=) I've just got my new order which is mainly strawberry jam bars, cherry almond bars, sausage mix and vanilla shakes.
Just need enough vanilla shakes to have a 'milky' coffee in the morning.
So Today, had vanilla coffee, pints of mint tea at work, with one coffee with drop of milk.
Then home for a Dahl pot from my last order (quite yummy wish I'd known, I would have ordered more)....
Then I've just had a jam yogurt crunch bar (yum) with a small cup of earl grey. Half a pack left, not sure what to have yet.
It all feels manageable at the moment, but I'm not complacent.
Mmmmm, mindfulness!
I have done a Vlcd several times, successfully each time.....until I stopped. Each time I never thought I would put the weight on again, each time I ditched the Vlcd, getting bored with it, shining with pride that I'd lost shed loads, clever 'ol me. Clever 'ol me is thinner again, until I didn't notice I'd put on 4lb, that became 10lbs, became 2 stone....not so blooming clever.
Okay, so if I don't want that result again, which I don't, I need to keep going, even when I've lost 3 stone, even when I'm bored eating soups and shakes, even when others say 'ooooh, you don't need to lose anymore'.
I will need help to get over the 'mind humps' I expect the mind games will start when I start to see my slimmer figure. That will not put me off.
I am going to stay the course.
However, it is worth noting that b4 I met hubby, when I was size 12-14, I attracted on 2 separate occasions, gorgeous, charming psychopaths into my life, who devastated my life and took me a long time to get over. I know for certain they would not have looked at me twice the size I am today.
So Deep down I've always known this fat layer keeps people away, especially the charming nutcases. I was size 12 when I met hubby, but ballooned to size 18/20 almost overnight, I.e in about 4 months I put on 3 stone. This layer protects me, keeps away the nasties.
I'm going to have to develop new ways of keeping them away. I'm hoping wrinkles and a few grey hairs will help. Maybe my new mantra will be 'they can all f- off, I will be a size 12 again'.