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Hello everyone, this is my journey...
I am 28, and about 4st overweight.. Or as my clinical diagnosis states I am obese... :cry:
I wasn't always obese, nope.. It's only taken me a very easy 4 years to go from a comfortable size 10 to a tight fitting size 18. The reason for this, is having met my lovely husband and getting waay to comfortable with the words " I love you just like you are" and discovering comfort food, and eating when I wasn't hungry, or didn't need to eat.. Full fat everything... I also started working long and crazy shifts, where I sit for up to 12 hrs some days/nights/weekend, and I've recently realised that I am a really bad comfort eater. I stuff my face till I can't walk when I am down, then the next day I won't eat anything to make up for that... so all and all I have been stuck in a downward spiral.
I've totally lost my way with food, what's supposed to be normal and balanced. I've forgotten what a normal portion looks like (or I laugh when I see one, cause no way in Hell that's going to fill me up..) I eat the same size portions as my 6ft5 husband.. I'm only 5ft7...
I've yo-yo dieted for about 2 years, everytime losing a bit then putting back double the amount. I've taken all the pills, and all they've done is make things worse. It's alway all or nothing with me. and it's been a painfull and expensive lesson to learn... All I have to show for it now, is a total lack in self confidence, a serious food/eating obsession and some really bad stretch marks.. :sigh2: I cannot make it through an hour without having thought about what I'm going to eat/cook/feed or what I've eaten... It's driving me nuts!
I've never been on a VLCD before, but I am 100% confident that this is what I need to go back to the beginning. By taking the options out of eating I can re-educate myself on how to eat, to throw my body back into fat burning and energy releasing mode and I need to get back to my old self. The one who had loads of energy, and could easily pass on any food on offer and who drank water because I felt like it. The one who could walk in to a shop and try on any of the clothes and look good in them.. I was proud of myself and my body and my looks once.. Now I hide at home/under jumpers and jeans/avoid friends and parties and photos...
Anyhoe, enough with the morbid rant.. The point is that I am taking a stand against my own demon. And it starts tomorrow 22/08/11. Tomorrow is the new start to the rest of my life. I've found an abundance of inspiration and motivation on the life stories in these forums, and I know I am going to be in good hands. I've already gotten the support green light from my gorgeous OH, and this weekends has been my time to eat my last few sins, reflect on the journey ahead, clean out the cupboards and fridge and mentally prepare myself for the journey ahead. I am never going to be able to go back to eating normally again, I accept that. I want to make Exante part of my life from now on.
Wish me luck and good luck to everyone on their own journeys.
I am 28, and about 4st overweight.. Or as my clinical diagnosis states I am obese... :cry:
I wasn't always obese, nope.. It's only taken me a very easy 4 years to go from a comfortable size 10 to a tight fitting size 18. The reason for this, is having met my lovely husband and getting waay to comfortable with the words " I love you just like you are" and discovering comfort food, and eating when I wasn't hungry, or didn't need to eat.. Full fat everything... I also started working long and crazy shifts, where I sit for up to 12 hrs some days/nights/weekend, and I've recently realised that I am a really bad comfort eater. I stuff my face till I can't walk when I am down, then the next day I won't eat anything to make up for that... so all and all I have been stuck in a downward spiral.
I've totally lost my way with food, what's supposed to be normal and balanced. I've forgotten what a normal portion looks like (or I laugh when I see one, cause no way in Hell that's going to fill me up..) I eat the same size portions as my 6ft5 husband.. I'm only 5ft7...
I've yo-yo dieted for about 2 years, everytime losing a bit then putting back double the amount. I've taken all the pills, and all they've done is make things worse. It's alway all or nothing with me. and it's been a painfull and expensive lesson to learn... All I have to show for it now, is a total lack in self confidence, a serious food/eating obsession and some really bad stretch marks.. :sigh2: I cannot make it through an hour without having thought about what I'm going to eat/cook/feed or what I've eaten... It's driving me nuts!
I've never been on a VLCD before, but I am 100% confident that this is what I need to go back to the beginning. By taking the options out of eating I can re-educate myself on how to eat, to throw my body back into fat burning and energy releasing mode and I need to get back to my old self. The one who had loads of energy, and could easily pass on any food on offer and who drank water because I felt like it. The one who could walk in to a shop and try on any of the clothes and look good in them.. I was proud of myself and my body and my looks once.. Now I hide at home/under jumpers and jeans/avoid friends and parties and photos...
Anyhoe, enough with the morbid rant.. The point is that I am taking a stand against my own demon. And it starts tomorrow 22/08/11. Tomorrow is the new start to the rest of my life. I've found an abundance of inspiration and motivation on the life stories in these forums, and I know I am going to be in good hands. I've already gotten the support green light from my gorgeous OH, and this weekends has been my time to eat my last few sins, reflect on the journey ahead, clean out the cupboards and fridge and mentally prepare myself for the journey ahead. I am never going to be able to go back to eating normally again, I accept that. I want to make Exante part of my life from now on.
Wish me luck and good luck to everyone on their own journeys.
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