I am back from a very short break with myself

I'm just not ready to give up with this. I have really immersed myself in the Beck Diet soloution and think that so much of it will help me with another attempt.
I was lazing around earlier feeling sorry for myself wondering if i could accept myself as being fat whilst stuffing down my feelings with about 8 cookies when suddenly i thought STOP! Only i can change how this ends, i dont have to be the fat mum at the school gates, i dont have to shop for big cheap clothes...i can make my destiny. So i am starting 810 now...this minute...so what i stuffed a load of cookies in my gob...i can still have a shake and some grilled chicken and veg later knowing that tomorrow morning wont be the official first day and that feeling of dread!
Food has no power over me...i can do this!