**Jessica Rabbit's Diary - Im moving over to maintenance***

quick update - got 1.5L down me so far only 1L to go and 1 shake - have been 100% and feeling really positive with all this sunny weather.

TOTM still not arrived yet. will be to do with the tablets but they reckon it should have been 3/4 days and am on day 4 now! I knwo Im impatient - I hope that it hasnt made me miss it altogether and then I get the one from hell next month on my hols!

Anyone shed any light if they have used norethisterone?

will be back later
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Hey Jess..
Hope your ok hon. Just had a quick read of your diary...... awwww big hugs hon you had a funny few days.. I am so pleased to hear you are back on track though . and well done for drinking lots of water..
Im sorry the tablets were not any good in the end.... its not fair is it...
Chin up hon.. your doing fab.......... and we can smile as the sun is shining..
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Thanks Curly hope they will be okay for you if you try them
xxx

Ive been 100% today - am so proud and do you know what I just want to thank everyone for their ongoing and non-judgemental continued support on here as I NEVER would have lasted 17 weeks and got to where I am now with only about a stone and a half to lose if it hadnt been for you wonderful people on here!!!!! :grouphugg::flowers::flowers::flowers::thankyou::thankyou:

In other news you will all be pleased to know that TOTM has finally arrived so no more manic mad hormonal naggy Jess who falls off the wagon at the slightest thing and its going to be 100% EVERY DAY from now till my hols on the 20th June
BRING IT ON!!!
See you all in the morning
xxx
 
SATURday 30th May 2009
DAY 113 of SSing
Goal 10st 0lbs
WEIGHT = 11st 6.0
CHANGE = 0.4lbs
WEIGHT to GOAL = 20 lbs:eek:

MOOD = YIPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEE:D:D

Lost another 0.4 so that’s only another 1lb and I’m at my wedding weight I’m so excited!!!!!
Got a few things to do today – William has a party at a play place from 11-1 but if that horrible woman from last time stays then I’m going to have to say something I think! Luckily another friend of Williams Mums is staying so she can be there for back up.

Then it’s back home finish off washing strip beds and wait in for Tesco’s to drop off the shopping from 3-5 so will iron whilst I’m waiting and we are going to the beach tomorrow so I’m really looking forward to that.

I WILL resist an omelette from the Indian tonight I PROMISE – thats what started it all off last week............

Will be back later to update ........

Xxx
 
SUNday 31st May 2009
DAY 114 of SSing
Goal 1 - 10st 0lbs (Healthy weight range )
GOAL 2 - 9st 7 (ultimate goal)
WEIGHT = 11st 5.6
CHANGE = 0.4lbs
WEIGHT to
GOAL 1 = 19.6 lbs
GOAL 2 = 26.6 lbs
MOOD = Excited!:D:D

Morning everyone am off to the beach today – headache seems to have lifted and Ive lost another 0.4lbs so Im only 0.6 off my wedding weight and I am definitely feeling slimmer. I have never bloated up for TOTM like I did with these tablets so my heart goes out to any woman that bloats up like that every month.

Only a quick one as Ive got to finish getting everything ready – water, tetra etc so will be back later with an update......

Xxx
 
MONday 1st JUNE 2009
DAY 115 of SSing
Goal 1 - 10st 0lbs (Healthy weight range )
GOAL 2 - 9st 7 (ultimate goal)
WEIGHT = 11st 6.0
CHANGE = +0.4lbs
WEIGHT to
GOAL 1 = 20 lbs
GOAL 2 = 27 lbs
MOOD = disapppointed

For some reason I have gained the 0.4 I lost yesterday – serves me right for daily weighing I suppose and the few swigs of coke zero at the beach- wont do that again!!!!!

So now 1lb away from wedding weight!


Update ...............

At work today suffered with demons and angels all day – nearly went into a shop to buy food thinking will get the rest off using 2 shakes and a healthy meal but resisted. Came home and then had 2 boiled eggs which wasn’t great but better then the chocolate and cake I was craving!

Am considering doing SS+ as every day is a battle now to keep me on the diet really. It used to be great and I didn’t think about it at all and the weight was dropping off but now Im in my comfort zone and fitting in size14 the impetus and motivation have gone really and I just feel deprived with being on it for 16 weeks.

The demon in me says do maintenance now and get the rest off slowly with WW and the angel says no get it all off get to goal and then live as a slim person, but it is consuming all my thoughts and I have a permanent headache now and Im not sleeping and having vivid nightmares am feeling totally out of control as I’m forgetting things and getting to the point of not being able to remember words mid sentence due to the diet.

Sorry to be on a downer this time not hormone related just long term VCLD diet blues.

I need to get my mojo back!!!!

I have now worked out that I need to SS for another 8 weeks incl. being on my hols then do maintenance and at the moment that just seems like forever rather than a nanosecond compared to the rest of my life!

But I am so short tempered naggy and my tolerance level is non-existent and its just not fair on my kids HB and even work have noticed how peed off I am so Im no fun to be around AT ALL. I got like this last time at this point and came off the diet as it wasn’t fair on everyone and I couldn’t cope with feeling so awful.

I have to say my down days are really outweighing my up days and knowing I have lost 4 st is of no comfort really or enough to spur me on. Im also getting hungry all the time which I knew last time meant I had no fat left to burn as I was getting near to Healthy weight range but now its happening at a stone heavier.

I just don’t know what to do – part of me thinks do maintenance now keep my supplies and come back to it in a few months time when my head is in the right place and I would only need to do it for a month and get 1 ½ st off rather than it being just so god damn awful now, then another part of me says no don’t give in you have come so far and it wont be 1 ½ st it will probably be 3!

I also said this was the LAST time I SS’ed as it does your body and metabolism no good

I would be extremely grateful for any ideas / advice / kick up the arse to get me going again – KD ? you normally know all the right things to say and especially with you losing so much you know how it feels to be on it long term.

What would happen if I went up to 1000 cals instead of SS how much slower would it be would it be the 2lbs a week you would normally get on ww/sw or would it be less do you think.

Sorry for the ramble needed to get it all down to try and work it all out in my head.
LOL
Xxx
 
AAww Jess. It is really hard, especially when the weather is so fine and everyone arouund us are enjoying bbq's and cafe breaks and ice cream etc.... Im finding it hard these past few days too. Craving all kinds of things. I think if ss is becoming hard you should try ss+ or 810. why not? I dont think the losses will be too much different. what is the point in being miserable? You know what that leads to in the end dont you? big binges!!! Hey girl, you have done so bl**dy good. going up a step will not hurt you Im sure. So what if it is a bit slower, you will still get there. I admit, Im thinking of moving up for a week or 2 myself if my temptations dont go away soon!!

whatever you decide to do, I have faith in you that you'll do the right thing!

good luck, I'll be thinking about you hun
 
Thanks Denise it means alot KD and some others have posted n the other thread about it and come up with the same idea as you and Im going to SS+ or 810 - will decide tomorow.
we will both get there
see you tomorrow I'm off to bed
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Aw honey really feel for you, im sure if you work up the stages you will find the one that works for you and continue till your hols and hopefully will be very close or at goal by then. Will talk more about it when I see you on Thurs but if you want to talk before then you know where I am.

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Hi Jess.... I'm home and catching up on threads, feels like the best treat ever! (Even if I did get up at 3.30 to do it, jet lag, dontcha just love it?)

I'm sorry you've had such a rough time honey! Those tablets sounded like a nightmare. I really know how you feel with the food temptations, I was the same after a long stretch of SS and I moved up to 810 and lost the last 2st that way so although it took a little longer, it was worth it for me as it was do-able. And I enjoyed it, found it more forgiving. I think after a long while on SS your body sometimes needs a little kick-start, to rev things up, so there is always an option to do 810 and then switch down again for a little while.

I LOVE the new hair, you look AMAZING.... and so slim now, too. What a great OH.

Big hugs honey & chin up... you've come so far and you're gonna get all the way, I know you are.

xxx
 
TUESday 2nd JUNE 2009
DAY 116 of SSing
Goal 1 - 10st 0lbs (Healthy weight range )
GOAL 2 - 9st 7 (ultimate goal)
WEIGHT = 11st 5.0
CHANGE = 1.0bs
WEIGHT to
GOAL 1 = 19 lbs
GOAL 2 = 26 lbs
MOOD = better than yesterday

Slept a bit better last night after people came to my rescue with my awful day yesterday. Went to bed with the feeling would do ss+ or 810 and then got up this morning and have lost 1lb so am now at my wedding weight!

I have only been at this weight 4 times in the last 8 years
2001 – got down to it for my wedding then ballooned up with 2 pregnancies
2004 – for William’s first birthday
2007 – when I was last on CD journey for Amelia’s birthday
2007 – another cd attempt to lose it for a friends wedding

The rest of the time I have been pregnant or yo-yoing and lots heavier (up to 17stone!)

Today is a good reason why its NOT good to daily weigh as now I have hit another goal I don’t want to do ss+ or 810 as ss will get the weight off quicker – its also another down side of CD for me the way it affects my mood and judgement is terrible its like having bipolar disorder and I cant make a decision to save my life!

This is why I said this was the LAST time I did CD.

So I think I have made my decision – I will go to Tesco and get stuff to do ss+ and aim on having ss days and then if I’m having a bad day will do ss+, but having the stuff in as back up will help me rather than not having anything in at all and then ending up eating something I shouldn’t!!!!!

I just want to thank everyone again for their support last night it was invaluable!
Will be back later to update............
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Well done Jess, and I like your plan :)

xxx
 
Sounds perfect honey you can do this and it is the last time eeeevvveeerrr!!!!!!!
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It is always good to plan ahead and you should have some insight into what sets off your cravings or hunger. having the "right" kind of food in is a good idea Jess. Actually, you havent much more to lose and ss+-ing would seem suitable in my opinion. One thing I noticed on some thread somewhere was that it is better to alternate weeks with ss/ss+, rather than days. so maybe look into that hun. Once you ss+ for a week Im sure many of the demons will go away. Im also trying to hang in there with ss but if needs must, I will step up too. Your not alone and anyway, the old ss plan was to ss+ every 5 weeks (which is what we do here in Ireland still, maybe that is better?)

Well done on the loss btw. thats fab!!! YOU CAN AND WILL DO IT JESS!
 
good to hear you sounding more positive hun!
I think just having a nibble on a bit of chicken and cucumber might shock you into how guilty you will feel! I did this a couple of weeks ago and actually spat it out becuase it felt like i was cheating so you never know how you will actually respond when it comes to doing the eating!
Thinking of you hun and hope you find something that works for you xxxxx
 
thanks for the messages of support girls it really means alot:thankyou::thankyou::thankyou:

WEDNESday 3nd JUNE 2009
DAY 117 of SSing
Goal 1 - 10st 0lbs (Healthy weight range )
GOAL 2 - 9st 7 (ultimate goal)
WEIGHT = 11st 3.8
CHANGE = 1.2bs
WEIGHT to
GOAL 1 = 16.8 lbs
GOAL 2 = 24.8 lbs
MOOD = Wow

Morning everyone – Im in lurking mode at the moment as my head is all over the place and I dont want to inflict it on anyone really and also my concentration is dire.

After Monday and everyone coming to my recsue I stayed on CD and then went to tesco and bought supplies for doing SS+ but yesterday I didnt need to do it as the devil didnt reappear telling me to eat so its still in the fridge but its a nice security blanket I suppose knowing its there if I need it.

Have lost another 1.2 this morning so thats 2lbs in 2 days this diet is so wierd! But great.

Only another 0.8lbs and I have lost 70% of the weight I want to lose and another 3lbs and I will only be 1st overweight and will have lost 4 ½ stone! I need to keep thinking that for the next milestones

I also need to set some new goals too like KD said so need to have a serious hard think any ideas ? they need to be positive and not running away from being overweight.

Will be back later to update............
Xxx
 
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Your a nutter you have just made me laugh out loud in work with the thing about the pics!!!!!!! Keep it up honey and keep smiling xxxxxxx
 
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