Yo-Yo's Diary

[yo-yo-dieter]

Fifth day in a row, 11st 2.8lbs! What the chuff is going on?

I'm having four food packs a day, and drinking at least four litres a day! Should I increase my water intake? Drop a food pack? Try incorporate some exercise? What? Any ideas anyone? It's frustrating when I am doing everything right.

I applied for some Life Insurance last night as we don't have any mortgage protection which is very silly, but as I say I did it last night, and one of the questions the company asked was height and weight, and it felt really, really good to say 11st 4lbs as opposed to the nearly fourteen stone I would have had to say two months ago!

Office had another Indian takeaway yesterday, this is the fifth they have had in the 8 weeks I have been doing Lighter Life.

 

[yo-yo-dieter]

Today is day 59, which means another time milestone, and into the "thirty something" days rather than forty!

Got weighed today and the scales have shifted (yay)....02.lbs down (boo!) so 11st 2.6lbs today. I had 6-7 litres yesterday to see if I could persuade a decent weight loss today but even that didn't work. Perhaps this is my body's natural weight? I'm still in ketosis as I checked last night and the stick went pink. Don't understand how I could have hit a plateau with such a long time to go, it's not as if I am in my last week or anything.

I know it should be the way I look to me that matters, and not the numbers on the scales. I'm still getting lots of compliments, and boosts to my confidence, I need to focus on that.

 

[Sambucca]

Still loving your diary yo-yo.

Try not to worry too much about the scales not moving so much this week. You have had fabulous losses every week up until now. The scales will start moving again eventually. I think you can hit a plateau at any time during the diet - not just necessarily at the end.

Keep going!

 

[yo-yo-dieter]

YAWN! Going in for a bit of overtime today while it's still there, give myself a bit of extra pocket money for October, because I am certainly gonna need a new winter coat! My rain coat, dress coat and warm coat are all sixteens and look ridiculous. I remember when my warm coat used to be quite tight around the hips!!!

Only working five hours, but still have to wake up at stupid o'clock to go in, so I dont miss too much of my weekend while I am working.

I had my first person tell me yesterday that I shouldn't lose any more weight or I will go too thin!!! Except I know she was saying it to me out of jealousy as she is a yo-yo-dieter too. She reckons if I lose any more weight from my face I will look haggard and older than I am. She said "I mean, you are really thin now...." - well, even I know I am not really thin. Slimmer, yes, not overweight, but really thin, no!

Scales have shifted finally 11st 2.0lb today. I'll be chuffing glad to see the back of this pound bracket, and eleven stone I can tell ya.

They had breakfast butties in the office today, despite having had them yesterday too. The office smelt gorgeous, I really miss breakfast butties. However, seeing how I am gonna be vegetarian, I wont be having them anyway!!!

I am meant to be going out around Leeds tonight with my husband and some of his works colleagues. Leeds is really trendy and I always feel like a bit of a country bumpkin when I am out. It's not gonna be a late one, we are getting the last train home, which is about 11pm. I'm dreading drinking water all night. I'll take some water flavouring and a spoon with me in a bag and drink soda water. I hope it's a dressy up kind of night, I haven't dressed up in ages. People don't seem to dress up anymore when they go out around here, it's always jeans dressed up with a nice top. I've got a black dress from Oasis that I last wore in 2004, and I'd really like to wear that. I could sling a jacket, and wear it with wedges to dress it down a bit, I suppose. Anyway, the fact that I am thinking of dressing up and wearing a dress is unthinkable, as two months ago I would have covered up, and wanted to hide myself in jeans so I looked anonymous.

 

[yo-yo-dieter]

11st 1.6lbs today! (oh eleven stones, be gone quickly!)

Well my big night out in Leeds turned out to be a right anti-climax!! Before we sent off my hubby was moaning about feeling a bit sick, however by the time we arrived in the pub in Leeds train station, he was feeling really ill with tummy ache, going hot and cold, and actually threw up in the toilet, so we ended up having only the one drink and then heading back home. Honest, it took me longer to get ready for the night out, than the night out actually lasted! (boo), and expensive too, £5.20 train fare, and £10 to my brother for babysitting - just for one drink!!! He's promised me another night out in Leeds when I am eating/drinking again.

Oh I did love getting ready though! I tried loads of outfits on, which all looked great, and my trauma was "what did I want to wear" rather than "what suited me, and made me look least fat".

Woman behind the bar put a slice of lime in with the water! I nearly had a dicky fit trying to fish it out before it released any of it's limeyness into my digestive system.

I didn't have enough water yesterday either, was short by half a litre. Didn't bother chucking it down my neck like I normally do because I was expecting to be drinking about three litres, if not more, on our night out. Couldn't face the last food pack either, so no soup either.

Oh in work yesterday they had cooked breakfasts!!! Those who work Sundays as part of their normal shifts had clubbed together and brought in bacon, eggs and beans, and one girl bought in a box of Terry's Old Gold, that someone had bought her but she'd never eat the whole box on her own (she claims). Can't even escape from fat food in there at the weekend.

 

[skinnylatte]

Wow yo-yo, your diary is such an inspiration! Am about to start CD tomorrow (would love to do LL but havent got the funds at the moment) but from what I've heard its pretty similar, and I can't believe how well you have done! If I do half as well, I'll be delighted with myself! You look amazing in your before and after pics, and as someone who loves Dorothy Perkins (although at the moment Im firmly in the 18s), I like the idea of using them as my size guide as well! Have to admit sizes 14 or 12 are but a far distant dream though. Keep up the good work, and thanks for the words of wisdom!

 

[Geri]

Hiya YoYo
sorry to read your night out didn't go quite as planned, but great to read how great you felt be able to choose what to wear

Just noticed your ticker, you're flying along girl - great stuff...

Try and relax about your weightloss's, the pounds will drop off, as they have been, and soon enough you'll be in the 10's

Be sure and have all your foodpacks today as you need them for the nutrition/calories...

Keep shaking girl

ooh and your office certainly like their food lol sounds like a nightmare

 

[yo-yo-dieter]

Today is day 62 so only 36 days to go, five weeks and one day left! Pah - that's nothing.

Weight this morning 11st 0.8lbs!! (yay) less than a single pound and I will be in the 10s, which is a moment I have dreamed about since 2000!! (got married at 10st 7lbs, came back off honeymoon at 11st and it was all upwards from there). I truly believe I can get down to 10st by the end of foundation (or at the very least be it by the end of management). I'm very pleased with myself that I worked through my plateau and didn't do anything silly like binge, or reduce the number of food packs! In a previous life I would have given up, but instead I just tutted and stayed bemused.

Managed to have all my food packs yesterday, I wonder if having the savoury soup pack has made any difference to my blood pressure? I'm not gonna go get it checked though til we next need to, by which time I will be finished anyway.

Skinny Latte, thank you for your kind words! I don't know much about CD (apart from its similar to LL but you don't go to a group?) - well, just say to yourself that it's just gonna be X amount of days of your life, and that time will pass whether you are on a diet or not. Be prepared to write off the new months socially, no meals, no boozing but I promise you it will all be worth it!! Are you gonna keep a diary on here?

Geri - they had another cooked breakfast again! It's all very healthy, they brought in a George Foreman grill, and cooked the bacon on that, then they had beans and scrambled eggs done in the microwave, but the office smelt gorgeous and drove me wild. AND there were still some chocolates left from the previous day! If there is one thing I want to promise myself, it is that (apart from breakfast and lunch that I bring in/buy myself) I will NOT get into the habit of eating at work, because that was my downfall and the cause of a 20lbs gain in 20 months.

 

[yo-yo-dieter]

DOH!! Unofficially 11st 0.8lbs again, probably means I will only have lost 1-2lbs tonight, was hoping to average three pounds a week for the next six weeks and get down to 10st.

Still, what are numbers on a scale? It's what you look like in your clothes (or out of them) that matters isn't it? And I feel great, I honestly do, I think I look good in clothes and I really like myself. The confidence that losing weight has given me back has increased tenfold, and I will be forever grateful to lighter life for doing that. However I am terrified I will start binge eating again once I am let loose on food and put all the weight back on.

Food in the office yesterday: Mini Flapjacks, mini chocolate ring doughnuts, and pieces of rocky road from M&S.

 

[yo-yo-dieter]

Weigh-in last night and lost 2lbs, so official weight is 11st 2lbs!! I've put a happy face next to it, rather than an angry one because I reckon my days of big losses are over now however I have decided to be relaxed about it, and as long as my BMI is under 25 at the end of week 14 (which it will be as only 7lbs to go before that happens!!!), I shall be happy with my lot.

Oh - and my pee stick was pink for the first time since I started!! Hooray. I still didn't have a drink between finishing work and going to the session, but I managed to neck four litres at work instead of my usual three, so that obviously made a difference.

A lost 2lbs - 25lbs in 9 weeks
B lost 5lbs - 34lbs in 7 weeks.
M lost 2lbs - 32lbs in 8 weeks
I lost 2lbs - 35lbs in 9 weeks.
J came back to class last night. Her daughter had a baby, and J was with her when he was born, but she's had a very stressful time, and has become a bit depressed so fell off the wagon and had a few binges (but she said not as much as she would used to have)....anyway after two weeks away from class she came back and had lost one pound! She had honestly expected to have put on maybe 5-6, so she's delighted that she doesn't have to set about losing something she'd already lost previously (if you know what I mean?). Anyway she's on 41lbs after 9 weeks now.

Unofficial weight this morning was 11st exactly!!! maybe tomorrow or Thursday I might achieve my ambition of being under 11st when we went to Blackpool, which is this Friday.

I was very flattered yesterday. I had my black linen dress on, with some fancy tights and spiky high heeled shoes, maybe a bit overdressed for work, but hey who cares. Anyway the tights/shoes caused great excitement with the guys in the office (who are all older guys and I don't fancy them, it was just a bit of banter) but everytime I stood up they would make some comment about how nice I looked, and how thin I was looking. Even my glamorous friend R said I was looking "foxy" - no one has ever said I looked foxy before. I've never caused great excitement with anything I have worn before! As I said, I was really flattered and happy.

 

[yo-yo-dieter]

11st 0 exactly again this morning, not too fussed as I love all my new clothes and I don't want to have to buy loads more (although I do need some autumy tops). It's ace waking up in a morning and having loads of stuff to choose that are nice, and I look nice in, rather than just getting dressed for getting dresseds sake.

I took all my old clothes to the charity shop yesterday as they were cluttering up the spare room, and my friend is coming next Tuesday to spend the day with me Wednesday.

Rocky choc-bars and ginger nuts in the office yesterday.

 

[yo-yo-dieter]

Yessssssss *punches air* finally did it - 10st 13lbs this morning, goal achieved!!!

I'm off to Blackpool this evening, coming back late Monday evening, so that is gonna be four days without a morning weigh in. I'm taking my packs and my blender with me, although missing out on a cooked breakfast will kill me *boo hoo*

<I know what a cooked breakfast tastes like, and I want to know what being slim feels like>

Also, I am going to have to make a decision. My boss, who is very popular, is off to pastures new, and although it's her last day today, she can't have her leaving do until W/C 10th September (during week 12 for me, which is milk week anyway, so I should theoretically be kicked out of ketosis). Anyway she wants to go out for a meal rather than a boozy night (which would be better for me, as I could drink water in pubs). So I have to decided either not to go (I am not going to have a food pack in a restaurant) or to eat one plate of food to join in. My friend R says if I stick with her, she will make sure I eat only one plate and not 15, and as she isn't keen on the food in that particular restaurant, she says she will eat slowly/eat consciously etc...all the golden rules with me, while the others stuff their faces.

 

[yo-yo-dieter]

Well, for the first time in ten weeks I (gulp) ATE FOOD!​

Big up to ANYONE who can go away on holiday and stick to this diet 100%. I can stop feeling so smug and self-rigteous over my ex-step-mother-in-law's lack of holiday willpower now! I found it nigh on impossible to avoid food and was only away for the weekend.​

Friday - Arrived at 8pm Friday night. When we arrived we walked up and down the seafront and went in the amusements. Hubby and the kids wanted some chips from the sellers on the seafront, so the kids had a cone each and hubby got burger and chips. The chips looked so tempting, and I felt so jealous that I had to nick a few.​

Woke up on Saturday and the corner of my face was tingling. I felt about and discovered the beginnings of a spot. A HUGE spot! I haven't had a spot since I stopped eating on 19th June. Surely a few greasy chips wouldn't cause a breakout so quickly? We went to the circus in the Tower and each of the kids took some pick-n-mix sweets and I nicked a few.​

Sunday was Pleasure Beach day! I was starting to get brave with the eating now, so had a couple of spoonfuls of breakfasts from the youngest lads plate. Scrambled eggs and baked beans. Nearly had some sausage til I remembered I am gonna be vegetarian. The breakfasts were mouthwateringly gorgeous looking! After the pleasure beach the family went for a meal in a bar, and I was gonna throw caution to the wind and have a meal (salmon, and I said to myself I would only eat the fish and not the rest) but husband looked at me disapprovingly and said "Never mind, it's only £66 a week you're wasting" (referring to LL) so I went all "adaptive child" and didn't have any. However when their meals came, I proceeded to nick a few fries off their plates when they weren't looking.​

For the past three days I have NOT had four litres of water per day......I have NOT had my four food packs per day either (one of the days I only had one!) The most I managed to put away was three litres of water on Saturday. This has had the knock on effect of causing me to become constipated. I have never been constipated - I get through a whole tub of water flavouring per week! Not knowing what time I would get home today I decided I would have some food and try and make myself "go" so at breakfast this morning I had a few mushrooms and a ladel full of scrambled eggs. (justifying this to my husband by explaining I hoped it would cause the world to fall out of my bottom). Anyway the serving of breakfast was about 50% less than I would normally have given myself, and I was able to eat only 50% of it before I felt full. Needless to say I still haven't "been" yet.​

3pm - arrived home. Went to the loo to check urine for ketosis, and yep - luckily for me I am still in ketosis with a stick so purple it went off the flaming richter scale! That's what you get from just having 500mls of water today, so will make the effort to drink it all over what's left of the rest of the day!

And I got weighed when I got home and was 10st 12.6lbs! So I have to count myself lucky and get back onto it with still another 28 days to go!​

This is what I was scared off, having something to eat, then not being able to go back to abstainance. I hope my fears are unfounded. Watch this space.​

 

[yo-yo-dieter]

Well, I eventually "went" last night. Whether it was doubling up the water flavourings, or the laxatives, they had the desired effect. Constipation is not pleasant and I don't want to have it again!

Unofficial weight today 10st 11.6lbs.

Last night polished off three of the kids crispy pancakes. Today is a new day so I must get back on track!

 

[yo-yo-dieter]

YAY!!! I have to post this.

I have today, for the first time in my life, bought a pair of knee-high zip up boots from the high street!!!!!!

I have NEVER EVER been able to buy zip-up, knee high boots without having to pay a fortune for them from calf-fitting boot specialists.

So am well happy and am gonna wear them all the time.

 

[yo-yo-dieter]

Lost 3lbs yesterday, My weight in KGs has now bypassed the seventies at 69.7, and my weight in stones is now officially under 11st at 10st 13lbs! Obviously I am very pleased. I only lost 1kgs (2.2lbs) but because she just converts the kilos into stones and doesn't bother faffing with half pounds, it went down as a 3lb loss this week.

Didn't weigh in this morning because my friend and her kids from down south stayed last night and the scales are kept in the small bedroom, so no unofficial weight to report today.

She hasn't seen me since Xmas, so has really noticed a big difference however she told me (quote) "You must be careful with that lighter life, because my friend lost weight on it, and put it all back on again". However it transpired that her friend didn't attend for counselling, and went back to eating the way she used to do, so it's hardly surprising.

 

[Sambucca]

wow. congrats on the fab loss Yo Yo. Must feel fab to be officially in the 10s. And less than 1 stone to go to target now. You must be feeling great.

 

[yo-yo-dieter]

Unofficial weigh in today was a good one, 10st 9.8lb! I wasn't expecting that.

I've been nibbling lately, and when I checked my urine last night it was negative for ketones, and this morning there was only a trace, so I am determined to get back on track and be as good as I can for the next four weeks - eating consciously if I must (my bosses leaving do) but no cheating. I've done really well so far and look good, so now I think "I'm Cured!" but I signed up for fourteen weeks + management when I started, so no sabotaging now! *wags fingers sternly at self*

Sam - is that you in your avatar? That's a lovely photo - my son's birthday is the same day as yours, he'll be 11. I'm rooting for you that you'll lose that 13lbs

 

[yo-yo-dieter]

Unofficial weight today 10st 9.2lbs.

Still only a trace of ketones in my urine (maybe due to half a sausage I sneakily ate last night - I think I will have to give up on this vegetarian mallarkey). I knew this would happen, I knew that as soon as I ate something I would not be able to stop.

I got some good buys in the charity shops yesterday (trying to stock up on Autumn clothes) and three pairs of high heeled shoes in the Ethel Austin sale for £22! All the size 12s fit me (apart from some Oasis trousers that were a bit tight but I'll slim into the damn things as they were so nice).

Decided it was time for another measure as it's four weeks since the last one
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Bust 42.5 38.75 ( - 3.75)
Waist 38.0 32.00 (- 6.00)
Hips 45.5 40.00 ( - 5.50)
Stomach 42.5 34.50 ( - 7.00)
Thigh 26.0 21.75 (- 4.25)
Calf 16.5 14.75 (-1.75)
Above Knee 18.5 15.75 (- 2.75)
Arm 14.0 12.75 (-1.25)

Although I guess a lot of those inches lost will be muscle?

 

[6stlost]

Yo-yo, BEHAVE YOURSELF!!!!!

I remember telling you in my email before you started this that you really must remain abstinent for this diet to really work.

As you know by now, it's sooooooo not about the food, it's about what's going on in your head. You have ample homework that you could be doing instead of sneaking in sausage and other non-food yukkies (I now regard chips, pastries etc. as non-food because there really is nothing in them that my body cares for or can utilise in any favourable way).

What's going on with your stroke profile? Why do you think you need the food? What are your goals for your weight and your health for today? For tomorrow? For the next week? Write out those goals and stick to them.

Are you trying to prove to yourself that "I'm a failure because I've failed every other diet, it's how I'm destined to be"? Then you have a 'good' excuse to believe is the reason. Is that why you're not honouring your commitment to yourself to be abstinent for 14 weeks? Is it scary that you might actually succeed and then not be able to identify with yourself as a yo-yo dieter anymore?

Just a few thoughts for you. I hope it doesn't upset you. I just would so love for you to succeed in banishing your unhelpful thoughts and actions, because, although the scales are still going down now, it's those exact same thoughts and actions that got you to obese in the first place and that's more than like exactly where those thoughts and actions will take you back to.

But of course it doesn't have to be that way. Use your homework to help you find new thoughts and new actions that support size 10, or size 12. Not size 18.

Well, the wedding and holidays were great. As a result of Lighter Life I managed two weeks all-inclusive and didn't gain any weight at all. How chuffed am I? Weight pre-wedding 9st, weight after Belgium 9st5lbs (Belgian chocs and champagne! Well, it WAS my honeymoon! ), weight after Egypt 9st3lbs, weight now 9st2lbs. Current size still 8-10. Pre-LL size 24.

Big positive strokes for you, I have out my pom poms and am cheering your success so far and cheering for more success for you for your last 4 weeks of Foundation.