on her Wedding/ Brides to Be forum..... how skinny I'd got and how lovely I looked in the bridesmaid dress. It's so lovely that she's so proud of me losing the weight. We get really excited about eachothers lives, we're very close I really need to get focused for Dublin.

 

[Sunshine Singer]

Glug, glug, glug
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[Laura Croft]

I see a pattern here...... every time I have a big event, I work hard on CD (still enjoying it, just part of my life right now), then I come down off my high and have a blow out! It's weird. I seem to be able to cope with difficult situations fairly well and then go off the walls for no reason. I'm a funny one lol. All I know is that today I've hardly been able to keep my eyes open.

LOL I relate. I wonder sometimes even though we think we are fine, there's a bit of us that is actually struggling. Don't know though because I'd be the first to stay I love pressure. Guess it also depends why we 'use' food? Is it a punishment for us when we've done good, to protect us from fear or just because we've stopped thinking... Maybe you were more tired than you thought you were?

I went to meet a fiend for coffee, he asked me, and then he didn't show up???? Pretty annoying considering I really didn't want to go near town today. He called me 2 hours later to say he was running late!!!! pretty rude.

So rude!! I'm kinda laughing at your typo here because he was a fiend

My sister told me yesterday she was bragging about me on her Wedding/ Brides to Be forum..... how skinny I'd got and how lovely I looked in the bridesmaid dress. It's so lovely that she's so proud of me losing the weight. We get really excited about eachothers lives, we're very close I really need to get focused for Dublin.

That's so nice. My sister and I are so different and not at all close. So is Dublin for her wedding or for a gig?

 

[Sunshine Singer]

LOL Laura, he's my 'ikkle fiend' lol... whoops

I'm going over to Dublin to hold auditions for new singers for a choir I'm the lead soprano in and then to record the soprano lines for the new members to learn with. But I'll mix it with seeing my family and friends so it'll be great fun.

My sisters wedding is in November so i have time till that comes around. So many things to come first
.................

I think i was in a hurry to get to goal ya know. In one way I just wanna get there and have done the plans and then I think who cares how long it takes? The main thing is I'm going the right way. It's so hard to be so close yet so far. I should be grateful i've lost what I have. I think I panic I won't get there which is a silly attitiude to have.

Back to my foodie diary tomorrow x

 

[Sunshine Singer]

Note to myself,

Cd has worked for me. Stick with it, Work up the plans and as Laura said on another thread I'll have all the time in the world to try all sorts of different food after CD. For now just stick with the plans! Loved 810, loved 1000A....come on 1000B - be my friend. x

 

[Laura Croft]

Wow. Do you have a website? I'd love to hear you sing.

You are doing fine, one day at a time. And my final word for the evening is a cliche from OA (attempted that for a while but couldnt' fathom being powerless over food) recovery is a process, not an event x

 

[Jessica Rabbit72]

Hey Sunshine,

just read your diary from start to finish and it really is such an inspiration!! (I know its a cliche but its true) and as Laura says there's no need to give yourself a slap as it is all a learning curve and in the great words of KD

Perfection is not the key to maintenance. It is finding balance you can live with.”

and I am sure that you will balance it out tomorrow.

I am also sure that you will learn from today and just take each day as it comes.

I am going to be startin on 1000/1200 or 1500 on Monday cant decide which one yet and going to tomorrw. am going to have a really good look at all the plans see what food I have and go with it.

Am so sorry about your aunt that must have been difficult and well done for resisiting food at such a difficult time and fantastic news about the gig you must have been on cloud 99!

Im subscribed to your diary now so I can keep popping in and we can keep each other going

Love
Jess
xxx

 

[Sunshine Singer]

Oh my gosh Jess, I can't believe you've read all my ramblings! I'm sure it's very waffly when read altogether lol. Poor you lol!!! hehehe. I really appreciate that you have tho and I def in need of support getting through these plans and ever after . I'm also def here for you and everyone on here. It's true what you say regarding how much the forum changes, so many new names crop up all the time. Lol I'm feeling like I've been around a long time at this stage! But i'm in no hurry and not going anywhere.

I'm really pleased to see you've joined this section and good luck starting on the higher plans. I guess it's good to work through them so our bodies have time to adjust.

I'm thinking I was doing well untill I started with a slice of toast. Gonna leave the bread for now. Finally had potato's and wasn't fussed. So, I'm going to stick with my chicken, chick pea's, pasta and rice along with veg, salad and fruit of course. i'm still loving my cd porridge with fruit.I'm starting to get tired of the choc/mint choc shakes so will be happy sticking to porridge when I'm down to just one shake.

You see, i just blather on and on

Ooh it is exciting we're in maintenance now tho. It just changes a bit and feels very different. Think good thoughts, think good thoughts.

How was your casino night by the way?
xxx

 

[Sunshine Singer]

Right, I'm off to finish the washing up. Then I need to put an outfit together for my friends graduation tomorrow.. Might make me feel better trying on some clothes too. I might do my tan too, always a good way of looking thinner

1) I'm gonna stick with what's on the plan and stop drifting or altering it to suit me.
2) Remain focused on my mini goals - 2 weeks till Dublin-yay
3) Appreciate the fact that I'm wearing leggings, mini's, vest tops and skinny jeans and stop taking it for granted. (ooh and my new leathers )
4) Remember how happy I am being slimmer
5) Soak up every compliment while they're still coming
6) Start looking after myself
7) Start using my power plates and walking more
8) Keep up the 4 litres of water. My losses are far better when I up my water.
9) Enjoy my time off
10) Relax, I'll get to goal when I get to goal
11) No more blips, they really aren't worth it
12) keep my foodie diary going on here

Goodnight Me, be nice to yourself and don't do it again x

ps - I can't believe no-one here thinks I need a slap. i was fully prepared lol. Gotta be tough with myself or I'll slip up lol

 

[Sunshine Singer]

Friends graduation day, been out 8.45 - 16.15.

2 banana's
grapes, smoked salmon mouthfull
skinless chicken breast, potato's & brocoli
cd choc custard
still to have:
yoghurt
cd porridge

I can't keep my eyes open today. That's 2 days running I'm totally shattered. x

 

[curlywurly1234]

I have popped over here!!! Not sure if I sure be around here or not.
but been reading your diary. Your doing so well hon!! You really are..
Great way to keep you on the straight and narrow.
keep smiling hon your doing fab.. x

 

[Sunshine Singer]

Curly, get yourself over here hun. You're nearly at goal and working up the plans so why not. I'm so pleased you've read my waffle lol....now I want to read yours lol. You are doing so well and just seem to continue doing so well all the time. Don't know how you do it at all. We're pretty much the same stats....weight and height and both size 10 yay!!!! Seriosly tho, your shopaholicness has totally rubbed off on me..... I can't stop. It's such fun tho.

So get over here........xxxxxxxxxxx

 

[Sunshine Singer]

Has anyone found they have saggy or crinklie skin? I've never noticed before until last night when I was doing my tan. My under arms (bingo wings)...the skin is all crinklie....bit worrying as I'm only 32!! I'm hoping when I get back to the gym, the weights will sort that out but it's like the elasticity in my skin is going! already! shock horror!

 

[curlywurly1234]

Hey hon...
I still want to be lower than my target weight though..... I want to be in the 8s.....
OMG I have noticed crinkly skin too. especially on my boobs.. mind you I have gone down about 4 sizes .. urghhhh...

You cant keep me away from the shops hon!!! I just love shopping... its so addictive........
I wish I was your weight now!!! booo hoo........ xx

 

[Sunshine Singer]

But hey you're a size 10...how good is that!

I want to get to 8st 11lbs but i'd like to go lower to about 8st 8lbs. I'm going to ask my cdc tomorrow about weight loss on 1200 and 1500 and if there should be any. I'll focus on 8.11 first tho. Can't wait to be at goal tho xxx

 

[curlywurly1234]

You are so close hon!!! You really are...... I bet your so excited....
Your new pics are fab you look fantastic.. So pleased for you hon, keep smiling as your looking great, and you must feel it too x

 

[Sunshine Singer]

I was buzzing last week with my new shape and my gig but then came crashing down this week. As I'm all bloated from TOTM being on its way, i'm making myself think of the positives. I just need to be patient. I'm not weighing myself at the moment so i plod on and just stick with it day by day. The best thing is having so much choice in fashion again. I just can't get over that x it's such a buzz

 

[curlywurly1234]

its horrible totm .. I feel yuck at the moment too.
Good on you for not weighing yourself.... thats a fab idea.. i dont think I could do that. I take my hat of to you!!
Awwww a buzz... we can choose what we want now hon!! I cant imagine you were ever that big though... I was .. YUCK!!!! I just love going into those shops I used to go into.. and being able to pick up a 10 its just the best feeling ever.. you cant beat it can you!!
xxx