kelly1977
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Thanks again Girls for your messages.
Things are getting quite tough at this end, its getting so upsetting every time we see her, I had to walk out of the room on Saturday as I didn't want me nana to see me crying. :cry:
She drank lots of water on Saturday (about half a cup full) but yesterday she was hardly drinking anything, she hasn't had anything else to eat apart from the ice cream & yoghurt I told you about a few days ago.
It looks as though she is losing weight everyday, although she has hardly no excess weight to lose now, I suppose its like her being on SS but without the packs & we all know how much weight you can lose on a vlcd....
Me nana is very independent & says exactly whats on her mind, which is what I love about her, No holding back.
At the beginning of the week when I tried to hold her hand, she would tell me to 'get off' but on Saturday I saw a different side of her, thats partly why I got upset, she was reaching out to me to hold her hand & she said to me ' I'm frightened' which broke my heart.
She says all the time 'Help me' & 'I want to go home'..
She was shouting yesterday but I think its frustration more than anything, me nan mumbles quite alot, its quite like baby talk as we cant understand a thing she says, but then says something totally unexpected.
Over the weekend she has shouted for her mam quite alot & has also been crying with the pain which is awful to see as we cant do anything to help her.
Alot of the family have said they cant bare to visit it her as its too upsetting to see her like she is & they want to remember her as she used to be if anything happens, but as I see it I know she hasnt got long to live but I wanna make as long as she has got the best I can make it, Everyday I see her I try to get her talking as I know her brain is still active then & talking to her takes her mind of the pain she is going through, I dont mind when she shouts at me or tells me to bugger off, I prefer it when she is like that, at least I know she is still fighting although I do love it when she lets me hold her hand but when she lets me do that I know she isnt to good as she hates to be touched, maybe coz she is so fragile & the slightest touch she does jump, I think the duvet could be too heavy for her she is that skinny, I joked to her yesterday that she could be a size zero model, she replied 'ok'... lol.
She keeps pretending to eat, but she honestly thinks she is eating, has anyone ever known of that before??
Maybe as she hasn't eaten for a while now she is imaging it,
she was 'eating' & I asked her what she was eating & she said 'bread' I asked if it was nice & she said 'it was lovely'.. BIZARRE....
It looks as though she is going downhill pretty fast now, as yesterday she couldnt be bothered at all, she couldnt say full sentences that made any sense, just a few words.
I do believe there is some kind of afterlife waiting for us all as me nana keeps staring wide eyed at the ceiling which freaks us all out & asking 'who's that'...
She also shouts 'bloody bugger, go away' but she is looking at the ceiling or the corner of the room when she says it.
A few times she has asked her mam to 'take her' but when you ask where her mam is she says she is at the shops.
Maybe its her mam she can see, we'll never know..
I welled up when I asked her 'If you could have 1 wish what would it be' & she replied 'me'.. Awwww..
I have took a few pictures of her yesterday with me, she doesnt smile for pictures just stares, as soon as I get them downloaded I will put one up on my thread, at least when I talk about my nana you will know what she looks like.
Everyday my nana makes me cry with laughter & cry with sadness but either way I am just happy she is still here..
Well off for the 1st visit of the day, thanks for listening...
Hugs
Kel
Things are getting quite tough at this end, its getting so upsetting every time we see her, I had to walk out of the room on Saturday as I didn't want me nana to see me crying. :cry:
She drank lots of water on Saturday (about half a cup full) but yesterday she was hardly drinking anything, she hasn't had anything else to eat apart from the ice cream & yoghurt I told you about a few days ago.
It looks as though she is losing weight everyday, although she has hardly no excess weight to lose now, I suppose its like her being on SS but without the packs & we all know how much weight you can lose on a vlcd....
Me nana is very independent & says exactly whats on her mind, which is what I love about her, No holding back.
At the beginning of the week when I tried to hold her hand, she would tell me to 'get off' but on Saturday I saw a different side of her, thats partly why I got upset, she was reaching out to me to hold her hand & she said to me ' I'm frightened' which broke my heart.
She says all the time 'Help me' & 'I want to go home'..
She was shouting yesterday but I think its frustration more than anything, me nan mumbles quite alot, its quite like baby talk as we cant understand a thing she says, but then says something totally unexpected.
Over the weekend she has shouted for her mam quite alot & has also been crying with the pain which is awful to see as we cant do anything to help her.
Alot of the family have said they cant bare to visit it her as its too upsetting to see her like she is & they want to remember her as she used to be if anything happens, but as I see it I know she hasnt got long to live but I wanna make as long as she has got the best I can make it, Everyday I see her I try to get her talking as I know her brain is still active then & talking to her takes her mind of the pain she is going through, I dont mind when she shouts at me or tells me to bugger off, I prefer it when she is like that, at least I know she is still fighting although I do love it when she lets me hold her hand but when she lets me do that I know she isnt to good as she hates to be touched, maybe coz she is so fragile & the slightest touch she does jump, I think the duvet could be too heavy for her she is that skinny, I joked to her yesterday that she could be a size zero model, she replied 'ok'... lol.
She keeps pretending to eat, but she honestly thinks she is eating, has anyone ever known of that before??
Maybe as she hasn't eaten for a while now she is imaging it,
she was 'eating' & I asked her what she was eating & she said 'bread' I asked if it was nice & she said 'it was lovely'.. BIZARRE....
It looks as though she is going downhill pretty fast now, as yesterday she couldnt be bothered at all, she couldnt say full sentences that made any sense, just a few words.
I do believe there is some kind of afterlife waiting for us all as me nana keeps staring wide eyed at the ceiling which freaks us all out & asking 'who's that'...
She also shouts 'bloody bugger, go away' but she is looking at the ceiling or the corner of the room when she says it.
A few times she has asked her mam to 'take her' but when you ask where her mam is she says she is at the shops.
Maybe its her mam she can see, we'll never know..
I welled up when I asked her 'If you could have 1 wish what would it be' & she replied 'me'.. Awwww..
I have took a few pictures of her yesterday with me, she doesnt smile for pictures just stares, as soon as I get them downloaded I will put one up on my thread, at least when I talk about my nana you will know what she looks like.
Everyday my nana makes me cry with laughter & cry with sadness but either way I am just happy she is still here..
Well off for the 1st visit of the day, thanks for listening...
Hugs
Kel
