You're doing really well. I like the wee pep-talks you give yourself, it's good to find ways to get things into perspective

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Thanks Lass
I have since read more of the Dr Beck book - I am clearly not using it in the way she described but I feel it is all good training for the 5th May and beyond. I am going to try and do as much of it as I possibly can. It is weird I *almost* don't feel as if I have started my diet yet - like this is a pre-diet. Maybe, finally, I have realised that my real challenge will come when I start eating 'real' food & making exercise a lifelong thing.
I am slowly becoming more accepting of a goal weight that may not be what I wish it to be. My 'dream' goal weight may be 128 lbs but I am prepared to accept that my maintainable goal weight may be as high as 150 lbs.
Anyway, step 1 was to right down in cards and then somewhere else (here!) my reasons for losing weight:
*I want to enjoy clothes shopping
*I want to feel pride in my appearance
*I want to minimise my risk of cancer
*I want to make exercise easier
*I want the social advantages of exercise
*I want to look forward to social situtions
*I want to be in photographs
*I want to improve my relationships
*I want to enjoy planning and getting ready for social situations
*I want to enjoy holidays
*I want to do more things with my son
*I want to look professional at work and set a good example
*I want to socialise more with colleagues
*I want a 'can-do' attitude
*I want to get rid of clothes from my wardrobe
*I don't want to feel inferior to anyone because of my weight
*I want to enjoy running again
*I want to really live now
*I want to challenge myself and succeed
That will do!
I could do with applying this cognitive behaviour therapy to other areas of my life...maybe I should look for another book!