Well done on your loss!
Very similar to you, I find that my downfall is when I mess up so don't weigh in for a week and then the same, stop coming on here! I think its to stop me facing up to the fact that I haven't lost any weight or even gained weight, then it just seems to snowball from there.
Yes I think that's a familiar pattern for all of us on this forum.
Yes what's happened b4 is that I've been angry, ecstatic, hurt, celebrating or whatever strong emotion and I have used food(and alcohol) to suppress or enhance my emotions. Then guiltily, or worse, defiantly I've not wanted to fess up and not come on here, knowing I have probably gained, then half heartedly got back on track then fizzled out, content that I'm somewhat lighter, until I eat myself back to square one, wondering what the hell happened.
I'm coming on here everyday, to be accountable, to hear myself....what excuses do I have for straying.
Today I have known I am thinner, but down on myself because I got into this state again & disappointed (supermarket cafe toilet lighting and mirrors can be alarmingly frank with the reflection they provide....) and because valentines has been bypassed this year. We went out, I thought hubs was going to buy me a ham salad & get himself something, he got a starter for himself, and toasted sarnie for bubs, then he decided when he was going to order dinner, he'd had enough and didn't want to bother with dinner, so I ended up just having a cup of tea =( frankly felt left out, but also relieved diet wise. However, shopping a little time later, I decided I'd get myself some ham and a more delux Atkins bar for later. Got home and ate ham and bar resentfully. I've been playing with my daughter in the living room for the last 2 hrs, while he ignores us with his head in the iPad. Feel like punching him.
But diet/reflection wise it's been valuable =)
I use food to suppress my emotions. Angry resentful eating. And I hardly even register the hurt and anger consciously until I find myself eating, furiously.
I obviously have emotional eater written right through me like a stick of rock.
I am calmer now, if irritable with hubs who has his head up his @rse at the mo.