Claire's art of self-sabotage

Thanks!

i work about 8ish til 5 mon- fri, and then 6-10pm Tuesday and Thursday, and 2-10pm on a Sunday. I'm punishing myself for something, obviously! Lol!

feel shattered and can't be bothered working tonight. I'm sure the 4 hours will fly by....!
 
Hope the 4 hours fly by x
 
I have had to download a water app to remind me to drink as im terrible for going all day without a single drop of anything!
Really enjoying packs but feel so lifeless today I just want to go to bed!
Very jealous that your getting new boobs mine after 2 kids mine certainly aren't what they used to be and Im assuming this will get worse with weight loss :/ x
 
I'm hoping I'm getting new boobs at the end of this! I'm confident about the weightloss, but much less confident about my bank balance! Depressed myself yesterday as I had to transfer £1000 into my current account because I obviously pis**d more money against the wall over Christmas than I should have. No idea what I spent it on.

im so angry with myself.
 
Plan will help you save on food! ! You can do it.. spare money towards boobs xxx

ha I know I'll be getting mine done again after kids!

Xmas is such an expense. .I'm gonna try to put 30 quid away each month for it this year! !

Xx

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I was hoping to out £300 a month away for it, but it's looking more like £200. Will try my best. My £1000 float is now gone. Looking more like my credit card boob job by the minute!
 
Ok, two jobs done for the day. I am absolutely shattered, but can't sleep. Not been sleeping well since I started this diet. Hoping it gets better?

Anyway, today at job 1, I mostly yawned for the first half of the day, but perked up a bit. Not been big on conversation today either. Job 2 I mostly just felt like a zombie. Someone actually told me I looked really tired. I am.

came home at half 10 tonight and had my final pack of the day - cottage pie. Showered and now in my bed. My eyes are stinging from the tiredness but my head is so awake.... Another restless night by the looks of it :/
 
Morning, I think I slept for a good 4/5 hours last night. I was in a pretty decent sleep and then the cats woke me up just after 5am.

think I might ban them from my bedroom! They did get chucked out though, but getting up made me need the loo!!!

Still pretty shattered, but I finish at 5 today. Might just go home and go to bed! --- never likely to happen ---

Oh well, bring on day 7 :)
 
Oooh is your weigh day tomorrow? How exciting ive had t send scales with hubby to work to stop me becoming obsessive! Gosh that sounds insane! Glad you managed some sleep in dreading that point as my kids are always up at 5.30! x
 
I can't stay away from the scales either, it's awful! My scales at home are electronic, but we have old school scales in the bathroom at work and they don't think I've lost any weight.

In work. Freezing. Sleepy. Hugging a cup of tea. No one else is in yet, so I'm enjoying the quiet!
 
Everything is calling at me this morning, kids had toast and left crusts and I just wanted to devour them! I'm freezing too, got a busy afternoon so hoping that will keep me occupied and warm!
 
I think I must be walking around like a zombie today. By 11.20am I honestly thought it was late afternoon and wanted to start packing up to go home.
Might see about getting some sleeping tablets or something on my way home. Really need a good nights sleep. My lack of concentration and blurry sleepy vision is really impacting on my work.
 
I use melatonin if I'm really struggling. It's good for just getting you into that natural sleepy ready for bed mode. I think it used to be only available in the States but I have seen it online lately. I also think staying away from screens last thing is supposed to help - although probably impossible.

Yeah, not staring at screens isn't really going to work for me. My second job is security so I sit and stare at cameras all night, and I work on computers at my other job, and, well, im sitting using one now! LOL!
 
So... Day 7. Lets discuss it.

Cats woke me up at 5.30am and I had to get up to pee! Had a sore head and couldnt get back to sleep.
Got to work about 8am, and at 11.20am and I honestly thought it was about 4.30pm and I was looking forward to going home because I felt shattered. Unbelievably gutted when I realised it was still morning. Spent the rest of my day like a half shut knife.
Came home, showered and then went to the kitchen to stare at meal packs thinking "I dont want to eat any of these" and eventually decided on a coffee and a dark choc truffa bar - which i didn't like. I sat down on the sofa to drink my coffee, and eat my bar, and sat in cat pee. They two of them were obviously fannying about in the living-room and knocked the door closed and couldn't get out to the hall to their litter tray.

Couldn't have pee'd on the lino in the kitchen, or a cat bed, or even the carpet... No... they had to pee on my luxury fabric sofa which is specialist clean only.

So... I calmly (and that's not even sarcasm, I am very calm - which is strange for me because I have a really short fuse and a bad temper) took all the cushions off the back of couch (its a pillow backed couch) and then took the covers off the seat cushions and sat the foam sections upright on the floor. Pondered for a minute and then got changed and went to the supermarket for bicarb or soda and white vinegar.

I have sprayed the base of the couch and the foam cushions with vinegar and bicarb, and covered the sofa in bicarb. The covers have gone in a delicate wash with vinegar. If they dont survive the wash, or I still smell cat pee, it will be looking like a trip to DFS on Friday after work to order a new suite.

I am more than unimpressed. Both of the cats are very close to being on the re-homing list.
My kitten gets spayed next Thursday, and looking forward to letting her outside. Hopefully they will both want to roam free and stop trashing my stuff and waking me up at stupid o'clock.


I still have another pack to have and I cant be ar*ed. I'd go to my bed if it wasn't for the fact I know I wont get any sleep.


I should have bought goldfish.
 
Oh dear lol

Kinda cute though.
Joking. I'm sure you must have been furious. Hopefully you'll manage to find a way to calm them down. It would be so sad to have to have them rehomed :(

Hope your evening is slightly better

M x
 
Oh dear lol

Kinda cute though.
Joking. I'm sure you must have been furious. Hopefully you'll manage to find a way to calm them down. It would be so sad to have to have them rehomed :(

Hope your evening is slightly better

M x

I won't really get them re-homed! Well, not my adult cat. He is a rescue cat and he's a bit sweetheart. My kitten is just very, well, kitteny! And I hate children, so it's testing me. And when I say "my" kitten, I mean my OH's!

Thinking I might just have another bar for dinner, or a packet of cheese and onion crisps. Cant be bothered making a meal (I know, the whole 30 seconds it takes!) and I also cant be bothered drinking a shake!
Might go wrap myself up in my bed. Its got to be comfier than sitting on the floor!

LOL x
 
I just spilled a can of coke zero over the floor trying to get the kitten out from behind my tv.

changed my mind. I would re-home them. Feel like all I do it continually tell them off and all they do is continually scratch all my stuff and chew all my cables.

Gone to lie in bed, with the door shut so they can't get in. The OH can entertain the kitten for a while.

having another bar. Figure two bars is better than only having 3 packs?
 
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