1000 plan, more or less.

Hi Cheryl!

Yes I am a lot more positive these days. Making a determined effort to get out more, to take on more challenges and to try to slot food into its proper place, instead of allowing it to always be the first consideration.

I am always gonna be a foodie, and always gonna love eating and shopping for food and cooking food... But you can do all of those things and still lose weight - and live a full life. That's what I am aiming for.

Living on my own is hard but I am forcing myself to socialise more, travel to meet friends, etc. I'm taking on a big study commitment and feel that this will do me the world of good. Being trapped in a silent house will destroy me. If ever there was a time to fly, this is it.

How are you doing, hun? How's WW coming along? Since I stopped VLCD-ing I've felt much better. I adored the fast results and think CD is fab for the short term but for me the 'term' seemed to get longer and longer! LOL. Just couldn't stick to it 100%. When I began to feel weak and depressed I realised I just had to find another, probably slower way. I'm very glad I went back to counting calories. I look on CD as having been a great weight loss booster, and also a means of 'training' myself to eat less, overall. I would still highly recommend it to others but advise them not to cheat! Easier said than done.

Whichever plan we follow the secret I think is to keep trying. If you cheat, let it go and start anew. This is a lifetime thing, not just a 'diet'.
 
Hi GG

Am loving WW, loving the freedom of food, and as I only have a few more pounds to lose to get to where I want to be (not where I am told to be! - lol) its a great learning curve for me at the moment.

I have been quite busy lately, and its doing me good, stopping me from sitting in the house all day doing nothing but surfing on here, housework and shopping. My DD had a baby on 30th August, Charlotte Mary, and I have been helping her most days as her partner is now back to work and Charlotte has colic poor lamb. She is such a good baby though and will try to sleep through it, but you know how new mothers are, DD is fretting so much and trying to take it all on herself, so I am there to cut her some slack through this hard time and her partner is able to go to work without worrying about the two of them xx
 
Pah, wish that was me!! That's Rihanna!! :p I'm not looking quite that glamorous but give me time! :giggle:


Silly me!

You know, I thought she looked kinda familiar...

I'm sure you're just as gorg!
 
Hi GG

Am loving WW, loving the freedom of food, and as I only have a few more pounds to lose to get to where I want to be (not where I am told to be! - lol) its a great learning curve for me at the moment.

I have been quite busy lately, and its doing me good, stopping me from sitting in the house all day doing nothing but surfing on here, housework and shopping. My DD had a baby on 30th August, Charlotte Mary, and I have been helping her most days as her partner is now back to work and Charlotte has colic poor lamb. She is such a good baby though and will try to sleep through it, but you know how new mothers are, DD is fretting so much and trying to take it all on herself, so I am there to cut her some slack through this hard time and her partner is able to go to work without worrying about the two of them xx


Awww, babies are wonderful! Hard work but worth every second of it. Congratulations on your sweet new family member. May she bring you deepest joy.

So glad you are enjoying WW and 'real food'. Feels right, doesn't it? I was getting so scared of food - again. For a while I thought I'd 'never' be able to eat 'normally'. You know how we are at times!

When I go food shopping now I find myself thinking, what do I fancy? What shall I have? Not - what can I NOT have! Sure I am counting calories and making good choices most of the time, but this new approach, and the freedom to follow it, is so liberating.
 
It sure took a lot of time for my body to readjust to eating food again, and as I was so scared of weight gain I wouldn't eat any carbs! Now I am introducing them gradually and having the odd jacket spud and wholegrain bread etc. I can't wait to get to my goal weight and then start to introduce more foods to help with maintenance. I am like the typical kid in a candy store! lol But it is great, as you say, to wander down the aisles in the supermarket looking at new foods and experiencing new tastes, there will always be "forbidden" foods, but once in a while a treat is necessary and that's where the fun starts xx
 
It sure took a lot of time for my body to readjust to eating food again, and as I was so scared of weight gain I wouldn't eat any carbs! Now I am introducing them gradually and having the odd jacket spud and wholegrain bread etc. I can't wait to get to my goal weight and then start to introduce more foods to help with maintenance. I am like the typical kid in a candy store! lol But it is great, as you say, to wander down the aisles in the supermarket looking at new foods and experiencing new tastes, there will always be "forbidden" foods, but once in a while a treat is necessary and that's where the fun starts xx


Lol! I avoided carbs at first, too. Scared of hunger suddenly overwhelming me. Even on Atkins-style ketosis the extra calories cause you to stall. It can be very scary. But like you I began to reintroduce carbs gradually - most of the time! - and I'm glad I did.

I love doing 'ordinary' things like buying a delicious pre-prepared salad. I never used to go near such things ,cos of the pasta or cous cous or the dressing or whatever. I wasn't 'allowed' to eat such meals. Now I can, and do.

My weight loss still stalls a lot but that is to be expected. I just don't let it get to me. I am learning to maintain as well as lose. This close to goal and at a 'normal'-looking body size I feel so much better. I also feel that I can and will make it to the finishing line - and be able to stay there, afterwards. That to me will mean true 'freedom'.

I am so glad you are relishing your food now, and feeling more confident about your choices. It really is worth persevering!

Hope you are still loving every second you spend with your sweet grand-daughter.

xx
 
**CONFESSION TIME**

I popped into a new huge shop in town, raved about by students for low prices. Whilst there I bought brand name coffee and weedkiller and other sensible stuff. Then I spotted a huge bag of chunky chocolate bikkies. 99p.

Dear reader, I am ashamed to say that I bought them - 'for my son's visits'. I took them home, put them in an airtight tin, and forgot all about them... until the middle of the night, when I awoke STARVING for choccy bikkies. Down the stairs I went like a sleep-walker, bagged a LARGE handful, and scarfed them.

I've done this for four nights running. My old 'night eating disorder' has resurfaced with a BANG! My tum looks fatter (water hopefully) and I feel hungrier in general.

Okay - the obvious solution is to not buy them. I almost never buy biscuits, because they call to me. They have my number. Likewise cakes and sweeties. If they are in the house, I will at some point surrender.

So:

a) why did I buy them, knowing how weak I can be where bikkies are concerned, and

b) where did my will power and strength go once they were under my roof?? And why did they so easily rekindle my hated night eating disorder?

SIGH!

Good intentions can only do so much. Eternal vigilence is necessary. LOL!

Let's hope I can avoid buying any more.
 
Shocked by my biscuit binges I had a good think. After uni today I went shopping. I bought lots of fruit. I also bought ... a strawberry cheesecake, four crusty rolls, an iced half-moon cake, and a few other treats from the 'reduced' section.

MADNESS?

I hope not. When I got home I immediately and matter-of-factly stored the various foodstuffs in the fridge and cupboards. I had one crusty roll with a cup of coffee for late 'lunch'. Delicious, and since I hadn't eaten since 7am, most welcome. A few hours later I fancied a bit of cheesecake, so I had it. Junk? Yes - junk I almost never allow myself to look at let alone buy and EAT. I need to find out whether I am still potentially chaotic around cakes, etc. If I lose control tonight and binge, I will have my answer.

I've been walking lots more since term started. My days are longer and I'm more active in general. In many respects my life is more 'normal' and I'm less reclusive than before. I am taking on new challenges, really stretching myself; to do so in middle age takes guts. The one area of life that has ruled me and often hurt me horribly, whilst at the same time offering me comfort and guilt-ridden consolation, is food.

Why do I fear it? Why, after having lost a ton of weight, and having returned to carbs after SS-ing, do I still tiptoe in fear and trembling around an iced cake or a Mars Bar? It's baffling.

I will continue to eat for nourishment, count calories and hopefully 'permit' myself a small helping or maybe two of contraband each day until the goodies have been consumed. So far, so good - but the long evening and night yawn ahead.

It strikes me as faintly ridiculous and rather sad that a grown woman with so many other concerns and responsibilites should still be this worried about food! I may be tempting fate with this experiment, but part of me longs to have a normal, unfazed, almost casual relationship with food. Take it or leave it. Eat now - or wait until later. For me to not eat is usually a self-imposed restriction, not my true choice. I could nibble all day. The resulting weight gain would depress me terribly.

Has anyone here ever tried this approach? Did it work - or did you crumble and gorge? I'd love to know.
 
I made it through the rain, and kept myself together
I made it through the rain, and kept my point of view...

A blast from the past for old (closet?) Barry Manilow fans....

Dear reader, I did not binge.

I did not lose control, nor go mad, nor guzzle every good and tasty and non-nourishing thing in sight.

I am encouraged. Now that I live alone food tempts me more and more. I made it through the rain, through the night, and didn't get rained on.

AND...

The size 16 black combat pants I bought for my course are baggy. They hang on me, tummy or no tummy. I HAD to use a belt today. So very soon I am gonna need a 14. As we all know, PANTS are the real test. Skirts and dresses are often more 'generous'.

Keep going, everyone. However long it may take, never give up.

I want to be 'normal' around real food. To not feel DRIVEN to eat it to excess. I am still in the early stages, but I am getting there.

It feels good.
 
Congratualtions

:)Well done GG, I enjoy reading your posts and seeing how life is at Slimville.
Glad you did not give into temptation. Not sure I could have been so good, I only buy bourbon biscuits and orange clubs as snacks for my boys as I don't like those flavours :(
 
Hey, Hollycat! Thanks for replying.

Every time I pass that bargain shop I think of those choccy bikkies. I've had a few close shaves, since, but most of the time I do pretty well. I still get a thrill out of shopping for ordinary food. Before it was - can't have this, can't have that... now, while I mostly buy healthy stuff, I have in the back of my mind the thought that I can literally have whatever I want so long as I limit the amount.

This is how it will be for the rest of my active life, I guess, and I hope I'll remain active for many years to come. To be able to relish your food is a wonderful thing. (Those who are ill or troubled or very old often find the very thought of eating difficult.) I do get lots of aches and pains now, and my longer, busier days make me feel very tired, but that's life. Like others I find that the colder weather is making me crave carbs; warm, stodgy foods to comfort and soothe me. I'll just have to hope that the extra exercise will balance this out.

Another aspect of VLCD-ing that to my mind can prove difficult to kick in the dieting days that follow; you have been programmed, you might say, to expect and to crave very fast weight loss. Suffering slow losses, no loss or a gain can be agony at first. But in the end the idea, the dream, is to be able to eat ordinary food in moderate amounts, and to reach and maintain a normal, healthy, attractive weight. I just could not do that on the VLCD route. I know that others, can.
 
My muscles ache today. I had a reasonable night's rest but I awoke to almost universal muscular pain. It's all this extra walking and shopping in person and carrying stuff home. Since I began to shop online I've become soft and very unfit. Now my back-on-the-road body is working hard, and protesting loudly! My arthritic joints are wondering what's hit them.

I get a rest at weekends, mostly, then start anew each Monday morning with an early start and lots of walking. By Friday I am shattered! LOL. Well, it has to be better for me than sitting around.
 
Tonight I had a delicious, simple and cheap supper.

I really fancied a baked potato. Thanks to 'old habits' I hardly ever eat them. So I popped a nice tater into the microwave. I also fancied some bagged Ranch Salad (from ASDA - lovely fine cut salad with a yummy yoghurt-y, garlick-y dressing). When the potato was ready I served it with salad and drizzled some of the dressing on top.

Yum. Quick, satisfying, big on taste and texture and pretty healthy, to boot. Allowing myself to eat what I really want, at the time, sometimes pays off in spades.
 
Still aching! Walk, walk, walk... but it's doing me, and my sluggish metabolism, a lot of good. No pain, no gain! LOL.

I got lucky in ASDA. Two choice prepared salads - one with feta cheese, the other with mixed beans - both reduced from £1.70 to 60p!! 300 calories, each. I had one for supper when I got home.

I am drinking more these days. A habit picked up from my SS-ing days - the odd treat was vodka. I used to hate booze!! Odd.
 
Nice buzz today. Went shopping for an alternative outfit - top and trousers, black - suitable for my Drama classes. All students have to wear 'blacks'.

I picked out a zip-up top and a pair of trousers. Out of habit I selected size 16. Then I remembered that the 16s I'm wearing are baggy. I took a 14, instead.

They are 'fitted' trousers, and wow do they FIT! Wonderful. And they make me look and feel much slimmer than the now-baggy black size 16 combats.

Once you realise that you are a certain size in several different shops you start to 'feel' that size. Just as well 'cos we all got filmed today in an improvised piece that lasted one hour. When I saw the playback I almost groaned. I have managed to avoid being filmed for years and years. The camera DOES add ten pounds.

Never mind! I'll just keep on plugging at the calorie counting...
 
Fantastic

What a great feeling it must be, to slip into a 14 and know you look fabulous.
Well done :)
 
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