Blimp to Bombshell: RawrGirl's Weight Loss Diary

[Flabuless Mama]

Everything ok with you? X

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Yup! Prince Charming and RawrGirl drove to a state park and did some hiking, then came home and took a nap, lol.

Ooo, before we came home, we stopped at the library and RawrGirl found a very interesting book: "How Much Does Your Soul Weigh? Diet-free solutions to your food, weight, and body worries." It's pretty interesting so far...RawrGirl will posts some good tips as she comes across them.

 

[squishymcfatterson]

Sounds like a lovely day! Book sounds interesting. I've never read any weight loss books, maybe I should start!! X

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[porkscratching]

Yup! Prince Charming and RawrGirl drove to a state park and did some hiking, then came home and took a nap, lol.

Ooo, before we came home, we stopped at the library and RawrGirl found a very interesting book: "How Much Does Your Soul Weigh? Diet-free solutions to your food, weight, and body worries." It's pretty interesting so far...RawrGirl will posts some good tips as she comes across them.

Sounds good. I've recently dealt with crap that essentially I had woven in a story of personal truth for over 2 decades - happy to say I have a new story to tell but trust me that old story weighed at least 50lbs .... so my soul is far lighter these days and so am I - and it's no coincidence ... happy reading.

 

[lookingforme]

HI RawrGirl
Welldone on the Hiking! action movement activity is so much the key when into the lower wieght area.

A book that may help you with areas of past and moving forward is
"Feel the fear and do it anyway"
Thats the one i read while discoveing me.

Have a lovely week hun XX

 

[Flabuless Mama]

Mini Holiday

RawrGirl had a very lazy Sunday with Prince Charming reading, and watching cartoons and movies. But alas, the weekend is over.

But...GoodNews: RawrGirl is somewhat unexpectedly going to Florida this upcoming weekend. She had entered a contest for tickets and hotel accommodations to a conference, but didn't win. But apparently, the first place winner can't go, so it went to RawrGirl and Prince Charming. So it's a rush to make arrangements for son, etc.

And while RawrGirl is very happy that her jeans fit (so she has something other than yoga pants to wear), she is a bit concerned about her diet. She and Prince Charming are leaving Thursday morning (driving) and should arrive Friday afternoon. The conference is Friday evening and all-day Saturday. Then, driving back Sunday morning and should be back home by Monday afternoon. (Note to Squishy: RawrGirl can't access Minimins from her phone, so she will keep in touch through My Fitness Pal. If any other friends are also on My Fitness Pal, send RawrGirl a friend request and she will keep in touch with you too!)

So anyway, RawrGirl first tried to figure out a eating plan that just focused on staying in Ketosis and not worrying about calories, but then realized that's pretty unrealistic and mostly likely going to back-fire (as in, she will end up eating some carbs, and then not maintain). So then she worked on one that focused on calories, but allowed some carbs.

So what do you all think of her following plan?

Road trip days will consist of 100 calorie Slim Fast Bars for breakfast, lunch, and a snack. And for supper, she will bring her own light salad dressing, fill up on a salad, and then eat a low calorie meal. She should be able to keep those days around 800-1000 calories. But during actual conference days, meals will most likely be at restaurants will friends (online friends who we'll be meeting in person for the first time). One couple has already invited us to find a place for coffee/dessert late Friday night. So, while RawrGirl will attempt to keep conference days to 1500 max, it may not be possible. (But she do everything in her power to not go over 2000 calories!)

Her main goal is just not to gain weight while she is gone. She should be fine if she really does stick to her road trip plan and doesn't go all out and eat everything in sight just because she's out of Ketosis on Friday or Saturday. :sigh:

She's trying to look at the experience as a test...as in, eat as though she was at goal weight, which means NOT binging and NOT stuffing herself silly. It's just food. It will always be there. It must be possible to eat at a restaurant without eating tons of food. She wants to be able to order what she wants, but to stop when she's full, and not to get dessert just because she can. She needs to remember to ask herself what she really wants, and to eat only that, and most importantly, STOP when she is full. Grrr. This shouldn't be that hard.

 

[squishymcfatterson]

That's fantastic news RawrGirl, congratulations! Sounds like a lovely weekend away. I would be scared too, food-wise. As you say though, if you can even stay the same, that's a huge achievement and a big improvement on previous behaviour. I know I would use the meals out as an excuse to stuff my face!

Best of luck getting everything organised for it. Have never been to Florida before but it sounds so wonderful. You will look fab in your jeans, skinny lady! X

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[Flabuless Mama]

Jay Jacob Jean Update

Well, it seems like everybody's been posting before and after pics lately, and RawrGirl started feeling rather down as she doesn't have a scale and measurements go down so slowly....so she decided to try on her Jay Jacob jeans again.

In case anyone forgot, this is what RawrGirl looked like in them at the start of her VLCD:



And this is how they fit now:



Here they are combined:



Please note that RawrGirl is sucking in for dear life in her current sideways pic and unable to breathe. But anyway, the jeans are about 3 inches higher now--they actually go over her hips, so she is rather happy. Chuffed, actually.

Other than the obvious goal of getting them to snap without muffin top, she would like to get the back pockets to actually go over her bum, and not be stuck on her thighs. And the more she looks at these pics, the more she wonders if they will even be flattering on her if/when they do fit. For the back pockets to sit on her bum where they are supposed to, she is thinking the waist on the jeans will be at her natural waist. Ugh!!! Did RawrGirl wear waist jeans 14 years ago??? Oh, the horror. So...though RawrGirl's goal is to fit into these jeans, she may NEVER wear them out in public, lol.

 

[squishymcfatterson]

Oh RawrGirl how I laughed! Your post reminded me of the Mom Jeans video on YouTube (check it out, very funny). I know exactly what you meant though- the Diesel jeans that I want to fit "comfortably" will probably not be for for public consumption either. Who cares, once they fit?! Must try them on again actually...!

The difference between the 2 sets of pics are amazing! You have lost so much weight and so many inches. I hope you can see the difference too? Who needs scales when you have photos like that?! Well done you xxx

 

[lookingforme]

LOL Diesel Jeans omg they are cut so small.
Pockets over your bum...im sure they are made now not to beover your bum.
I have a longing for a type of jeans...never will i fit them but i do love them.

Flat across the front, just up to the hip one.
A small flower embridered by the hip pocket.
Faded and flared
can you tell im sooooo into the 60s hippy look but ive never been tiny enough to pull it off.

Rawrgirl youve lost plenty wieght and i can see theres been a lot of toning up there to well done.

I have somephotos but had stopped 18 months ago when i meet my bloke....everything went on hold then.
I may take somemore as i found the nickers that i alwas wore to when taking them.

PS you have my knickers on too, i have lovely G Strings....but you gota keep those cheeks warm lol XX

 

[Flabuless Mama]

Reaching Goal

RawrGirl has recently realized why she has never met her goal.

A few months back, she was being rather hard on herself because she'd never met anyone with as debilitating body image issues as she has, yet she never has lost enough weight to even be considered "thin," and felt that this invalidated her own shame...all the times she felt so fat she wouldn't even leave her house, all the different diets, obsessive exercise weight loss pills, etc from the past, one would think she'd be anorexic by now...or at least have been thin at one time in her life.

On the flip side of this, she knows she has the mentality of a person much larger than she's ever been, one example being she emotional relates to the contestants on the Biggest Loser (a show she LOVES), the shame of feeling so fat you refuse to leave the house, and when she reads weight loss memoirs of obese women. And yet, she's never been obese...despite going on binges for weeks (and sometimes) months at a time.

And so she figured out that she things the shame kicks in and drives her to start yet another diet/exercise regimen until she is a "normal" yet definitely still squishy weight, and the shame lessons. By this time, she's burned out on cardio, feels less horrid about herself, and then relaxes and goes off her diet, which soon leads to all-out-binges, until she gains enough (anything over 160) that the shame kicks back in. And it's a repeat cycle.

She wondered about all of this a few months ago, questioning if she was a split person inside (half-anorexic/half-obese), and did this swinging form one extreme of the pendulum to the other actually keep her in a "normal/slightly overweight" weight range all her life.

Anyway...RawrGirl was actually pretty accurate in her self-assessment. She mentioned a few posts back that she was reading the book, What does you soul weigh? and it's written by a body image specialist who works with both anorexic and obese clients. And there are mental archetypes for both types and...what do you know...RawrGirl fit both.

Anorexic Tendencies (a lot of these I had forgotten about, but are fresh in my memory from spending the last 2 weeks going through 10 years worth of diary entries for my memoir):

Extreme Diets including starvation
Extreme Body Shame
Preoccupation with cultural idea/ultra-thinness
Obsessive preoccupation with weight, measurements, body fat %, and BMI
An ultra-thin goal weight
A weight goal that keeps getting lower
Scale Addiction
Abuse of Weight loss pills
Spitting out chewed food
Purging with exercise
Compulsive exercise disorder
Obsessive Compulsive tendencies (pages and pages of graphs, charts, promised rewards, and progress reports which listed the dates of when she would reach a particular weight with different columns of weight loss based on whether she lost 2 pounds per week, 1 pound per week, or a mixture of the two, with the last column reserved for whatever she actually lost that week)
Keeping a collage of pics of models and actress for inspiration
Keeping fat pics of herself to motivate one not to eat
Reading anorexic and other eating disorder memoirs to keep from eating
Intentionally looking at pictures from fashion magazines to stay on the treadmill longer

Binge-Eating Disorder Tendencies

Emotional eating -- happy, frustrated, depressed, stressed
Eating far past the feeling of stuffed, and still continuing to eat
Binge Eating (intentionally buying large amounts of food to consume in a short time -- a night or weekend)
Sneaking food when no one was looking -- like food that wasn't being offered -- sneaking it out of cookie or candy jars, at own home or church or friend's houses*
Sneaking cookies from tins that were for Christmas presents to other people*
Going back for seconds and eating it when no one was looking
Sneaking back into the kitchen and eating while everyone else was busy watching a movie
Eating large amounts of raw cookie dough, cake batter, or confectionery sugar by the handfuls
Ordering more than one meal, plus one or more appetizers and dessert

(*RawrGirl was very young when she did this, like elementary school age...and is ashamed that she stole other people's food. )


Anyway...according to the book, those with anorexic tendencies tend to be underweight to average weight, while binge-eaters tend to be average weight to overweight/obese. But since RawrGirl swings back and forth between these tendencies, her weight fluctuates on average between normal (147) and overfat (162), though twice she was lower reaching 138 and another time 143, and at least 3 times she was as high as 175.

And before anyone gets worried that RawrGirl is presently disordered, she is not currently suffering from what she calls a "shame episode" which is what sparks her to starve herself. Her motivation this time around is quite simply due to the fact that after 2006-2008, a lot of the emotional turmoil she had endured ended (recovery groups/healing, ending of unhealthy relationships, etc.), then in 2009, she met Prince Charming (and is in her first healthy/undamaged love relationship), and then over this past summer, her novel of 8 years in the making was finally published. Thus the only thing keeping her from her "happily ever after" is being unhappy with her weight. So before she embarks on writing her sequel (much to the annoyance of her 15 fans), she decided to lose weight once and for all, and learn how to maintain a weight that allowed her to eat but still feel confident in stylish clothes. She has 6 years left before turning 40, and wishes to feel pretty before it's too late (RawrGirl's fear that the morning she turned 30 she would wake up to discover she now sprouted a full head of grey hair and was covered in wrinkles has apparently now transferred to the age of 40). Back to the point, the last time she had a shame episode was 2011 and resulted only in excessive jogging (3 miles a day, which may not sound like a lot, but to RawrGirl who has a serious aversion to cardio, it was), but she didn't starve herself. The time before that was 2002 (her early 20's, when it was an on-again/off-again thing from her teens). So while body shame usually precipitates her latest diet after she's gained weight, only shame "episodes" (when the shame is 24/7, and the thought of putting a single calorie into her body is sickening, and she gets high off the hunger) triggers starving herself. That is not the case right now, or RawrGirl would be doing a 7 day a week VLCD (instead of eating 1500 calories both Fri and Sat and 1200 on Sun), she would not be giving herself a once-a-month treat weekend, and she would be eating 500 calories or less Mon thru Thurs, not 800. Hope that makes sense.

Anyway...for anyone still reading this horridly long post (sorry!), this is why RawrGirl has never reached her goal weight, but also why she never crossed the line into obesity, and why she can relate to people at either end of the spectrum.

So...if you managed to read all that without falling asleep from sheer boredom or disinterest (or even if you did, lol), RawrGirl would love for anyone reading this to share why you have never reached your goal weight, of if you have, what emotional barriers/inner demons did you need to overcome in order to do so.

 

[squishymcfatterson]

Wow, long but interesting post!


I think I've never met goal (besides fleetingly for my wedding) because I'm a hugely impatient person. I'd stick with a diet for a while but when results slowed, I'd get bored and frustrated, jack it all in and slowly slip back into old, crap, eating habits. I'd use any excuse to stuff my face. Good day, bad day, crap weather, nice weather, special occasions, a reward for myself or husband, playing sport and "carb loading", meeting friends, being alone. Any reason at all really! My problem also lies in the fact that I love food. So much so I think it borders on obsession. I am always thinking about what my next meal will be, or what I can treat myself to while I'm out and about.

Wow, think I need to see a shrink...!! X

 

[Flabuless Mama]

I'd stick with a diet for a while but when results slowed, I'd get bored and frustrated, jack it all in and slowly slip back into old, crap, eating habits. I'd use any excuse to stuff my face. Good day, bad day, crap weather, nice weather, special occasions, a reward for myself or husband, playing sport and "carb loading", meeting friends, being alone. Any reason at all really! I am always thinking about what...I can treat myself to while I'm out and about. X

Yup, that is totally RawrGirl. And holidays are even worse, esp Christmas as it seems to last the whole month (or at least 2 weeks) foodwise.

 

[Flabuless Mama]

Well, RawrGirl is packed and ready to go first thing in the morning. She planned out all her meals and stuff and will be around 800-1000 calories on road trip days, but Saturday night, she and Prince Charming are going out for a treat dinner. They were going to go to their favorite steak restaurant but then RawrGirl realized how much she is craving a burger from this place called the Cheesecake Factory and there is one in Orlando. Prince Charming LOVES the Cheesecake Factory, mostly because he LOVES cheesecake. But then RawrGirl looked up the nutrition facts for the Cheesecake Factory.

The burger alone is 1200 calories. 1/3 of the fries would be 191, and 1/2 slice of Godiva Chocolate Cheesecake is 554. And Prince Charming won't split it with her, because he wants his own! So she will still have the other half wanting to be eaten, and Sunday is a road trip day (supposed to be back at 800-1000 calories). :sigh:

RawrGirl is really in the mood to go though, and feels like if she doesn't let herself eat what she wants, she'll binge eat on other stuff out of frustration (like all day Sunday or something). And maybe she'll get lucky and not be able to eat the whole burger (which is likely as its huge and her stomach has really shrunk after all these weeks of VLCD), and in that case her calories will be around what she was expecting at the originally planned restaurant. But then she will have 1/2 a burger AND 1/2 a cheesecake left over to deal with. GRRRR! Why do restaurant portions have to be so bloody big???

Even worse, part of the package that RawrGirl won is catered lunch with a speaker at the conference which is baked zitti, and RawrGirl knows carbs add up quick. Even if she has a salad first, and the smallest portion of baked zitti in the world, her calories for Saturday are looking to be around 3000 (unless she only eats half the burger).

I know, I know, can someone say obsessive?

But seriously, RawrGirl doesn't want to come back having undone all her progress and have her jeans not fit. She put on 15 pounds last April on a road trip holiday that included 2 days with her in-laws. And that was AFTER she lost the water weight. Her jeans didn't fit her again until mid-September (when she started a VLCD). But still, she doesn't want to have to start all over again. And maybe an extra 500 calories more than planned won't be that big of a deal...after all, before she would have eaten the whole burger, all the fries, and the whole cheesecake. But still, now that she knows how many calories are in these things, and after getting used to eating so little, it seems excessive, and excessive means gain weight.

RawrGirl is bringing her sports bra and running shoes, but she has no idea if she will be able to squeeze a workout in.

Other than obsessing about Saturday's calories, she is really excited about the trip, and can't wait to get on the road tomorrow morning!



PS -- RawrGirl will try and check in to Minimins before she heads out, but you can always keep in touch through My Fitness Pal if you'd like!

 

[Flabuless Mama]

5-day Holiday Report

Well, RawrGirl did not stick to her plan for even one day...

:sigh:

However, with the exception of yesterday, she did not over eat, eat till she was stuffed, or eat just because she was "off" her diet. But each day
she ate a little more than the day before. And yesterday was the worst, as it was the only day she started picking out foods ONLY because she knew she was going back on her diet today. Not only did she walk around the store looking for junk food to eat when she wasn't even in the mood for anything, but then, instead of going home to make a healthy dinner like she had planned to, she was exhausted and just picked up pizza. This wouldn't have been that bad, except she wasn't even particularly in the mood for pizza, she was just tired and it was cheap...yet she ate 4 slices, plus bread sticks, then fell asleep on the couch for 3 hours, then woke up and saw the remaining bread stick still on the table, ate that, and then went to bed feeling quite stuffed.

She has no idea if she still fits in her size 10 jeans (they fit Saturday, but were snug). After a total of 5 days eating what she wanted, she is afraid to try them on or take her measurements. Her plan is to stick to her VLCD for the next few days, then try on her jeans and take the measurements Friday morning. Hopefully this will allow her body to get rid of the water gain, and hopefully lose any fat she may have actually put on. All she wants is for the measurements to be the same.

For the good news, she worked out Friday. She got to the hotel, and first thing she did was go to its gym. She did an upper body workout, jogged a mile, and then did 4 30-sec sprints at 10 mph. (which felt really good after being in the car for so many hours!)

The problem was she forgot to stretch our her calves after sprinting, and couldn't work out the rest of the days because she was too sore (though she did do a light lower body workout on Saturday).

Good news for food (minus yesterday), RawrGirl did not overeat/binge. At the catered lunch, she had a very small amount, and did not get up for seconds. At the cheesecake factory (which she was very worried about), she ate 1/2 the burger, 1/4 of the fries, and 1/3 of the cheesecake. None of it was as delicious as she remembered, so she didn't eat more than she needed.

The downfall really started Sunday and Monday, as she and Prince Charming got a very late start driving home, and ended up having to drive till 2 am, exhausted, getting only a few hours sleep, and then driving again, exhausted all day Monday. And this was after only getting 3 hours sleep Friday night, and not being able to nap on Saturday...so the sleep deprivation really caught up by Monday, despite napping in the car, coffee, and caffeine pills.

RawrGirl can only hope she didn't do too much damage and everything will be fine by Friday morning. :sigh:



EDIT: RawrGirl couldn't take it anymore, and 3 hours after she posted this, she tried on her jeans and took her waist and thigh measurements. The jeans buttoned, but were snug (not tight, just "perfect", but when she first left on road trip they were loose). Her waist is up 1.25 inch and her thigh is up .25 inch. She is actually slightly encouraged by this, as all 1.25 inch in her waist may be due to water weight from carbs, and if by Friday, her measurements are back down to what they were the last day she measured (Oct 5), she will be quite pleased/relieved. So as long as she can avoid ALL Halloween candy (which she has done before several times), there is no more holidays for 6 weeks, which should be plenty of time to really drop some weight and fit beautifully in the dress she ordered, and maybe even hit goal!

 

[Flabuless Mama]

The little black dress

Wow....RawrGirl just spent the last hour designing a Meez avatar, just to have it say she needed to buy the clothes, hair, makeup, background, etc. that she had created, so when she clicked the "save only free items" she was left with a bare-footed, half naked avatar with stupid hair. Complete waste of time. What's particularly frustrating was that in order to make it look like RawrGirl, she had to choose the plus size body shape just to get a little curve. And since it wouldn't let her save, she can't even show it to her Minimins friends as she thought she did a rather good job of showing curves were sexy. O well.

On a happy note...RawrGirl's favorite online clothing store, Venus, was having a sale where if you spent $50, you got a $25 gift card. So, RawrGirl went ahead and bought the dress she wants oh so badly....in a size 8. A Venus size 8 = a 28 inch waist. RawrGirl hopes that this wasn't dumb.

Here is a pic:




And with the $25 gift card, she plans to buy this coat:




The coat is a Medium, which = 28-29 inch waist.

As for the dress, RawrGirl plans on wearing it to any fancy Thanksgiving/Christmas party she may go to in the next few months. She is really hoping it will fit her. She has no idea if she can get her waist down to 28. Worse case scenario, she will wear her bridal corset under it, as that will also solve the "which bra to wear with it" problem as well. (RawrGirl loves her corset, especially as it gives perfect posture, but doesn't wear it very often though as it gives her cysts in her underarm area.)

RawrGirl knows you're not supposed to buy clothes in a smaller size, but she thinks it's rather dumb to buy a dress that she wants to wear tons of times in a size she hopes to never be again. So we shall see...

 

[tweekedgirl]

Welcome back Rawrgirl, hope you had fun on your trip.

Like you've said, don't worry too much about the little gain around your waist, it's probably water weight and it'll be back off in no time.

By the way, that dress is absolutely gorgeous! I want one now

 

[Flabuless Mama]

Weight Loss Simulator

So RawrGirl was playing around on Pintrest and, for better or worse, she discovered a computer-generated weight loss simulator.

After playing around with it, changing the models weight and body shapes, she came up with what she thinks she looked like at her heaviest (which it says was 200 lbs) and her goal weight which is 140. The frustrating thing is that it only changes every 20 pounds, and it's not very accurate, in that the same hourglass model shows up at a certain low weight -- rather than a slimmer apple and a slimmer pear in comparison to their heavier counterparts.

So anyway...this is what the hourglass model looks like at 200 and 180, which judging by photos of herself at her heaviest (and Prince Charming confirmed), is where RawrGirl started out at -- the body of the 200, the face of the 180:



This one is 160 where RawrGirl feels like she looks now, which is particularly discouraging as she thinks she's around 140-145.


This one is listed as 140 for the hourglass (120 for the apple, and 150 for the pear), and is certainly NOT what RawrGirl looks like at the moment. In fact, this is RawrGirl's goal.


And this one, SHOCKINGLY, RawrGirl thought was too thin. This one is listed as 120 for the hourglass, 110 for the apple, and doesn't show up at all for the pear)


As much as RawrGirl thinks this last one would probably look best in clothes (as they would grace her body like a model's), she thinks the once above it would look better in a bikini, lingerie, and naked. Prince Charming also said the 130 Hourglass was sexier (before he knew what RawrGirl thought -- in fact he was surprised when she agreed).

So ignoring the EVIL weights the simulator attributed to what RawrGirl currently "looks" like, she was right in her estimate of needing to lose about 20 more pounds to reach goal.

:sigh:

 

[Flabuless Mama]

Very Discouraged

RawrGirl is officially depressed. :cry:

She wanted to find a really cute figure skating outfit to practice in, which she did:



The problem? It is highly unlikely she will ever fit in them. Apparently, RawrGirl has humongous thighs. She knew they were big, but she didn't realize they were that big. Right now, they are at 24. And as you can see from the chart below, she would have to get them down to 19.5 just to fit into an extra large (and most figure skating pants, including the ones above, only go as high as large, so she'd have to get them down to 18.75).

Pants (inches)	Child XXS (3T-4T)	Child XS (4-6)	Child S (6-8)	Child M (8-10)	Child L (10-12)	Adult XS (12-14)	Adult S	Adult M	Adult L	Adult XL
Waist	19.5"	20"	20.5"	21.5"	22.5"	24"	25.5"	27"	28.5"	30"
Hips	23"	24"	25"	26"	27"	28.5"	30"	31.5"	33"	34.5"
Thighs	14"	14.75"	15"	15.5"	16"	16.75"	17.5"	18"	18.75"	19.5"
Inseam	24"	25.5"	27"	28"	29"	30.5"	31.5"	32.5"	33.5"	34"

So RawrGirl got out her tape measure and the THINNEST part of her thigh -- you know the place where it dips in a few inches above the knee -- is 18.75. So basically she would need to lost every ounce of fat on her thighs, plus some muscle.

RawrGirl's thigh goal was 22. Getting to 19.5 without being gaunt/underweight does not seem likely.

And then there's the hips. 33. Really? Really??? Since when are 33 inch hips a large, and 34.5 inch hips an extra large? RawrGirl is 39.5 -- there is no way 5 more inches are coming off. Seriously, all figure skaters only have a 4.5 inch difference between their waist and their hip??? RawrGirl was disappointed she only had a 10 inch difference when she discovered some hourglass shapes have as much as a 14-inch difference. Apparently only people with curveless supermodel proportions figure skate (which I know is a load of bull as RawrGirl has seen curvy figure skaters, such as Katerina Witt)

Sometimes RawrGirl thinks she picked the worst sport for her self-esteem.

:cry:

Actually, venting has made her feel a bit better as it's made her realize how flawed the figure skating apparel manufacturers are. RawrGirl does not want to lose her curves. She's actually come to not only accept them, but to like her hourglass shape (Prince Charming has really helped with that, hehe). But still, it's very disappointing to realize that even at goal, RawrGirl will be too "fat" to wear figure skating pants.
Ironically, RawrGirl fits into a medium when it comes to figure skating dresses. :sigh:

 

[Flabuless Mama]

Measurement Update

Well, RawrGirl took her measurements and is up .5 inch in the waist and .25 in the hips. The real pain in the butt thing though is that TOM arrived. This only happens once every 3 months due to her birth control...the irony is now RawrGirl has no idea if the gain is attributed to normal TOM bloat or if she gained over her road trip. She REALLY wanted to know, so that she could adjust her holiday eating plans according--eat less if she gained, eat the same if within a week she was back to before.

Grrr!

 

[squishymcfatterson]

Well, RawrGirl took her measurements and is up .5 inch in the waist and .25 in the hips. The real pain in the butt thing though is that TOM arrived. This only happens once every 3 months due to her birth control...the irony is now RawrGirl has no idea if the gain is attributed to normal TOM bloat or if she gained over her road trip. She REALLY wanted to know, so that she could adjust her holiday eating plans according--eat less if she gained, eat the same if within a week she was back to before.

Grrr!

Argh, how frustrating! Good ol' Mother Nature has impeccable timing. My TOM arrived so that I had no true reflection of how much weight I lost on my refeed week.