Hello, hello!
Well, took my sorry self to bed early last night and have been rewarded this morning with the familiar weird taste in my mouth. I think the big k is finally here! Phew. That was hard!! Here's hoping I start to feel more positive and start to see movement on the scales (I've not weighed yet - first weigh in is Wednesday). Day 5 here we come!
Debbi, I know what you mean about 'it's just not me'. I never thought I'd say this, let alone feel it, but size 14 really feels awkward and uncomfortable for me now. I am a size 10-12. It's who I am. A big part of my identity is wrapped up in how I present myself physically to the world, (it may sound shallow but i realise now it's really true) and at the moment, not being able to wear most of the clothes in my wardrobe feels rough. A friend at work said 'but you don't look like you've gained anything' - but that's how it starts, isn't it - feeling comforted that your current size/weight is ok, and accepting it, and then gaining more
Really sweet of her. But of course I then panicked that meant I must have been looking lardy before Christmas too (!). Doh!
Onward and downward!
How's everyone else getting on?
